Weekend talk｜Sometimes you don't have to say anything

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People often tell me "let go," but I never really know what that means. My relationship with people is very estranged. It is a habit I have developed all along, thinking it is polite or polite, but I have never hidden my feelings when interacting with people. For me, it has been regarded as "letting go".

In the past, I never talked about family and life with others. I always acted as a listener when others discussed related topics, but I actually have no interest in other people's lives, and I don't like watching artists/celebrities talk about their parenting and marriage. , financial management, etc. talk shows . It's extremely embarrassing to me about topics that are self-righteous but empty.

And what is discussed in ordinary people's meals is also secular topics, not like the prose written by female writers, talking about post-modernism and relying on existentialism. Occasionally, I recalled my apartment in Montparnasse, where intellectuals were talking out of bounds, and topics that seemed far away from life were comfortable for me.

After all, in the real world, I am an outsider who is not bound by any contract, and the connection with the country is weak only when I pay various taxes. what relationship? But I'm not cynical, I just know very well that under the rules of the game, even if I pay taxes obediently, my contribution to the country is not enough.

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I’m not sure if it’s a cultural difference or a family issue. I’ve been afraid to talk about other people’s disasters since I was a child, and I’m even more afraid of knowing about other people’s disasters... I’m not a celebrity, but I’m afraid that others will think I’m talking too much. What else can I say more special? idea?

After all, all that can be said is condemnation or regret, and there can be no other emotion to express. When I think about reading criminology, the emotional performance of a relationship person is often examined, but we can't actually say that any one person's emotions or performance are wrong, all feelings belong to oneself.

I don't know what kind of sadness/sadness is appropriate, and what kind of anger is not too dramatic? And I can't and don't have to explain to people why I'm crying or having fun at this moment.

Even if I express sadness now, the next day will be different. I will not forget to laugh when I encounter happy things. Then people turn to this post and you just expressed anger, and the next one is a happy party, don't you think? Split?

When I have no special feelings, I will choose silence.

third

When I read French literature, I often find that there is a man and a woman who are actually unfamiliar with each other, and even address each other with honorifics, but there is a marriage between them. It's just rude, or rough with straightforward packaging.

A relationship of mutual respect is what I yearn for. I consciously remember that I can't break my senses, and let him respect me in the same way. I believe the rifts after the quarrel will take longer to repair, and we don't necessarily have time to wait.

Jews are usually not used to and share their own culture, it is due to various historical factors, but also from the beginning they have been saying "separately", as if others are not holy, and others do not need to understand their culture. Of course that would be annoying.

Fundamentalists have been inheriting a culture for thousands of years, pursuing the rules and regulations, not expecting others to understand and do not need to preach, for them, others are not qualified to experience that kind of life. But there is also the other extreme. Jews who have completely entered the world feel uncomfortable even hearing the word "Sabbath", for fear that others will label them.

I have always worshiped on Saturdays since I was a child. In Taiwanese, "worship" means "Sunday". There will always be people who question why I insist on worshiping on Saturdays. A few years ago, I arrived at Milan Cathedral on Saturday and went in. I did a little prayer, but I never told someone in Italy that I was going to worship that day, and I didn't have to let him know about my culture.