【Aging】The weather is sunny on July 1

I walked slowly and quietly in this dark world alone. The vast and gloomy scenery along the way, only saw the bright red flowers full of big ones, which looked so gorgeous and vulgar in this dead gray background.

And the bursts of floral fragrance, which came to my nostrils, reminded me of that memory...

I'm just an ordinary woman born in a Hakka village. I didn't read any books when I was young. I could occasionally recognize Japanese, but I couldn't read, write or read Chinese. I only communicated with the residents in my native language. .

Later, I met a kind and hard-working simple and honest man. We fell in love with each other very much and got married and had six children. However, my husband is not in good health. He has had asthma since he was a child. He has to take medicine often, and he can't farm the farmland with me for a long time.

Fortunately, the children are very considerate and often help out with the farming work in the family's fields since childhood.

But my dear partner, his health is getting worse and worse, his asthma is getting worse, we need money to go to a big hospital to cure his illness, I am so worried, I must work hard to make money; but... it is too late, He committed suicide before my youngest child graduated from elementary school.

darling, you know what? How sad is your wife? Why are you so stupid? Leave me and the kids alone.

Didn't we agree to carry the family's economy together? It's okay to be poor, I can hold many jobs, you just need to take good care of your body, I just want you to stay by my side, but...I can never wait for you to come home now, you lied that day when you went out to do it After that, the world was separated forever.

The youngest son, he is still young and doesn't know that his father has passed away, I dare not tell him...his older brothers and sisters know that the family is very poor, so they only went to middle school after graduation, and the four sisters invited each other to go there together. After working in the north, the other son went to work in the barracks, leaving our youngest son to finish high school.

darling, you know what? Our four daughters all found their own partners later, although I am a little dissatisfied with their partners, especially the husbands of the eldest and the second child, who are much older than them; however, the son-in-law is very good to my daughters, then I I can rest assured. After they get married, they quit their jobs and focus on taking care of their children. Sometimes they will go back to the south to see my mother. When I see my grandson, I will feel that all this is really happy. gradually faded away.

The two sons who accompany me have also found their life partners. However, the two brothers quarreled and quarreled again for money. The eldest son was not satisfied that he used his own money to build the house, while I was very fond of his brother. eccentric.

Because my younger son had no money to build a house, I secretly lent my private house money to my younger son, so that he could build a new home on the farmland left by my father for their family to live in. After all, both of his children still pay When I was very young, I couldn't bear to see their family of four living in that old and collapsing courtyard house.

My dear, I finally promoted them to start a family, but the eldest son is too narrow-minded and keeps telling me that I am too good to the younger son, saying that I am partial to their family, alas, dear, what should I do?

I brought up the children of the eldest son’s family; now, the two children of the younger son are born one after the other, but my feet are not good enough to help them, and the younger son’s daughter-in-law is far away from other counties. I am really ashamed of their family, so I want to lend money to my youngest son to build a new home. Children, do you understand your mother's intentions? Alas, the old problem of my foot pain has reoccurred, probably because I injured my muscles and bones while doing physical work when I was young.

Fortunately, my youngest son has been obedient, serious and responsible since he was a child.

Really, this child, I just want to support your family, what are you going to do for your mother? However, the youngest son's daughter is really cute. She always likes to fantasize some stories and tell them to the children in kindergarten. Last time, they ran over to tell me, but I can't understand Chinese. Alas, sorry, grandma can only Speak Hakka, and only understand Hakka.

Although I live with the eldest son's family and not the younger son's family, they live next to us, and it's fine. I can hear his lovely two children singing over there every night. Nursery Rhymes, sometimes, I also heard my daughter-in-law scold my two naughty grandsons for watching cartoons over there without writing their homework.

I watched my grandchildren grow up, going to elementary school, high school and college. My feet gradually became less able to move, and I had to rely on my family for a long time for care and support. My eldest son suddenly did something that made me feel very cold. , Over the past few years, the peace between the brothers has been maintained with great difficulty, and it has broken again; the eldest son knows that my feet can no longer move as freely as before, I need crutches, and I need to spend a lot of money to take care of me.

So he discussed with his eldest daughter-in-law for one night and came up with a plan to leave me to the younger son and his family to take care of. The son didn't want to take care of his mother, so he spoke very badly about the younger son's family.

Alas, the honest little son, he never said not to take care of me from the beginning to the end. Instead, he often came to visit me at the elder brother's house. When he knew that he was being spread rumors by his elder brother, he was angry and took me over to live. He will be responsible for the money that will be used for medical treatment, so I can feel at ease.

The first day I moved into my younger son's house, I was in tears. I never thought that my older son would give me such a chill and hurt my younger son's reputation in such a way.

