The night of the era landed in 2020

I have also thought about many ways to commemorate 2020, such as atlas or video, or by extracting monthly keywords and splicing into a complete article, etc. After all, this is my first natal year as an adult. It was said to be a very difficult year. Who knows, it really encountered so many uncomfortable things.

Good thing we got through. The 2020 questionnaire released by matters reminds me that it is better to summarize my 2020 like this, and then go to 2021.

There are only ten days left in 2020, share an event that you didn't expect to happen this year at the beginning of the year? How has this event changed your life?

I have to be honest, it's actually cooking.

I've never associated myself with the kitchen scene in the past, but the boredom during the pandemic led me to try cooking for myself, and it was surprisingly successful. Not only do I find it delicious, but my loved ones also find it delicious, and even in gatherings with friends, I am given extra anticipation and peace of mind because of my cooking skills.

I am now someone who can keep myself from starving, and I am very happy to join the "Do it yourself, food and clothing" group.

In 2020, what gives you the deepest sense of meaning?

Connect with people and things around you.

When the domestic epidemic was gradually brought under control, the opportunity to go out cautiously was not given up. In the process of meeting new friends offline or dating old friends, I feel more strongly the preciousness of being connected with nearby sex.

One day in the middle of the year, I went to a second-hand bookstore. I stumbled upon it while walking with friends in the nearby streets. I pushed open the door and went in. The enthusiastic boss was introducing his new book to the customers who just arrived. He also welcomed us very warmly. He's very good at using metaphors, and listening to his recommendations doesn't produce the stereotype of disgust for salespeople at all. After the introduction, we picked up an old Shanghai book, and the boss took advantage of his interest to guide everyone, and then a group of five or six of us started a series of rambling conversations in that small room. The topics ranged from the epidemic to the US election, and then from the cities of the last century to new technologies and doomsday. The time slipped into the evening. In the end, the boss told us that there will be screenings every Wednesday night.

Although I still don't know the name of the owner of the bookstore, I remember his face very clearly, and I also appreciate and cherish the identification of the stratosphere in that small house that afternoon, and the connection with the book proximity.

(Another thing is that I have a designated stray kitten that is quietly feeding the community, and I persisted for almost half a year. At first, it was two, and then it became four. The kittens already know me now, and I will wait for the spring of next year. When the weather warms up, I hope they can be neutered smoothly, and I hope the landlord will let us live here forever, with our kittens. Kittens also carry our connection to this community.)

The global epidemic is still severe, please record an epidemic event that you think is worth remembering.

No doubt it will be the whistleblower. Everyone in the world should keep in mind the process of events.

How has travel restrictions in 2020 changed your relationship with others/the world? Is there any person/thing that you must see/do when the epidemic is over?

Originally, I was a person with few travel plans, but the difficulties brought about by the epidemic rarely restricted me in travel. If I want to change my relationship with the world, I will think more about the epidemic from the spiritual level. Impact. Frankly speaking, the epidemic has given me more time to ingest books and videos, which has also allowed me to see more of the scenery of others. Didn't Yang Dechang say that the invention of movies at least doubled people's life expectancy? I watched more than 200 movies and TV shows this year, and I broke the practice of never watching dramas in the past, and even watched "ulterior motives" for example The adaptation of historical events like "Chernobyl"... After these viewings, I feel that I have a closer relationship with the world, or rather I have a deeper understanding of it.

What do I have to do when the epidemic is over? There is no impatient plan for the time being. Regardless of whether there is an epidemic or not, what I am going to do seems to be doing/happening. If I had to say an answer, I would definitely go to Tokyo when I'm ready.

Talk about a conflict you encountered in 2020 that was difficult to resolve. The conflict here is: You feel your beliefs and actions are in conflict.

On the road to my studies, 2020 has brought me a lot of "encounters".

In May, news of Tsinghua University's cancellation of the journalism and communication major, a series of news about graduate students leaving the world due to pressure from thesis or supervisors during the graduation season, and reports of industry involution in the employment season continued... Makes me wonder, what's the point of going to graduate school these days? On the one hand, the subject system I have chosen has been seriously questioned. On the other hand, the pressure for graduate students to graduate has always been increasing. What is even more hopeless is that the devaluation of academic qualifications has almost become the last factor that crushes every graduate in the job market. straw.

These haunted me for almost the entire 2020, and for the first time in the years leading up to graduation, I felt that my all-time belief in knowledge, or at least learning, was so useless.

Share a moment when you "suddenly understood what I was against."

When I saw that Xu Zhiyuan also started to sell books/goods through live broadcast, he didn't even have time to think about a series of propositions such as consumer culture, and I saw him give a self-consistent narrative (also called "reason") in an exclusive interview: people are Contradictory vector.

Yes, as long as you keep in mind that people are the carrier of contradictions, it seems that you can understand why at that moment he also seems to be a little "different in knowledge and action". But there are also things to be vigilant about. A contradictory person and a hypocritical person are often very similar.

How has your relationship with your body changed compared to a year ago? Do you like your current body more?

I've always loved my body! Small in stature, childish face and poor breasts, I am the happiest when I am myself.

After 2020, have you found something about yourself that you cannot stop?

In 2020, I regained the habit of keeping a diary and excerpting by hand. Bought myself a pen I liked and decided not to stop.

Please share with us your favorite song, favorite book or most memorable movie of 2020

In the case of movies, "Kill Matt I Love You" or "Throw the Books and Hit the Street".

Finally, could you please represent your 2020 with a photo.

Please fill in the blank: 2020, _fortunately there are _ matters.