something in my head today

Something in my head today 今日碎碎念

It is his jungle now and the party is just his tool kits. 

i dont own any parts of the country. i accidentally live in here. i pay the rents（tax） so i can stay here for a while.  

try not to go to hospital. my insurance is kinda charity i wish.  if i get cancer. i will live with it as part of myself.   improving essential medical skills for myself. and Maintaining health . just like what i did in past three years.

i identify myself as human without country. i dont go to the war for any country. who force me join the war automatically be my No 1 enemy.

no need to be suicidal 不要自杀 . More and more chances to get executed for many kind of reasons .  Nobody can avoid death. make big noise if it is a normal one. before that Living my life with full hearted. 

Don’t get into jail. It is kinda wasting time. and it’s bad for healthy，physically and mentally 

i understand he/they will build a system making people fight/hurt each other (斗争）. Make it typically a jungle .  I have to understand how to Live in a Jungle . 

trying to avoid any potential conflict with the system.  It is a giant cold machine .  Could crash anyone anything even themselves 

learn to handle my fear. but be fearless when needed.

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