Diary/Slit

I walked out of the community atrium at 1:30 in the morning and found that my shadow had become very flat. It was not only the flatness of the 3D object projected on the plane into 2D, but the whole person's body, as if it had been rolled over by something, so I couldn't see it. He is a "body". Maybe losing weight is also a reason, that makes me less bloated than before, but I can't see my outline on the plane and it seems to be a little too much? The barber I knew when I went back to Taipei to cut my hair that day said I lost a lot of weight. Although I don’t control my diet like I used to, maybe because I was busy, I really didn’t pay attention to my diet.

I often feel that I am so small, although some of them are deliberately shrinking myself to reduce my sense of existence. But sometimes I feel that I am superfluous and huge, as if the world can't hold my place, my existence has caused troubles to many people, and I really want to disappear as soon as possible. In fact, sometimes I still hope that I will be seen, I really want to be truly praised, I really want to be truly loved, obviously I don’t want to be too high-profile, but at the same time I want to be noticed. But I still choose to fold myself small and see who can float into the mailbox.

The laser light passing through a small slit can't predict where it hits, and the wave nature creates bright and dark streaks on the screen. Maybe I'm passing through tiny slits too, and my position can't be predicted.