BL Narrative Novel Serial ｜ The year after breaking up with you (Chapter 19)

Day 127 | May 3, 2021 | I want to pursue you

After yesterday's chat, I feel more confident. I decided to go further.

From the past few chats, I know he is a guy who needs his own space, similar to me.

Today, I used an excuse to chat with Xiaosheng a lot about my past relationship with an ex. I said that when you are in love, you need to keep some privacy. I don’t check each other’s mobile phones. I usually give each other some private space. We need to stick together every day and keep in touch all the time.

I know that Xiaosheng's point of view is the same for me, so after he listened to me, he also felt that the two of us were very similar.

I immediately took this opportunity to say that I had a crush on him, and also felt that some of our love values were somewhat similar, so I asked him to give me a chance to pursue him.

After he read the message, he suddenly disappeared for 5 minutes. During the period of waiting for his reply, I think I confessed too quickly? Scared him? No chance yet?

After 5 minutes, he finally replied to me: "Yes, but because I have only ended a relationship soon, and I am not mentally prepared to enter the next one, should we get along a few more times first?"

"It's of course, we need to date a few more times and give each other time first."

yes! Unexpectedly, he agreed so easily. I'm going to redouble my efforts.

After that, I made an appointment with him to meet on Thursday.

Day 128 | May 4, 2021 | Common Ground

I told Zhengdong that I had already confessed to Xiaosheng that I wanted to pursue him.

What I'm worried about now is that I found that I don't have much in common with him. They don't say that they can become lovers, but do they have a lot in common?

I shared this concern with Zheng Dong, and asked him if I should learn more about growing plants so that we could have more conversations.

Zhengdong said that the common denominator created on purpose will not last long. Do you want him to really fall in love with you, or in love with the common ground between you? If one day what you have in common is gone, will your love be gone?

"Isn't it good to let him know the real you? You have been disguising yourself, do you want to disguise yourself? If you are together, you can't disguise anymore. He finds out that the real you is this kind of virtue, won't he be more Disappointed? Be yourself, let him know who you are and what you like, and if he can accept it, it means he really loves you."

"Is it important that you like different things and have little in common? If two people are so similar, wouldn't they fall in love with their clones? The relationship between lovers is the most important."

After listening to Zhengdong's words, I decided to be my true self in front of Xiaosheng. Being the true self is not something to be ashamed of. Although I am not versatile, it is still very good.

Day 129 | May 5, 2021 | Happy day

Today, Xiaosheng, as usual, talked to me a lot about his flower cultivation, and I tried to absorb some of it, so as not to understand completely. And I started chatting with him about some of the books I've read recently, letting him know what I like.

Xiao Sheng said, can we go shopping with us on our date tomorrow? He needs to buy some hardware and daily necessities. Of course I said yes, and I also asked to have lunch together so that our date would last longer.

Xiaosheng said there was no problem. Looking forward to our official date tomorrow.

Tomorrow's date will keep me entertained all day today!

Day 130 | May 6, 2021 | Attack subject to exchange?

Today I made an appointment with Xiaosheng at the newly opened A department store. I arrived at the place on time around 10, and Xiaosheng also arrived 5 minutes later. It seems that both of us have a sense of time, which is a good thing.

After the confession, we met for the first time, the air was filled with a faint ambiguity, and I was a little overwhelmed. Both of them were a little shy and didn't dare to face each other.

Finally, I opened my mouth and asked an innocuous question: "Have you eaten breakfast?"

Although he replied that he ate at home, but because of the beginning of this sentence, we got along better and better.

I first accompanied him to buy what he needed, and chatted a lot about his modeling work while shopping. In fact, Xiaosheng likes to make models very much. He can complete a model and has a great sense of achievement, but his income is too unstable, so he has no choice but to quit the company he started with a friend and find a relatively stable job.

I gave him advice, because I like to grow plants and flowers, so I can apply for a company that grows flowers. He said with some surprise that I thought the same thing as him, because he was also considering this matter, searching for information, and then deciding what to do next.

Afterwards, we went to have lunch and the two chatted a lot, including what he wants from his lover, what he accepts and what he doesn't accept. and what he wants to do in the future.

It felt like he was saying to me that if we accept his demands, we will have a chance to develop. But his request is the same as what he said before, which is to give him a lot of personal space to do his things, not to disturb him when he is working, and not to follow him 24 hours a day. Accept what he likes and what he wants to do, and of course he accepts everything from the other person.

The most important thing is, don't stipulate who is 1 or 0, everyone can be attacked and exchanged.

His requirements are similar to mine, except for the exchange of attack and receiving, I have never been a sufferer!

Day 131 | May 7, 2021 | Exchange Family Status

After yesterday's date, Xiaosheng actually took the initiative to say good morning to me today. Did he find me a person worth dating after spending all day with me yesterday?

He also took the initiative to chat with me about his family today. It turns out that he has a younger sister who is already married. His father is a civil servant, and his mother is a housewife. The house has already paid off the mortgage, so he has little financial pressure and can pursue what he wants to do.

The most important thing is that his family does not urge marriage, and let him choose what he wants to do. Of course, he still has no plans to come out.

After talking about his family, he also asked about my family situation. I also told the truth honestly and said that I would always live with my parents in order to take care of them, and I could not live with the other half.

He heard it and said that he could not and hadn't considered living with his lover in his current situation. He was the only boy in the family like me. He had to accept that he needed to take good care of his parents, and he had no plans to come out.

He suddenly said a sentence, his sentence: "It seems that the two of us are very suitable for us."

My chances are even bigger!

Day 132 | May 8, 2021 | What it's like to be

I invited A Yang out for tea tonight, and took the opportunity to ask him how he felt.

Of course A Yang was surprised by my question. He asked me if I was considering taking it?

I fooled over and said I was just suddenly curious but what zero felt like.

A Yang asked me back, did you not pay attention to the feelings of your ex-boyfriend before?

I didn't know how to answer for a while. Before, of course I would observe the other person's expression to see if he felt ok, comfortable or in pain, but I didn't really understand what it was like to be a feeling. Because I'm too embarrassed to ask people if it hurts? Is it still comfortable?

A Yang said that it was not accurate to ask him. He was all about sex, and he was driven by desire at the moment, and the sperm didn't pay much attention to other feelings.

I asked what I cared about most: "Does it hurt?"

"Does it hurt? But when you want to come, you will actually ignore it, but it will definitely hurt a little at the beginning, but after you get used to it, you will feel comfortable. It also depends on the other party's skills."

In the end he said: "Everyone's feelings are different, you will understand when you experience it once."

Day 133 | May 9, 2021 | Thankfully no rush

Xiaosheng promised me another date next Wednesday.

I had a small chat with him this morning, and then he said that he would be busy with some things, and he would only come to me when he was done. But I didn't expect to wait until the evening. Fortunately, I held back my temper and didn't rush to ask him if he was done?

In the evening, Xiaosheng took the initiative to find me and said that they were all busy. It turned out that he was discussing the model company with his friends all day. He answered and helped for another month and explained some follow-up work. In order to make up for the loss of his friend, he also subsidized 5,000 ringgits to the other party in addition to not getting the investment funds back.

After saying this, Xiao Sheng suddenly said that he felt that I was quite special and different from others. When he said that he was busy, I didn't wait for a response, and he would send a message to ask him if he was done.

He said he didn't like people who went out of their way to annoy him when he was busy, or had been told he would call back.

I'm past this point! Fortunately, I wasn't in such a hurry today.

My chances have increased to 20% or 50% again? Taking this opportunity, I asked him out again, and he agreed.