Day 14—Get along with Solitude

Every night I go back to my room at 8 or 9 o'clock, preparing to write and end the day's work and rest, and there is always a feeling of emptiness in my heart. Day after day is about the same. There have been things in the past that have made my feelings up and down. These days I also meet the study goals I set for myself, have some social time and do housework cleaning and cooking. After a period of astrology and self-psychoanalysis reached a certain level, I no longer wanted to continue to explore my inner feelings. Yoga and meditation have become part of the daily routine. The daily walk that I insist on every day is also carried out as usual. From time to time, I like to forget the existence of the present in the novel, and let the stories and characters in the novel enrich my imagination.

In the past two or three days, it has started to rain on the island, the weather has cooled down, and the gloomy clouds make people feel a little depressed and let all the feelings settle down. My heart is also calmer.

Now it's just me and my solitude of solitude.

I remember a poet Rainer Maria Rilke once wrote about cherishing your loneliness and learning to live with it. I'm learning about my loneliness these days, and I have no fear of loneliness, it's like being my soulmate all the time. My talk to myself is my communication with him. Loneliness is the witness of my joys and sorrows.

Here is a poem dedicated to loneliness:

i am lonely

I come to you in the evening

I listen to your confusion

You tell me your inner secrets

Before going to bed you begged me to convey the secret to the guardian angel

I watched you fall asleep peacefully

Sometimes I come to your dreams

Let's explore the unknown world together

Finding clues to life's conundrum

I can't give you the answer you're looking for

I can only accompany you until dawn the next day

i leave you

We will meet again at night