4 Your Eyez Only / 只为你阅 - 为什么J.Cole是我心中第一的Rapper

4 Your Eyez Only（4YEO）是J.Cole 在2016年12月推出的专辑，4YEO享誉无数，不需要在此列举。而我认为，这张专辑是我心中第一的rapper - j.cole（没错他比Kendrick还棒），创作出来的最细腻最好的专辑，可胜2014 Forest Hills Drive。下面便是我对4YEO中最重要的几首歌所述故事的理解。
歌词取于genius.com，分析参考同名影片：J. Cole: 4 Your Eyez Only

For Whom the Bell Tolls / 丧钟为谁而鸣

”咔嗒“
音乐刚刚响起，空灵的音乐便传了出来，

I see the, I see the— / I see the, I see the— / I see the rain / Pouring down

我在雨中彷徨，丧钟愈响，我却无处可去，我想要死吗？

J.Cole的整张专辑是一个人生故事，从Immortal（永生）开始，作为青年的我便在摸爬滚打，社会的不公注定我只能在社会的底层生存，

Have you ever seen a fiend cook crack on the spoon?
Have you ever seen a nigga that was black on the moon?
Have you ever seen your brother go to prison as you cry?
Have you ever seen a motherfuckin' ribbon in the sky?

你见过人在勺子上烧crack cocaine吗？✔
你见过登月的人有一个是黑皮肤的吗？✖
你见过你的兄弟伴随的你的泪水进监狱吗？✔
你见过神迹显现吗？✖

They tellin' niggas, "sell dope, rap or go to NBA"
In that order, it's that sort of thinkin'
That been keepin' niggas chained at the bottom and hanged
The strangest fruit that you ever seen, ripe with pain, listen...

She's Mine, Pt.1 / 我的她 （一）

这首歌是J.Cole 最毫不保留来表达自己对妻子爱意的一首了，柔美缓慢的节奏，不多只有一段Verse的歌词，但是爱意却深刻的留下，J.Cole对“她”表达爱意

Yeah, I wanna tell the truth to you
I wanna talk about my days as a youth to you
Exposing you to all my demons and the reasons I'm this way

J.Cole对“她”表达爱意并不是第一次，在2014 Forest Hills Drive 里便在Apparently 抒发了对母亲的爱，而后面也会出现

Change / 变化

“我知道你渴望纸上的改变，但真正的改变只会是内在的”- J.Cole 对于black community里的自相残杀痛心疾首，而这正是因为末尾我们听到的悲剧

Pistols be poppin' and niggas drop in a heartbeat
Scattered like roaches, a body laid on the concrete
A body laid on the concrete
Look, somebody laid on the concrete
No time for that, ain't no lookin' back, cause I'm running too
I made it home, I woke up and turned on the morning news
Overcame with a feeling I can't explain
Cause that was my nigga James that was slain, he was 22

She's Mine, Pt.2 / 我的她 （二）

“哇~哇~”
与She's Mine, Pt.1 一样的题目，一样的旋律，却是不一样的“她”，歌曲里不断的婴儿的哭泣声，不需要多言便明白，除了儿子、丈夫，现在又多了一个身份：父亲。

Reminisce when you came out the womb
Tears of joy I think filled up the room
You are now the reason that I fight
I ain't never did nothing this right in my whole life
Got me thinking...
Am I worthy of this gift?

4 Your Eyez Only / 只为你阅

与专辑同名的最后一首歌，一共4段Verse，超过8分钟的时长，故事也要写上尾声了

前三段Verse，我一直有预感死期将近，写下这首歌给我女儿：Nina

If the pressure get too much for me to take and I break
Play this tape for my daughter and let her know my life is on it
Let her know my life is on it
For your eyes only

…… You probably grown now so this song'll hit you
If you hearing this, unfortunately means
That I'm no longer with you in the physical

I got the strangest feeling your daddy gonna lose his life soon
And sadly if you're listening now it must mean it's true
But maybe there's a chance that it's not
And this album remains locked
In a hard drive like valuable jewels
And I can teach you this in person
Like I'm teaching you to tie your own shoes
I love you and I hope to God I don't lose you
For your eyes only

到此处，我本以为这张专辑是J.Cole写给她女儿的，可接下来的最后一段Verse改变了一切

One day your daddy called me, told me he had a funny feeling

……He said, "Listen, I got no time to dive into descriptions
But I been having premonitions
Just call it visions from the other side
I got a feeling I won't see tomorrow
Like the time I'm living on is borrowed
With that said, the only thing I'm proud to say, I was a father
Write my story down, and if I pass
Go play it for my daughter when she ready"

原来，专辑中的“我”并不是一直以为的J.Cole，而是他因为black community里gang violence死去的朋友“James”。整张专辑是J.Cole以自己的方式，按James的遗愿，以James的身份自述，把他的人生告诉了他长大的女儿，只为你阅

Your daddy was a real nigga 'cause he loved you
For your eyes only

”咔嗒“