"Original Novel" Purple Bow Chapter 7 "Family Love Without a Frame"
Word count: 4,700 words (masked)
Remarks: The personalities are a bit mixed, sorry orz
Cai Jie heard the voice of the crowd
Then I saw that everyone in the treatment room was in a state of panic.
kindness?
What are you all calling?
A bunch of crying and frightened and serious expressions
Ouch~
It's so ugly, everyone's face
really longevity
It doesn't look good in the first place, can it be avoided?
what
I'm a spirit now
It's incredible to be able to see your own body
Cai Jie looked at herself in a deep sleep and realized that her body was overburdened, and it seemed that her soul could not return for the time being.
"Forget it, this way you don't have to wash the floor for half a month, plus you don't have to farm for a few months, so happy." Caijie duplicitous, in fact, realized that the process of going back to rehabilitation may take a long time...
There is a complex feeling of sadness that makes you laugh.
At this time, among the panicked people, there was a junior brother with spiritual vision who was looking at himself in the air. The junior brother was so frightened that he didn't know how to react, because how could he see a senior sister lying on the bed receiving treatment from people, while the other was floating in the air. Nothing seems to be happening in the air.
Cai Jie shook her head to her younger brother and indicated with her hand: "Pretend not to see me. 』 The younger brother nodded, but continued to look behind him in surprise...? Cai Jie noticed and turned around, there was a familiar scent of tea
Standing behind Cai Jie is the master who has been smiling silently.
"Master... Master?" Cai Jie was stunned, not knowing how to react. The master flicked his finger quietly, and the space between the two instantly changed to another scene. It felt like a momentary movement.
***
Cai Jie saw the old man sitting in an elegant tea room, full of all kinds of tea sets, utensils, water tools, tea bags, and sighed, "Alas~ it seems that the old man is very happy over there." The two sat in the tea room, brewing tea with exquisite tea sets and chatting.
"Master, let me tell you a joke."
"kindness?"
"I just now~ it's weird to call a stranger 'mom' and hug each other."
"Ha, because you've always hated touching people."
"And I... I couldn't remember my mother's face at that time, but I remembered your old man."
The two were silent for a while and silently drank the tea in their hands
Then the master stroked his beard and said, "Aiya~ You are like this, the master really has mixed feelings... That little Caijie, who doesn't care about anyone's life or death, in order to save a stranger who doesn't know at all, actually... This is really~ Ouch, ah ~~" Although his tone was mocking, the master's eyes were full of curiosity and... happy.
This is really the style of a master, a practitioner of duplicity.
Cai Jie smiled and said, "No, I don't want to help, okay? If outsiders interfere with other people's problems at will, it will destroy other people's chances of overcoming their own problems. But this time, it is related to your rotten magic weapon, because ordinary people It is impossible to have the ability to remove that area, so I intervened.”
Master: "Really~ hum hum hum."
Both of them said at the same time, "Haha." They took a cup of tea and drank tea.
Caijie drank tea and enjoyed the aroma of the tea specially made by the master. After tasting the aroma of tea that he hadn't tasted for several years, he said, "But I really don't practice enough. It's a shame that a little magic weapon has made me like this!~"
The master was drinking tea and said, "What is that magic weapon, do you know?"
"Huh? Please enlighten me~"
"Okay~ the old man will be 'extremely merciful'..."
"Forget it, I guess."
"Hehe, you're still the same."
Cai Jie thought for a moment and replied, "That magic weapon exists to break people's obsessions and let people see their own obsessions."
"Oh?"
"People's attachments are materialized into countless dream bubbles, covering themselves layer by layer, and getting lost in their own 'attachment'. And what this magic weapon wants to break is also their own avatar - the demon, Yijun almost There's a price to be paid, because she always wanted to go to her daughter's place. And I..."
"kindness?"
"I have been madly cultivating in order to pursue the master's realm, so... what the magic weapon destroys is the foundation accumulated under my "attachment"."
Demon, is another self
So it's going to be destroyed
It's the part you're obsessed with
That is, persistence creates one's own strength
Caijie thought to herself, if her obsession was too deep, her body would probably have been reduced to ashes along with the magic weapon by now.
The master closed his eyes and sighed and said, "This magic weapon... is actually to help those who are too attached to break down their inner obstacles, so that people can see their attachments, reflect their appearance, and integrate their inner self. I never thought that one day the headquarters will be activated, and you will be involved.”
