Read "I am Xu Liangliang" Li Weijing | Girl's elegy one after another

Is there any book that I didn't understand before, but I understand one day, but at the same time I understand it, I feel a little bitter, why do I make trouble for myself?

Are you the moment in life to realize that you are just an ordinary person?

When did you find out that the reality is that the structure of class, wealth, and power in the world has long been finalized, and there is no possibility of it being reversed. Many little girls who used to be princesses are now yawning on buses and MRTs, eating rice balls from convenience stores at noon, and being abused by their bosses and throwing away documents in the afternoon. A mediocre office worker with a self-comforting face.

She once thought she was a princess, but she was just a maid of life. —P.218

"I Am Xu Liangliang" is a collection of short stories about urban women by the late writer Li Weijing, in which he talks about various love stories named Xu Liangliang. Male and female. Unsurprisingly, there is no fairy-tale Happy Ending, only Xu Liangliang, one after another, covered in bruises.

Many years ago, I heard that others compared Li Weijing to Zhang Ailing, and my curiosity drove me to read "I Am Xu Liangliang". Although I like the clean and sharp words in it, I always feel cowardly and irrational towards every woman who is aggrieved in the story. Until recently, when I turned up Xu Liangliang, I had probably experienced a lot. When I saw this group of frustrated women again, I suddenly felt that they were brave and extraordinary. And the thoroughness of the writing makes people unable to bear the repeated verification of life. Sometimes I think, is this feeling aroused self-consciousness or cruelty to myself?

Yesterday's right and today's wrong, yesterday's wrong's today's, in all things are against morality and righteousness, only in love is the rule. I said this despite the frustration that I wanted to cry. —P.32

At the Hong Kong Book Fair in 2013, writer Li Weijing shared the creative thought of "I Am Xu Liangliang". She said that the book seems to be about love and age, but what she actually wants to talk about is: "The difference between people and the The desire to break through the gap urgently." When does one have a strong desire to eliminate the gap, except for the equality pursued by the law? So she wrote about love, because when you are in love, people always feel capable and powerful to overcome all limitations (age, class, wealth, etc.). But the fact is that pure feelings will definitely be impacted by reality. If you say that you don't love it or it's not worth it, you will have nowhere to pursue it. This kind of conflicting relationship in the world is sometimes sad, sometimes beautiful, but it echoes life many times, which is tangled and unbearable.

I also laugh, a real husband and wife partner, who is always in close quarters every day and every night, living a long life like this, two people are squeezed in a small space, one person will get stuck on the other person emotionally and physically, and the elbow will hit the other person. The other party, the other party threw things and messed up. You boiled the soup and boiled a bowl of noodles for him. He even dug up a tablespoon of chili peppers and threw them in to stir. This kind of close-up, flesh-to-flesh, almost extortionate, bombing-like interference, you hate to abandon it and regret it. Then after many years of rubbing and rubbing the skin like this, you feel that you hate her to death, and when something happens, you still instinctively try to save her. Healing is the final conclusion, never a process. —P.138

On the other hand, the author does not seem to be afraid of offending people, and in a semi-autobiographical way, he sharply exposes the hypocrisy of society. A person who advocates ideals for social injustice actually scoffs at the homeless person in front of him; he should show pure artist, but demands extraterritorial rights in the name of creation; he even tells you ironically that the so-called ideal relationship is not close communication and understanding , but keep your distance.

I listened to it, and my later life also confirmed everything J said, all family, friendship and love, power, fame and status, can be used as the basic principle of ordinary life. This is that the world will gain favor if it does not respect the elders, will gain friendship if it does not show friendship to the peers, and will gain admiration if it does not take care of the younger generation. If you want to gain respect, friendship and nostalgia, the premise is that you can't get close, you can't have fun, and you can't lose your sense of proportion. An ideal relationship exists only after a certain distance and imagination. —P.121

In addition to talking about differences, "I Am Xu Liangliang" also created "Girls Learning", which refers to mature women who have suffered from social hardships and still insist on pure innocence. Although this term sounds vicissitudes, sadness and unrealistic, like obsession, it is a resistance to fate, shouting out for mature women who still harbor girly hearts. I really like her explanation for this in an interview: "Because you still need innocence, and then to persevere in this sinister world, you must know things like sophistication better than anyone else, and know what the rivers and lakes are; precisely because you have Only with true sophistication can you have spare energy, and it is possible to protect and uphold the innocence in your heart.” These words are my little belief and motivation to this day.

You don't have to read her book, but I recommend listening to this symposium. The author has worked in the art world for many years, but her point of view is clear, and her unhurried, occasionally sophisticated, occasionally witty and elegant speech is also very fascinating.