finished a summer vacation

After finishing the case in April, I entered the days when I had nothing to do. I remembered the e-book that I said to do. I wanted to make up the next two chapters in November last year and have no time to start work. Life after the age of forty seems like I can't wait. I watched the last episode and played it at double speed, but it was not like watching a drama, and there was always an end at the end; a life with nothing to do, burning bank deposits, watching world inflation, and the stock market rising A day later, it plummeted again, not to mention the fact that there were still thousands of dollars in virtual currency falling, so I had to smile bitterly: "I won't be surprised if it returns to zero someday."

money! The life of taking a case without a stable income is like stepping on a tightrope every day, for fear that there will be another expenditure that needs to be made up from the deposit, and the balance in each account is summed up all the time, so safe. Get through each spending gap.

To say that in such a free working life, the most difficult thing to deal with is that when you are busy, you are not human, and when you are not busy, you spend your savings. Like a martial artist, you constantly challenge yourself and control every ounce of your strength. Laxity can’t achieve the goal, too urgent and it’s easy to miss something and destroy something. You have to practice martial arts that can be shot at any time, and you can still maintain daily drills when you have nothing to do on weekdays. Don’t be in a hurry. , often falling to pieces.

Y came to ask me in May if I could rescue the design work? "Okay," I said. At that time, I had just finished the case at hand, and I didn't know what else to do besides the work of a few publishing houses. I just started to take out the e-book to repeat the progress I stopped last time, and I am familiar with the rhythm of writing the book, the instructions of the program, and the constant change of the layout and the design of the cover... I didn't think that the sudden work might interrupt the original again. I have a plan, but I have income from receiving the case, and I don’t know who I can sell my own book?

Unexpectedly, just as he was about to get ready to start taking over Y's work, he suddenly stopped. What should I do if I don't have a job? Go on vacation!

In moments like this before, I was always anxiously watching my savings only decrease and not increase, forced by the huge necessary expenditures (including all savings) as if I would die without income for a month, even though I have practiced for more than ten years , still can't stay calm when "not working" . When you have a job, you can use it for two days a day and earn two months' income a month. Why do you feel anxious that the world will collapse if you don't have a job?

I started to rehabilitate and exercise my waist, hips and legs for work, regaining my rhythm and losing weight, so it is better to continue the days like this: get up early to get breakfast, write and post, cook lunch at noon, and deal with sporadic tasks. The manuscripts and the production of e-books and commodities that should be continued, rehab in the evening, go home for dinner and then go out to exercise, return to a personal space, continue to exercise and watch TV and movies, and finally end the day with reading.

In this way, day after day, the anxiety in my heart is pushed to the edge. If you feel flustered, you should spend more time studying food and do a few more sets of exercise training. When your body has something to do, you will naturally have no time to think about your heart. panic.

A with revolutionary feelings always helps me to notice what other work is there from her interactions with other colleagues in the industry from time to time? Or whoever is looking for firefighting, who is short of quick hands, she will help me leave the contact information for those who need to find someone.

The usual practice is probably for this moment. You have to learn that anyone who is calm and relaxed can go to the battlefield without saying a word. If you don't have a strong body and mind, you may not be able to go straight to the track if you really receive a case!

The people who came to cooperate with C are also old acquaintances. They have heard each other's names, but they have never really cooperated.

The days of doing nothing have nourished my body and mind because I need to rest because I am busy, and I am not ashamed of A's matchmaking and the title "Squad Leader" (fire brigade, firefighting!) that she gave me. Quickly completed the typesetting of a book (don't ask , really soon!) also let himself get the next cooperation opportunity.

After this year's summer vacation, I took two months of adequate rest, full exercise, read a little book (and wrote them all), made an e-book, and thought about many plans that I want to continue to implement in the future.

Finally, in the thirteenth year of receiving the case, I learned how to deal with anxiety and not be dragged to the bottom.

Every day, it must be in the best condition to be able to seize the opportunity to come to the door!

20220618 Kaohsiung in yin and yang. It's really comfortable to exercise and lose weight!

Photo: 20190505 Fuguang Bookstore, Canon EOSM50 (I also miss Taipei)