My Fantasy Experience in Amsterdam - Psychedelic Mushroom Tour (Part 2)

After a long day's journey, I bought the strongest mushrooms with great anticipation, and hurried back to the hotel after dinner.

Although it was said to be fasting for two hours, in order to ensure the effect, I had to wait three hours before opening this Pandora's box.

I found that the amount of mushrooms has also increased, I really want to cry but have no tears. Fortunately, the boss gave me a piece of dark chocolate to go with it. I heard that some people are sandwiched in the toast, but believe me, no matter how you eat the mushrooms are disgusting. the taste of.

And it has to be chewed, and if you devour it, the effect will be discounted.

This time I have experience, I drink warm water to stop vomiting.

The boss said that this box can be shared by two people, but I couldn't bear it, so I swallowed it myself.

After eating a box, I went to bed as usual, listening to music and witnessing the "miracle". . . ． . . .

Half an hour later, my body started to feel light again, and it seemed that I was about to "attack". I was so sleepy at this time that I wanted to sleep, just sleep. . ． . ． ．

I don't know when I fell asleep, but I clearly remember the shock I felt when I "woke up".

I woke up, but in a dream.

Yes, I am conscious, and now I am watching my dreams clearly.

It's not that I have an entity, rather I'm just a "consciousness" watching what's going on at the moment, and somehow I know in my heart that it's my dream.

In the blink of an eye, I suddenly woke up, and this time I really woke up.

I'm blankly thinking about what just happened, why do I feel like I'm in a dream?

A dream within a dream?

At the same time, the scene in front of me also changed. It was as bright and three-dimensional as the first time. Sure enough, the mushrooms worked!

I was feeling happy when a small white hill suddenly bulged in front of me. My eyes widened in surprise. Fortunately, I quickly realized that no, the structure of the eyes returned to normal. It turned out to be the quilt covering me haha. , before I could react, the quilt turned into a small hill again, and I burst out laughing, this is so fucking fun!

I was lying on the bed and repeated the blink test, and the quilt really kept "shifting". Although it was not as strong as the first time I laughed, I stopped laughing, and I couldn't help laughing when I stopped. I laughed until the socks that I washed and hung on the armrest became bigger. I laughed when I saw the white clouds floating in the painting on the wall. I felt that I had to laugh even if I kept laughing. The first time I ate mushrooms, I kept a little bit of it. Rational, always trying to calm down the man who was laughing wildly, this time thinking about leaving Amsterdam, the whole person will give it up, what he feels is what, anyway, he is happy and does not break the law!

I really wanted to do something more, so I put on my headphones to listen to music again (ps: I recommend Happy from ACE OF BASE

Nation, The Sign, Don't Turn Around, very fitting. )

In addition to vision, I also wanted to see how hearing is different.

The music is still music, the rhythm is not abnormal, and it has not become a ghostly howl, and there is no sudden person singing, but for a moment, my consciousness seems to be detached, and I shuttle through many events that have happened in the past, like a scene. The difference between time and space travel is that it is only consciousness that travels through different time and space.

I couldn't feel the physical body, as if I was just a spirit body.

I don't know how long it took, my consciousness was suddenly pulled back to reality, and it was a feeling of being awake in an instant. However, the magic was that although I felt like I had just returned from a "long-distance travel in time and space", I noticed that the broadcast was just now. The music only lasted thirty seconds. . . . . .

This discovery scared me to death! This is too weird. . . . . ． ．

If you ask me, are you out of body? It's hard for me to nod my head and say yes, but I'm definitely not dreaming. My mind couldn't be clearer, but anyway, I don't dare to listen to music anymore, even though it has nothing to do with music. ． ． ． ． ． ．

Next, I felt the consciousness going in and out, don't ask me where my consciousness went and where it came back, I really don't know. I don't really see what the picture is, I just feel what I am experiencing. ． ． ． ． ． ． And the scary thing is that with each detachment and return of consciousness, the ego disappears too!

Depend on! How can the ego disappear!

But I really can't feel the existence of "I", all the thoughts don't seem to belong to me, they just float freely in the universe. . . . . . .

Before eating mushrooms, I read some experimental data on the Internet, and some articles mentioned that the psilocybin in psychedelic mushrooms can have an effect on the forehead and hippocampus, affect mood and memory, and make people "sense of self". " disappeared, breaking free from the state of "existence" and entering into a grander experience.

After reading it at the time, I thought it was an exaggeration, and I couldn't understand what it means to lose the sense of self. Is the Buddha's non-self can be solved by eating a mushroom?

But now I have no religious beliefs, but inexplicably have religious experiences.

Even though I knew that this was impossible, I was enlightened, but I was still very excited, so Happy!

There is still time, and you can't feel time anymore, because consciousness is constantly traveling at different "time points", and there is no pattern, so time is no longer linear, but parallel!

The concept of time, like the self, disappears at almost the same time.

You can finally empathize with Einstein's theory. . . . . .

Time is the key to understanding the theory of relativity. When we describe motion, we describe it as a function of time, ten meters per second and 160 kilometers per hour. . . . . . ． But a mathematical description of speed is meaningless unless we can define "time". Is it possible for the universe to have its own clock? Of course not, idiot! So time is not absolute. The distinction between past, present, and future is just a deep-seated illusion. . . . . . .

