0505 Diary _ "Something has definitely entered me. Maybe that's what I'm assigned to study now."

I have an indescribable itching on my body and head when I take a bath.
Some are rampant mosquitoes in the south, and some are acclimatized or messy living.

Abdominal pain at night.

If it weren't for the abdominal pain, I might be able to enjoy the comfortable air movement in the yard tonight, and the sense of time of the old house reflected by the red lanterns. Or maybe keep reading that heavy human graph analysis.

When I came downstairs, the black cat at home was lying on the tatami bed chair in the living room.

In the living room after the lights are turned off, the blue-green walls, calligraphy and paintings, small wooden tables and white cushions look very strange. It's like there are some things that you won't realize until everything is quiet and dark before you realize how, how...different he seems.

Tonight is so quiet, even a bit of a lot of loneliness, no one knows that I have experienced abdominal pain alone for an hour or two, like no one cares if the black cat is sleeping in or outside the house.

Suddenly pity the little black cat who fell asleep. He has experienced the abandonment of two or three generations of homeowners, and the upheaval inside and outside the house. Now he sleeps in the living room, as if he is the only one left to sleep.

I want to write poetry.
But nothing can be written.
So lying on the mattress tilted his head and stared at the pattern of the Japanese-style sliding door in a daze.

But I suddenly realized that all of this - my exhaustion, my confusion, my indulgence and idleness, all really exist at this moment,
And as SUN said, "In this world, there are no coincidences."
Something has definitely entered me.
Maybe that's what I'm set to learn right now.