The little reverie

Let’s talk about the premise first: I have a migraine problem right now. (temporarily) I get headaches when I think about it. I’m trying to write an article. So this article may be a little weird, but it's written intuitively.

Since I was looking at a dessert shop last Thursday afternoon, I suddenly lost part of my eyesight, and I couldn't write for the next few days. This is the first time I haven't achieved my "goal" since I started to get used to writing 5,000 words a day - but 5,000 words are actually not enough. It's not a goal, it's just the number of words that comes naturally when you write a diary or write an essay.

This is what happened. My left side of my head always has a dull pain, but I always thought it was because of stress or a transitional period under overwork, but the pain lasted for a while, and I got used to the pain over time. Last Thursday, everything was normal during the day. In the afternoon, a regular customer came. He brewed coffee and sent it upstairs and chatted a few times. When he went downstairs and went back to the bar, he continued to type on the computer. Suddenly, the vision range of his left eye was only 20 minutes. From two-thirds to only one-third, I also received two groups of guests during that time, but I was very worried that I would faint in front of the guests.

Later, only a little gap can be seen, plus rainbow and black lines.

Although my vision gradually recovered after 20 minutes, I was really terrified at the moment. I suspected that I had a stroke in my eyes. When I couldn't see it, I felt like I was drunk before I got drunk. It's a problem with the neurology department. The doctor said it should be a long time ago, but I didn't realize it before. (Actually I know, but ignore it)

But I don't know if the neurological problem is better? At least I have no problem with my eyes. I forced myself to go to bed at 9 o'clock on Thursday night and lay in bed with my eyes closed.

In the next few days, I couldn't write well because of headaches. I'm not sure if it was the pressure that existed originally, or the pressure that came from knowing that something was wrong with my body... As long as I thought about it, my head would hurt sharply, so for the time being I wasted a few days on writing, so this article was written without thinking, I'm practising whether I can write jazz without using my head, and the test is that I don't have a headache when I write!

Just last Friday, a certain citizen invited me to the discord to hang out. These days, I can only let it go and spend some time sticking to it and interacting with other people. I have always heard about discord before, and after setting up an account, there is not much time to look at it, but based on the experience of using it in the past two or three days, I think it is not a place to divide each other, just like the way other social media is used, because users behavior change. I also don’t use social media to define the feeling of using it these days. The main reason is that different channels have their own topics to discuss. Everyone naturally chooses the content they like and are interested in for discussion.

In my opinion, it is a very autonomous mode of communication, which is neither strong nor forced. It seems that it is difficult to say that it is a kind of social interaction?

Some topics I don't understand, so I can't participate (such as NFT). I dived and watched the discussion. I think the participants are very selfless in talking about their own experience and understanding, and will not make people who don't understand (such as me) feel To the point of being divided or offended - it's just that I don't understand it myself. After all, this is also the case in the real world. Everyone has their own circles and hobbies. Naturally, they cannot mix into every circle, and mature people do not necessarily belong to which circle-because I can’t think with my brain, I probably only can speak here.

This is a miscellaneous talk. In the few days before I started writing, I asked a few people in private: "If I don't post for a week, will anyone find out?" When the article was published, it was probably restricted, right? Continuing to say that it is very complicated. Today's "New Sexy" magazine released Déjà vu - the influence of oral stories. It was an article I wrote a month ago. I completely forgot what the content was written, and I don't remember how it came from Bohemia. When it comes to Bosnia, my writing is actually based on concepts that I once had. I only checked the information when I was writing. I said that I felt that I was not serious enough and a little guilty.

In the past few days, under the discord of the suffix, @Joanna's "What Writers Do Everyday" shared the writer's daily life at home. @WorkgirlJennifer and I have discussed "Pride and Prejudice" The writing problems of narcissists and the habits of prose writers are all very interesting topics to discuss. I think a lot of discussions will be enjoyed as a person who is interested in writing, but the point of this article is not to put To promote discord, I always think that the writer may have both narcissism and curiosity about others at the same time, so he may be withdrawn but not so much that he does not like to communicate with people.

The above is purely personal opinion

I often have to write about a topic, but I suddenly think of other topics that may be related or unrelated. I probably wrote a miscellaneous talk like this, and I am not sure why I wrote this title just half an hour ago.

Cover photo: My home reading space