Aki Essays｜The gentleness I long for

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Apr 22, 2022

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Do you yearn for tenderness? What kind of tenderness is that?

I am not a gentle person, but I aspire to be a gentle person.

You can't always speak softly, you can't be gentle with everything.

Maybe I can never become a gentle person, so I yearn for gentleness so much.

Or maybe, wanting to be gentle is because you want to be treated gently.

Sometimes, when I try to look at the world with a soft gaze, the world seems to be really soft, no longer so angular and with hurtful thorns.

This may be the so-called "situation changes".

However, what is the "tenderness" people are talking about?

Is the tolerance of constant concessions gentle?

Is unwise mercy meekness?

Is it also a kind of gentleness that people are good at their words when they are about to die?

Is it a gentle person who is cruel to others and gentle to the one you love?

Are meek people slow to anger?

I suddenly remembered a sentence I wrote many years ago-maybe I am not gentle enough, and words cannot comfort people, which makes me very frustrated.
Reading it again after many years, the reason for yearning for tenderness seems to have been answered.

Later, I discovered that gentleness may be a power of tolerance.
Soft as a mother's love.
Because of its purity, warmth and familiarity, it makes people so fascinated.

Do you also desire to be gentle?

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