"Is this... that's what you often call 'fate'." If it wasn't for Yi Jun, it was indeed impossible for such a thing to happen.
Then the master flicked his fingers, and the two saw the chaos in the treatment room in the headquarters. The crying Yijun was taken care of by his senior brother, and the group of people used various methods and techniques to heal Caijie's body.
Looking at the brothers and sisters who did not know whether they were "healing" or doing a "Frankenstein experiment", there was lightning electrotherapy around the body to open up the veins, snowflakes froze the wounds that opened, and flames to keep My body temperature... Cai Jie said calmly, "I think... the body has changed like that, and waking up must be extremely painful. Just give up the struggle and just give up coming here to drink tea."
At this time, the master put the tea set heavily on the table and said in a serious tone, "No, your time has not come. There is no seat for your young man here. Don't come here to grab the old man's land." The master responded strongly. Cai Jie was discouraged.
Then there was silence between the two
Talking about death, Cai Jie recalled the past and said, "Master, I remembered the time when you died..."
"Are you telling me that you secretly scolded the Buddha?"
Cai Jie's eyes widened: "Huh!? How do you know?"
"'The one' told me."
"...Don't come here!"
Two people: "Hehe."
***
Cai Jie looked at the translucent master
I remember when my master passed away
A lot of memories suddenly popped up in my heart...
Master, when you died, the moment I finally found my "heart", my heart also "lost" its breath.
it's wired
Obviously it's natural
I already knew the meaning of "death"
It's obvious, it's normal, it's normal
why
empty heart
I was sent up the mountain by my parents when I was very young
I've been living in groups
In the mountains, in the school
But I have always felt a strong loneliness
Looking at the school, some people are having fun with their phablets from their parents
I went back to the Buddhist hall to clean the main hall, refill the oil lamp, process the offerings, etc...
When silently wiping the window and looking at the reflection projected on the back of the window
My heart is like a window, clean but nothing at the same time
I am "empty", nothing
Later, I heard that my parents had an accident and died after struggling in the hospital for a few days.
The only younger brother was sent to relatives
I was officially adopted by the master's headquarters here, and I heard that my parents had "agreed" with them before they died.
I'm not bad
to me
I'm a foreigner in this house
The concept of "family" is too foreign to me
On the contrary, it is the brothers and sisters here, the masters, and the new juniors.
It's everything I know
In the past, when the retreat center did not completely exclude tourists, and even provided some services for divination and surprise inquiries, many people from the bottom of the mountain came to find out.
Some visit, some visit, and some ask for help. Some of them are full of rejection, contempt, and discrimination against us, some people worship us excessively, and more of them are a kind of "dependency", thinking that practitioners are what they should be...
However, I just want to have a "clear conscience", and I don't care what outsiders think...
Ugh
I don't seem to be fit to live in the crowd
Only when chatting with the master
Suddenly not alone
But when the master left
I was in a daze for a long time in the hall of the Buddha Hall
I looked at the Buddha, this gentleman from abroad, who was unconditionally respected by everyone
I kept thinking, "Why?"
We are born destined to die
Why live?
Why die?
Why practice?
Why bear the joys and sorrows?
Why is this world where life and death meet, and why do we still have to be vegetarian and not kill? To remain "good"?
What is goodness?
The working mechanism of the world itself
It is simply a large machine that produces endless "pain".
why
my parents don't want me
why
Mom loves my brother more than me
why
my parents will give birth to me
why
Master is dying
why
I'm alone again
why
i want to live
why
I want to think about these questions
why
i will be in so much pain
why
People can't control their hearts
why
Are we going to be born to go through all this and then die?
Why
Lord Buddha...Please tell me "with great compassion"...
I hate a world without a teacher.
I hate myself for being defeated by loneliness again...
***
I remember that after I came out of the Buddhist temple crying, I started to practice "seriously" to increase my skills, but my "heart" still didn't have any beating.
I don't know what "living" is anymore, all I know is that every time I practice too hard and I want to give up a thousand times, when I think of that old man looking at him as useless somewhere and snickering...
It's on fire!
It's good to meditate
It's good to practice
the ceremony is fine
good in class
Copy the scriptures
Cleaning is also good
good for cooking
It's good to grow vegetables
All come! I'm fighting with you! ! !
***
Thinking of her impulsive self before, Cai Jie smiled and took a sip of tea to moisten her mouth.
