About drinking

Does wine really make you less sad? Or use alcohol to numb the function of your brain and not recall the sorrow? The worries never dissipated. I'm not a good drinker, and every time I drink, I don't feel very good, not only can't relieve my worries, but also make me unhappy.

It was a long time ago that I first tasted wine. When I was in elementary school, my parents gave me about half a glass of beer to try (it’s not right, everyone should not learn it), I didn’t like it very much, it was bitter, and I felt dizzy after drinking it. , my first experience left me with a bad memory and never tried drinking again until adulthood.

After that, I drink it when I travel. When I traveled to Korea, I was deeply influenced by Korean variety shows and dramas. I was thinking, I would be too sorry to eat fried chicken without beer, so I ordered a kilogram of draft beer. :) The taste is good, with a wheatish fragrance and not too bitter. But after drinking that one kilogram, the point came, my whole body turned red, like cooked shrimp, I felt very hot, a little red spot appeared on my neck, I was dizzy, and my heart was beating very fast. Quick, like a heart attack, very hard, in fact, I may be allergic to alcohol, I drank a large glass of water hoping to ease my symptoms, the travel companions at the time were also terrified, and in the end it was really a little better, But the impression of wine is even worse.

After going through the above things, I still didn't learn to behave well. When I came to Germany as an exchange student, that period might be the moment when I drank the most in my life. Everyone knows that wine is cheaper than water in Germany. Going to a restaurant to order wine is much cheaper than starting juice. Dark beer is indeed very good. I like its malt aroma very much. Influenced by my peers, everyone drinks it. I don't drink like an outlier, so I drank a lot of alcohol in the early stage of the exchange, although the amount was not much, about a cup each time, but the frequency was very high. In fact, every time I drink it, I feel uncomfortable, not drunk, but my heart beats faster and I feel a little breathless. I don't know why I force myself to drink. Does other people's thoughts really matter? I explain to my friends will they understand me?

I have asked some friends who like to drink why they like to drink. Maybe I will find the same feeling, so I like drinking. Some say that they like the feeling of being drunk, they are very relaxed, and they forget everything; some simply like the taste of wine; some It is said that the atmosphere of drinking, when a group of people gathers, it is very pleasant to have a drink. None of the above reasons can overcome the discomfort after drinking, so I chose to listen to my own voice. I didn’t drink too much in the later period in Germany, and I ordered Apfelschorle (apple soda) XD.

Surprisingly, no one really cares about whether I drink or not. It's because I care too much about what other people think. My friend said something to me that was very impressive: "If you don't like it, don't drink it. Why do you force yourself? People who exclude you because you don’t drink are never your friends.” After I listened to it, it seemed like I never thought I could be myself, yes, in fact, to make friends is to find some people who understand you, rather than cater to them They, it is better to really find some like-minded people. Until now, when the atmosphere is good, I occasionally drink half a glass with my friends (a half glass is the amount I don't feel uncomfortable after drinking it), but I really rarely drink it.

I don't love drinking, but I'm grateful that it taught me to listen to my voice and know myself so that others can understand myself better.