Fortunately, his children often make me happy, especially his high school daughter, who comes to my room and makes faces at me to make me happy, even though she doesn't speak Hakka; It's very cute, and also danced a strange dance, said to be the dance of the school cheerleading competition; but, to be honest, the dance is really incongruous, it doesn't matter, my granddaughter plays the piano very well, every holiday can be Listen to her playing the piano over there for fun.

However, the two brothers and sisters love to quarrel very much. Every time their school is on summer vacation, the two brothers and sisters would quarrel while playing games. The sister and brother couldn’t quarrel with the younger brother, so they came to tell my grandma, but I don’t understand Chinese very well. However, this makes me feel that I am not alone. I like their quarrels very much. Otherwise, every time my younger son and wife go to work, and my grandson goes to study, I am the only old man left at home, and I can only listen to the radio and watch TV. It's very boring.

Sometimes, when the night is quiet, I will recall the things when I was young alone, and when I go to bed at night, I often dream of my other half who passed away early; in fact, sometimes, I think again, when can I meet him? Although I am very reluctant to my grandchildren and children; but, I feel that I am satisfied. My children are all safely married and established, and the grandchildren are all obediently studying hard. It would be great if they could die in their sleep...

But, God doesn't seem to want me to leave early, my body is gradually becoming less sturdy, and my feet are no longer able to walk. I really want to go outside and see the green leaves, flowers, and blue sky, but I need someone to help me , to be in a wheelchair.

The younger son's two children are in college, and they don't come back often. I can't often hear the lively laughter of the two grandchildren, but every time they come home from college, they look at me and make me laugh. I can't help it. Give the fortress money to my two grandsons, and the younger son will scold me when he finds out, saying that I spoil my grandson too much.

I think this is what I can do for my grandson as a grandmother. After all, the two children of the younger son have not been taken care of by grandma since they were babies. Grandma was not in good health and did not take them to school or buy dolls for the granddaughter. , I didn't let them enjoy the love between grandparents and grandchildren, I want to make up for them and give them two cares in my way.

I know about my own body. As I get older, I often go to the hospital. It’s really hard for my son’s family. I even need someone to help me to go to the toilet. I’m really sorry for them. I trouble them like this. .

Unexpectedly, I fainted suddenly while I was taking a bath. My little granddaughter was frightened and called an ambulance for me. I was in a coma and felt the palm of my little granddaughter's hand, and her warm temperature spread to my heart. What happened after that, I don't know. I only know that when I woke up, I found myself lying in the intensive care unit of the hospital. The younger granddaughter, the younger son, and the older son were looking at me in protective clothing. I wanted to cry, but I couldn’t cry. I saw the little granddaughter was terrified. The expression, she must be very panicked, the first time I encountered such a thing, I would be horrified.

I slept and woke up many times. During those days in the ICU, I was scared and alone. There were only doctors and nurses. My children and grandchildren could only visit me at the specified time. I wanted to go home, and I didn’t want to be Many incomprehensible medical devices bound my body and made me lay in bed without freedom. I was in great pain and wanted to leave this prison as soon as possible.

My kids told me that I would lose my life if I left this place, but I don't like it here, I was crying in front of my little granddaughter and my little grandson once when they were looking at me, I wanted so much to go home, I suddenly wanted to Back to my dear other half.

After I was transferred to a general ward, I still had to rely on a respirator to maintain my life. My younger son tried his best to make me feel better, but I knew my body was dying. My younger son often accompanied me in the ward after get off work. , although I asked a nurse to help me turn over and change clothes and diapers, but I didn't like it. He was so tired, and he even took his grandson to work hard with him. Later, when he was transferred to a nursing home, all the huge medical expenses were paid by my youngest son. I don't want him to be so burdened. Every time my grandchildren visit me, they will say words of encouragement, but I know that it is just to comfort me.

The day before my birthday, the sky was so blue, it was a hot summer day, I liked the sky that day, the blue was calm and comfortable, it made me feel very good.

It was my birthday at twelve o’clock in the middle of the night, and the weather was fine on July 1. I thought about it, and then I passed out in a sanatorium and was sent to the hospital for emergency treatment. At that time, in my mind, I recalled my little granddaughter and The younger son often pushes the wheelchair and wears me around the village. Every time he sees their father and daughter bickering over there, he finds it funny. I can no longer see that beautiful and warm picture, but I am not sad, because I Seeing my husband, who was still young, he was reaching out to pick me up with a smile.

I returned to the dark world again, walked safely through Guimenguan and Huangquan Road, came to the bank of Wangchuan River, and walked across Naihe Bridge. Before drinking Mengpo soup, I recalled this beautiful life, and my husband It is waiting for me in heaven.