靈氣與慢性疲勞症候群(CFS)
靈氣如何拯救了我的人生 How Reiki Saved My Life
1994 年初,我接受了切除右側卵巢和闌尾的手術。手術後一年,我的闌尾切除部位仍然持續疼痛。我看過很多醫生,並進行了許多探索性的手術。但什麼也沒找到,雖然疼痛最後終於消退了。但這是加重我隨後各種疾病的許多壓力因素中的第一個。
除了無法解釋的疼痛外,在手術後的幾個月裡,我還出現了一些其他奇怪的問題。我開始出現嚴重的焦慮症、嚴重的疲勞、潮熱和不耐熱,我的頭髮也開始脫落。我意識到這些問題發生在我月經週期的後某個星期。看來我剩下的卵巢功能並不正常。我做了很多內分泌激素測試,結果都是正常的。我嘗試使用避孕藥、貼劑和天然黃體酮。這些都沒有幫助-事實上,我感覺變得更糟。我的婦科醫生不知所措。他給了我他能想到的所有已知藥物。
我的疲勞變得難以忍受。傳統醫學對我沒有幫助,所以我嘗試了另一種方法。我去看了順勢療法,但我對順勢療法產生瞭如此嚴重的反應,以至於我的傳統醫生認為我中風了。我有兩個星期不能移動我的頭或手臂。這種反應持續的時間長度在順勢療法中並不常見,所以我又出現了一種新問題-醫學異常反應。似乎沒有人能夠提供幫助。
症狀繼續的惡化。焦慮症變成了全面的神經衰弱,伴隨著嚴重的疲勞,我無法起床。我對大多數食物和藥物過敏。尋找可以提供幫助的醫生令人感到沮喪。很快他們就說這一切都在我的腦海裡,並試圖開抗抑鬱藥。那時我對所有藥物都有嚴重的反應,每次嘗試新藥時都會休克,甚至是推薦用於治療慢性疲勞綜合症的維生素。
到 1994 年底,我已準備好結束自己的生命。即使有朋友的幫助,我也無法照顧家人,更不用說工作了。我什至不能帶我五歲的女兒到另一個街區去上學。我丈夫不得不在家做所有的工作,並做一份全職工作。有很多次我會打電話給他下班回家,因為我對藥物或食物有反應。我把我放在房子裡的手槍的鑰匙給了他。最後,我打電話給一位心理專家,並要求在自殺監視下住院。
謝天謝地,我的新治療師很棒。他幫助我意識到我的頭腦狀況很好。但是我的身體一團糟。他竭盡全力只為在我身邊,正是他永無止境的支持幫助我度過了這些更糟糕的時期。
我的身體快要死了。我不能起床,我不能吃飯。每月的神經衰弱對我的免疫系統造成了損害。我的肝臟功能不正常。嚴重的肌肉痙攣會讓我徹夜難眠。我甚至找到一個醫學博士看了我的血液測試報告,也無法診斷我的問題。我不斷地向上蒼祈求幫助。然後有一天我終於得到了它。
在這段經歷中,有時我可能有一個小時的時間可以站起來做點什麼。其中一次,我選擇做我在世界上最喜歡的事情:買布料。我遇到了一個很久沒見的朋友。她對我憔悴的外表感到震驚。當我向她描述我的病情時,另一個女人聽了我們的談話。她似乎想和我說話,但她忍住了。最後她說我患有慢性疲勞綜合症(chronic fatigue syndrome),而且我的故事聽起來很像她的狀況。她告訴我,洛杉磯一位出色的醫生曾經幫助過她,現在她感覺很棒。
我立即去看了這位醫生,他是過敏症專家和免疫學家。知道在這一點上,藥物或維生素無濟於事,他讓我嚴格只吃肉和蔬菜,以擺脫慢性疲勞患者普遍存在的全身性酵母菌問題。他還診斷出我患有EB病毒(Epstein-Barr virus)和纖維肌痛(Fibromyalgia),這是一年來醫生的首次診斷。
雖然許多醫生低估了全身性酵母菌過度生長在整個免疫系統負荷過重時可能在體內引起的問題,但我在這裡要告訴你,這是一個非常可能的問題,它可能會產生劇毒。而飲食的改變開始正一點一點地緩解我的疲勞。
我原來的荷爾蒙問題仍然存在。出於這個原因和其他原因,我的新醫生建議我嘗試靈氣。 “那是什麼?”我問。他告訴我靈氣是一種能量治療方法,我不一定要理解或相信它才能幫助我。在這一點上,我很絕望,想嘗試任何事情。有時候,您病得很重,以至於您將以何種方式康復都無關緊要。只要不是侵入性的,不用口服任何藥物,我都願意嘗試。現代西醫讓我失望了,我顯然是被引導到這位醫生那裡尋求幫助的。所以我嘗試了靈氣。
我的靈氣治療師是黛安。我每兩週就有人開車送我去洛杉磯參加一小時的靈氣治療。治療是如此簡單。黛安只是在我穿好衣服的時候把手放在我的身上,就是這樣!她的手會變得很熱。在兩個月內,我的進步非常明顯。
黛安告訴我,我可以自己學習靈氣,靈氣不會消耗我的能量。這非常重要,因為我沒有什麼可以給予的。我上了第一堂靈氣課程,且每天都練習,且沒有放棄。兩個月後,我參加了二級課程。在六個月內,我的疲勞和荷爾蒙問題已經簡單而溫和地消失了。
今天的我感覺棒極了-可能是我這輩子最好的狀況。我不僅治癒了我告訴過你的問題,還治癒了濕疹、低血糖和背痛等終生的問題。我已經參加了所有的靈氣課程,現在可以教導靈氣給其他人。我仍然每天對自己進行靈氣治療。
對於所有患有傳統醫學標準無法治癒的疾病的人,我要說:“不要放棄;永不放棄!”有一種方法可以讓你健康。我們慈愛的上帝希望我們所有人都生活在愛和健康中。我祈禱你們所有人都像我一樣走上健康的道路。也許靈氣也會成為你的道路。
作者姓名:
迪安厄普頓
延伸閱讀:
How Reiki Saved My Life
In early 1994, I underwent surgery for the removal of my right ovary and appendix. For a year after the surgery I had continuing pain at the appendectomy site. I saw many doctors about this and had many exploratory procedures. Nothing was found and the pain eventually subsided. This was to be the first of many stressors that would add to my ensuing illness.
