we used to be

The furthest distance in the world is not the ends of the earth, but I am by your side and you don't know that I like you.

Although now I have a family and a child, some people are buried in my heart and hard to erase. Occasionally, I still feel sweet and beautiful. What I want to talk about today is her, the object of my first and second love.

We have been classmates since the fifth grade. We went through three years of junior high school, three years of high school in the next class, and another year of tutoring together. On weekdays, we don’t look up and see each other. It can be said that we are childhood sweethearts. I liked her early on, but she didn't know it.

Until a few years ago, when she was about to get married, and I was about to end my single life, I called her, and after greeting her, I told her that I had a crush on her for so many years. She was silent for a while, and said to me, "Why didn't you tell me earlier." After speaking, she might be worried that I would be lost or embarrassed, and she said again, "Is it because I became fat in my third year of high school." After speaking, they would meet each other. Heart laughed. After the phone call, I was somewhat touched.

She has good academic performance since she was a child, and her personality is stronger because of this. Apart from being a scholar, she is also very cute. These are the reasons why I liked her in the first place.

Since she is the daughter of the vice-principal of our school, the school has always prohibited puppy love. I am also a more traditional person who is very restrained in terms of emotions, so I have always liked it and did not express it. This is also my name for many years.

When I was in fifth grade, I had a crush on her. At that time, we often chatted together around the table. In junior high school, as I grew up and my hormones increased, I felt really in love with her. I write her name every day. It is everywhere in textbooks and dictionaries. I hope she will see it someday, and I hope she will not see it, so the writing is very small. After school, I would follow her secretly, and I would secretly get angry when I saw her talking to other male classmates.

After three years of junior high school, I knew that if I was in the same class with her again, I would not be able to control myself, so I applied to the school to be transferred to the next class. But after the separation, I began to learn to be decadent and unwilling to study. It was not until the second year of high school that I slowly came out and knew that I had to study hard. In the third year of high school, we took the college entrance examination together. She performed abnormally in the college entrance examination. I played normally, and I didn't get my ideal score anyway. So we met again in the cram school, but at that time, the pressure of studying was too great. In order to be admitted to our ideal university, we all worked hard to study. She went to Beijing as she wished, and I was admitted to a university in the south. In this way, the southern part of the sky and the northern part of the land, gradually lost contact, and even dared to make that phone call with her many years later.

Although things have changed for so many years, but the beauty of this relationship left me, whenever I recall, I still feel very happy. There is no regret medicine in the world, and no one is young anymore. Some regrets may feel beautiful because of the incompleteness.

I hope that we can live well in the future, to us in the past.