I read about the good, the beautiful, the self and love. *The better part of my heart is open.
爱的勇气
在最后一句之前,我们都无法确定诗中的我和他到底是什么关系。“Broken knees” 和 “would be better” 都在暗示他处在一个糟糕的境地,而 “I care about you” 则表明我试图给予援助。"Crazy" 是他拒绝我的关切的信号,重复四次的 “I care” 是我一厢情愿的姿态。我被他吸引,却遭到他的排斥,而他的排斥却莫名加剧了我们之间的张力。
是我接受了 “blues” 的暗示,一个音符接着一个音符,走进那神秘的 “deep song”,还是他看似不经意实则阴谋密布的 “smile” 和 “lifting his eyebrows” 操纵了我内心的节奏,让我步步深陷?我感到了危险,也因为危险的逼近而兴奋不已。这是一种多层次的,复杂的心理感受;它让我对他的认识蒙上了一层悬疑的面纱。他究竟是 “good dark man”,还是 “bad dark man”,我说不清楚。我真的在乎吗?或者说,我应该在乎吗?我能不能在完完全全认识一个人之前,先毫无保留地在乎他?
最后一句试图终结所有艰难的试探与痛苦的延宕:我爱他。这个结尾一方面显得仓促,甚至轻率,因为诗中的我回避了他是谁,他是否值得我爱的问题。但同时它又是真诚而有力的,因为在解决问题与爱他之间,诗中的我毅然决然地选择了后者。即使带着深陷其中而无法自拔的觉悟,也要向着无法预知的未来盲目地投入。这是诗中的我展现的爱的勇气。而我们,有勇气说这不是爱吗?
POEM-LOVE-4/10
Deep Song
/Gayl Jones
The blues calling my name.
She is singing a deep song.
She is singing a deep song.
I am human.
He calls me crazy.
He says, “You must be crazy.”
I say, “Yes, I’m crazy.”
He sits with his knees apart.
His fly is broken.
She is singing a deep song.
He smiles.
She is singing a deep song.
“Yes, I’m crazy.”
I care about you.
I care.
I care about you.
I care.
He lifts his eyebrows.
The blues is calling my name.
I tell him he’d be better
do something about his fly.
He says something softly.
He says something so softly
that I can’t even hear him.
He is a dark man.
Sometimes he is a good dark man.
Sometimes he is a bad dark man.
I love him.
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