I thought to myself, not only do we have no past and future, maybe even past and present lives! Everything exists at the same time. . . . . . ．

And even better, all the events that represent those "points in time," good or bad, no matter how you feel, become, oh, this is anger. . . . ． ． . Oh, this is sad. . . ． ． ． These feelings are played out in turn, but you can't feel the emotions that come from them. Maybe because of this, you have a feeling of disappearing yourself?

I know it's hard to understand when I write this. I believe that even using my life's skills to describe it is not as useful as you swallow a mushroom right away.

Because my friend was recording my feelings all the way, and when I said anything, her expression was always blank. I laughed at her, where is your spirituality? You are such an idiot haha!

Fortunately, she also knew that there was no need to bother with someone who ate psychedelic mushrooms, and still visited me seriously, asking me how you were feeling almost every few minutes.

I told her I felt like the whole process was going back and forth, like the movie Edge of Tomorrow, and I kept going back to the same starting point, all the experiences all over again, all the realizations feeling over and over again, like When someone wants to teach you something, keep demonstrating a truth to you.

Friends keep asking, who wants to teach you? Did you see the face? Did he speak? It's really funny, I just have some spiritual experience, but I have absolutely no ability to see ghosts and gods.

Gradually, if I realize that the emotions that are bothering me are actually self-inflicted, I can amplify these feelings, and I can also play down the feelings, that is, if I feel angry and painful, it is nothing more than that. He forced himself to immerse his head in the water called anger.

During these countless journeys, the indescribable feeling filled my heart. At a certain "wake up" moment, I was moved to cry! Why is it so simple, I just "know" before, but I can never do it?

I don't know when it started, these incredible feelings slowly faded away, I truly "awake" and ended this spiritual journey.

When I woke up in the morning, I didn't have the first headache, I just felt refreshed. Even though I hadn't slept for a few hours, my spirit was very good.

When I got up the next day on the way to catch the train, I suddenly found that my eyesight was too good to be true. I looked around and checked again and again, that's right! This is not an illusion, and because the sight line is too clear, all the details are immediately visible, a certain floor in a high-rise building, a potted plant on the balcony of a bungalow, the last tree in the park, and a player playing in the distance. The puppies are as clear as they are magnified, and the strong and full colors make the whole world become a Van Gogh painting. ． ． ． ． .

I couldn't help but sat down on the chair by the roadside, admiring the beauty in front of me. . . . . .

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postscript

After returning to Beijing, I happened to read a book called The Healing Code , which wrote that the key to eradicating physical, emotional and spiritual problems has been found. In the human heart, we only need one method, You can obtain the resources of love in your heart and use them to heal yourself. With the disappearance of painful memories, the resulting physical symptoms will also disappear. . . . . .

As a result, says Dr. Tiller of Stanford University, "the drugs of the future will be based on controlling the body's energy."

After reading the book, I feel that this coincides with my mushroom experience!

I also believe more and more in my heart that human beings have the potential to heal themselves, whether it is physical or psychological, so as long as you believe in yourself, even if there is no light and heat in your life, at least you can be healthier haha!

Fun Fact: The word Psychedelic (psychedelic) is a neutral word without any prejudice born in the hippie era (to avoid being equated with drugs). psychedelic, which is a merger of the ancient Greek words psych (soul) and d loun (reveal), the entire translation is "soul manifesting".

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At the end of August, I went to the Netherlands again, of course, to go to the psychedelic mushrooms, so this time the trip was very leisurely, and I chatted with the owner of Smart Shop for a while.

It turns out that the eating method last time was not completely correct, so I will add a few more points here for your reference.

1. Psychedelic mushrooms cannot be eaten every day. If you eat it today and eat it tomorrow, it will definitely be ineffective.
2. If you are in a hurry and want to try a few more mushrooms, then you can arrange to eat the medium or lower level on the first day, the weight of which is 10g or 12g, and then eat the strongest level the next day, the weight seems to be 22g.
3. After eating the strongest mushrooms, you must stop eating them for at least three days (the boss's suggestion is one week, and my own experiment is three days), otherwise you will not feel anything except chills and softness.
4. If the psychedelic mushrooms you buy are the ones with a larger portion (more than 18g), you can eat half of them first, and then eat the other half after 40 minutes to 1 hour, because the effect of mushrooms climbs to the peak after 1 hour, and then gradually become weaker, so this way of eating can prolong the peak time.
5. Psychedelic mushrooms are sold with seeds, so you can grow them yourself. It is not difficult. It feels very cost-effective. Eating 3g will have a good effect, so I heard from the boss that the output of a pack seems to be enough to eat for a year. Haha, but seeds are also banned in many places. Carry it, and be sure to check the relevant legal provisions online before buying.

The ones in the box are actually truffles, and the mushrooms are grown, so the dosage is different.

After eating the mushrooms, before the effect completely disappeared, I walked to the outdoor cafe outside the hotel and sat for a while. The feeling of why the world is so beautiful came again. I felt a steady stream of inner happiness. This desireless, but full of joyful feeling?