[Daily chat] Actually, I'm blackened

I recently took a class with a colleague from the new clinic... "Actually, I feel like I've turned black...".

This sentence that pierced the silence caught my attention, as there was no patient to do it at the moment, so I carefully checked the article data... "Uh... how do you say it?"

 At that time, when I first joined the former company, I often went to work with the team leader and an old bird. As long as it was such a combination, the mode of work was that they would chat with them, and tell me from time to time how many kilograms a certain (patient) had stretched his waist. , Several machines are ringing at the same time, and I shut down one by one... At first, I wondered if this is the case in this industry. A rookie has to endure for a while, but after a long time, I start to get bored, bored, and world-weary... Later, I found out when I left. I'm stupid, I've been bullied for so long, so I decide how others treat me and I'll treat others...

"Actually, this isn't blackening, it's just knowing how to protect yourself..." I said lightly after listening to this sentence,

She was stunned for a moment, after all, although "blackening" sounded reasonable to her behavior, she also said that she did not agree with such behavior, just like "we are all becoming what we hate".

Although I have been working for nearly 3 years, I had not been “socialized” when I first joined the former company. After all, I was a team leader before and had no chance to work with other colleagues, so I ran as hard as I could at first, only to find out when I looked back. The team leader and the deputy team leader, who thought he was a good person at the beginning, didn't move at all, but he was sweating profusely... He didn't hear the machine beeping, and he was obviously a manpower, but he was doing chores such as administration, drying towels, etc. during working hours. When the timer rang, I directly reported the name and weight and asked me to pull it... The family couldn't keep up with the load, so I questioned it and got the absurdity of "I think everyone agrees to do this, isn't it division of labor and cooperation?" The answer, the consequence of this repentance is the silent protests from me and other colleagues - we didn't do it at first, and deliberately asked him to stretch his waist and neck, the towel didn't go out even after it was full, and the machine made a sound of burning. Don't move, just force him to move.

I remember that at the beginning of the implementation of this "plan", my heart was extremely tormented, because I was doing it, and my behavior was not very noble. Even if I succeeded in forcing him to apologize, I may not be happy that I have become what I am now. ...but believe me, many people really don't repent: once we temporarily stopped our actions, but within a week, we completely returned to our original shape, and we were completely disappointed - "Even if you are blinded by darkness, you will be dragged into the water" ...... Later, the team leader and the deputy team leader seldom came back in the new clinic, and this matter just came to an end...

Looking back, what was the purpose of this action in the first place? In fact, in the beginning, he just wanted him to do things well, but when he improved a little, "Actually, he can do it. Why did you do this to us in the first place, do you think we will forgive you if you change a little bit? How can you be worthy of us who have worked so hard in front of us! This sentence will appear in my heart, and this vicious cycle will continue. In the end, maybe in the eyes of others, we are also the same "wicked people", and we may continue to produce more black bubbles...

 So I'm just doing my own thing right now. It's none of my business what others think or do, as long as I don't infringe on my rights and everyone's rules...

The conversation ends with what she's trying to do now. To be honest, the intriguing "Gong Dou" drama is even more tiring than seeing the mountains and valleys full of health care patients at work. After so many experiences, when I left the former company, I gave myself a chance to let go of my obsessions and try to "forgive" the person who did it by myself. Hate yourselves... yourself, and then "protect" yourself from the very beginning: don't be too nice to anyone, and don't make bad relations with anyone; it's not the grass on the wall, but the saplings that imagine gradually growing and sturdy, walking your own way towards the sun, looking forward to long-term growth. Become a majestic tree that will not be knocked down by the violent storms of this society!

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