The song that represents me | Listening to Lin Yilian's "Still Loving You Without You" at different ages

How can a song represent you? I think there are many ways, maybe it’s a certain lyric, or a certain performance of the singer... This time I participated in the [Song that Represents Me] event of @wilhb81 and @后 Frontline KMnese, and I chose Lin Yilian’s "Still Loving You Without You" (1991) , mainly because I happened to listen to this old song again, and then found that listening to the same song in different stages of life has really different feelings. It means that I have been growing up. (Don’t get me wrong, the lyrics have nothing to do with my personal love history~)

For me, Lin Yilian is the singer of the previous generation. When I was a child, I had no interest in her at all. A few years old, I could only wonder how "Gray HA HA HA" could be written into a non-children's song. Later, her "At Least I Still Have You" became very popular, and I liked it very much, but I guess everyone is familiar with it, so let me take this opportunity to recommend older Cantonese songs.

I don’t remember the first time I heard “I’ll Still Love You Without You”. Maybe I heard it on the radio in the early 1990s. Of course, a young kid still couldn’t understand it. Until later I heard the album "Remember the Blooming LIVE 96". As a young girl at that time, I was shocked. Even though I had never had my first love, I didn't understand the lyrics (or thought I understood them very well), but I was still fascinated by them. I was moved by her tearful singing. It is said that lovelorn people will cry when they listen to lovelorn songs, but Lin Yilian has the ability to make people who are not lovelorn cry too.

I recently found another live version of her singing this song on Youtube (2011 Sandy Lam MMXI World Tour Concert) (the clip is at the end of the article), and I’m savoring the lyrics again... Huh? The original content is about the woman falling in love with the man, knowing that it is impossible but still lingering all night? It took me many years to realize it, and I have to praise the euphemism of the poet and admire my own insensitivity... "I still love you without you / Breathe this air together again / I can't bear to be together" It really makes people feel sorry for the woman in love. of grievance and humility. I don’t know if I will have new feelings if I listen to it in a few years, but I don’t want to let me feel the same way one day.

After listening to this song, I also listened to "Broader Sea and Sky" and "Naked Secret" from the same concert. I think only Lin Yilian can sing the former so powerfully and the latter so poignantly with a female voice. In 2017, she participated in the singing program "Singer 2017". I didn't understand it at first because she was already a god-level figure. Later, when I saw a report , she responded: "Some people think that I shouldn't go, but in fact I I don’t think I’m the diva everyone calls me, I’m just a person who loves music.” People can feel her down-to-earth personality and passion for music. There may be financial incentives involved, but I don't mind that. Singers have to make a living, and her performance was so good that the audience made money no matter what. I especially recommend her cover of Faye Wong's "More Than Her" .

 〈I still love you without you〉
Lyricist: Zhou Limao | Composer: Beverly Craven | Arranger: Du Zizhi You said you just want some to keep you as a souvenir I said, but there are some broken dreams, don’t wait for them to happen again, like God sent me this day, I have to say I wish things to be resolved There are still some things that haven’t been broken yet. You asked me how my icy hands could warm your smiling face. I said how everything in front of you is so skillful. I can’t express this moment. Of course I can’t estimate how warm this night of lingering is. Without you, I still love you. Breathe this air here again, I can’t bear to be together without you, I still love you, I’ve never loved you, I love you so poignantly, I hold you tightly, I hold you tightly, tell me, can you hold me by your side and sleep at night again, I’m afraid I’ll shed tears of joy. I don’t know how to hide my smile, I can’t express this moment of love, I can’t express this night of confusion, but tomorrow is not far away, I still love you without you, I’ll breathe this air again here, I can’t stand this surprise, I still love you without you, I’ve never loved you No matter how reluctant I am to let you go, I will hold you tight again and again.