In addition to the unexplained pain, in the months after the surgery I had also developed some other strange problems. I started having severe anxiety attacks, severe fatigue, hot flashes and intolerance to heat and my hair was falling out. I realized these problems were happening during a certain week in my menstrual cycle. It appeared that my remaining ovary wasn’t functioning properly. I had many hormone tests, and they all came back normal. I tried using birth control pills, the patch and natural progesterone. None of these things helped—-in fact, I felt much worse. My gynecologist was at a loss. He had given me every known medicine he could think of.
The fatigue became unbearable. Traditional medicine wasn’t helping me so I tried an alternative path. I went to a homeopath, but I had such a severe reaction to the homeopathic remedy that my traditional doctor thought I had had a stroke. I could not move my head or arms for two weeks. The length of time that this response lasted is not often experienced with homeopathy, so there I was again—a medical anomaly. No one seemed able to help.
The symptoms continued to worsen. The anxiety attacks turned into full-blown nervous breakdowns with accompanying fatigue that was so bad I couldn’t get out of bed. I became allergic to most foods and medicines. The search for a doctor who could help was frustrating. Pretty soon they were saying it was all in my mind and tried to prescribe antidepressants. I had severe reactions to all medicines by this time and would go into shock each time I tried something new, even vitamins recommended for chronic fatigue syndrome.
By late 1994 I was ready to end my life. Even with the help of friends, I couldn’t care for my family, let alone function at a job. I couldn’t even take my five-year-old daughter one block to school. My husband had to do all the work at home and work a full-time job. There were many times that I would call him home from work because I was having a reaction to a medicine or a food. I gave him the keys to the pistol I kept in the house. Finally I called a psychologist and asked to be hospitalized on a suicide watch.
Thank goodness for my wonderful new therapist. He helped me to realize that my mind was fine. It was my body that was a mess. He did everything within his power just to be there for me and it was his never-ending support that helped me make it through the even worse times to come.
My body was dying. I couldn’t get out of bed, I couldn’t eat. The monthly nervous breakdowns were taking their toll on my immune system. My liver wasn’t functioning properly. Severe muscle spasms would keep me awake at night. I couldn’t get a diagnosis much less find an M.D. who would look beyond the typical blood tests. I prayed continually for help. And then one day I got it.
At times during this experience, I would have maybe an hour when I could stand up and do something. One of these times, I chose to do my most favorite thing in the world: shop for fabric. I ran into a friend I hadn’t seen for a long time. She was shocked at my emaciated appearance. As I was describing my illness to her, another woman listened to our conversation. She seemed to want to talk to me, but she held back. Eventually she said I had chronic fatigue syndrome and that my story sounded so much like hers. She told me of a wonderful doctor in Los Angeles who had helped her and that now she felt great.
I immediately went to this doctor, who was an allergist and immunologist. Knowing that at this point, medicines or vitamins wouldn’t help, he put me on a strict meat-and-vegetable-only diet to get rid of the systemic yeast problem that is so prevalent in chronic fatigue patients. He also diagnosed me with Epstein-Barr virus and fibromyalgia, the first diagnoses in a year’s worth of doctors.
Although many doctors underestimate the problems that a systemic yeast overgrowth can cause in the body when the entire immune system is over taxed, I am here to tell you that it is a very viable problem that can be extremely toxic. The change in my diet started to relieve the fatigue little by little.
My original hormonal problem still remained. For that reason and others, my new doctor recommended that I try Reiki. “What is that?” I asked. He told me that Reiki was an energy healing method and that I did not necessarily have to understand or believe in it for it to help me. At this point, I was desperate and would have tried anything. There is a point when you are so ill that it doesn’t matter what you will do to get well. As long as it was not invasive and I didn’t have to take any medication by mouth, I was willing to try it. Modern western medicine had failed me, and I was obviously led to this doctor for help. So I tried Reiki.
My Reiki practitioner was Diane. I had someone drive me to L.A. every two weeks for a one-hour session. The sessions were so simple. Diane simply laid her hands on my body while I was fully clothed, and that was it! Her hands would get very hot. Within two months my improvement was very noticeable.
Diane told me that I could learn Reiki for myself and Reiki would not deplete my energy. This was so important because I had none to give. I took the first class and practiced it every day without fail. Two months later I took the level II class. Within six months, my fatigue and hormonal problems had simply and gently faded away.
Today I feel fantastic—probably better than I have in my entire life. Not only have I healed the problems that I have told you about, I have also healed lifelong problems with eczema, hypoglycemia and back pain. I have taken all of the Reiki classes and can now teach it to others. I still do Reiki on myself every single day.
To all of you who have illnesses deemed non-curable by traditional standards, I say, “Do not give up; never give up!” There is a way for you to be well. Our loving God wants all of us to live in love and wellness. I pray for all of you to be led down your path of health as I was. Perhaps Reiki will be your way too.
Author Name:
DeAnn Upton