"Frankly speaking, the person I saved, Yijun, has something I never understood, which is why you said before that I couldn't enlighten."
"Oh?"
"Both 'family affection' and 'heart' are too unfamiliar to me. After you died, I studied and cultivated desperately, but I was always stuck and couldn't rise again."
"..."
"In the end, what I lacked was a mother who was obsessed with her, and a girl who couldn't talk to her mother."
At that moment, Penn grabbed my hand, and I felt that kind of mother-daughter affection that I had never felt before.
The word mother means to me
too painful
Mother-daughter love for me
so unfamiliar
But bind me
is something I never admit
That is, I treat my master as my relatives
I don't know how to describe this feeling.
until the master dies
For the first time, I kept asking the Buddha for the first time in the Buddhist hall.
Stayed in a daze, kept crying, until exhausted
Suddenly I forgot how I lived and practiced in the past
I only know
The master's unique aroma of tea can no longer be smelled
The smell and the sound in my head fade away
The more effort you put into practice
The more you feel the emptiness
Suddenly the core can't be found again
Although I accept your departure
It's a matter of course
but
I still don't know how to deal with it
This is my subject
A person who wants to be a master
status
It is better to say that it is practice, cultivation, and Taoism
But the words of the master always appear in my heart
"You can't get it"
I've been feeling bad
So I don't admit defeat, I practice harder
I feel like my strength is closer to the master
learn more about the master
can become stronger
to forget everything
I can forget if my heart is still alive
Cai Jie held the teacup and said, "At the time, I only knew that as long as I had a goal, I could accept any kind of austerity, torture, or training."
The master put down the teacup and said, "However... as a result, the results of your hard work and cultivation over the years are for 'one person'..."
The faces of Yi Jun and Pei En suddenly appeared in Cai Jie's mind
then
Cai Jie compared "yeah" to the master
Yes
It's that standard victory gesture again.
The master was a little surprised and asked, "What does this... mean?"
"Master, I want to correct with two fingers, not a person, but a 'person' plus a 'ghost'."
"Uh, 'ghost'?"
"It's more like the soul of a cute and sensible little girl? It's completely different from the previous me."
"..."
Cai Jie put down her hand, smiled and said, "If you pay such a price, you can save a person from the pain of self-blame, and let a little girl's soul rest in peace..."
"worth. 』
a moment of silence
The master made a gesture of putting his hand on his chest and said, "Hey, master's current mood is really indescribable~ I am 30 million times happier than my own enlightenment..."
"Stop it."
The two of them said, "Haha." Then they put the tea in the cup into their mouths together, and they both felt the beauty of the tea fragrance at the same time.
***
Cai Jie thinks about Yi Jun and Pei En. I thought to myself, "Although that mother and daughter have a mother-daughter relationship that I don't have, I also have a master, so that's enough. 』
Then Caijie pointed at the master with a teacup and said as if declaring war: "If my body can still hold on, I will practice hard from scratch, and let others know that it's me who is "green out of blue"! I will be better than you in the future! In the future, your name will be It will be covered by my name, just wait and see! You are here to make tea and wait for me to bring a bunch of great achievements to choke you!~”
Caijie said strange things like she regarded practice as an upgrade game.
The master is used to saying: "Hehe, looking forward to looking forward to it ❤️"
After Cai Jie took the last sip of the tea cup, she said seriously, "Tell me, Master."
"kindness?"
"Can the tea be made better, I'm tired of drinking this."
The master looked at Caijie helplessly with a kind of battered but accustomed eyes.
"you……"
Then the two of them together again: "Hehe."
Finally, the taste of tea gradually fades away
The figure of the master gradually disappears
The appearance of the master suddenly became very young at this time.
It turned out that the master appeared especially in the appearance of Cai Jie's childhood memories.
Caijie is sad
Alive people, time goes on
But for the dead, time runs in the opposite way
The master's time is reversed, the state of existence becomes younger and younger, until it becomes a baby and reincarnates, or chooses another "path".
master
I'm so afraid of growing up
I have become less and less the little girl who talked back in my master's memory, and I have gradually become an adult who doesn't even recognize who I am, a trash that gets more and more confused as I live. The master also became less and less what I remembered, getting younger and younger in this world, and slowly becoming the master who didn't know me before he met me.
I'm so scared
but
I'm not afraid anymore
Because I don't change, I've been clinging to something
is the most terrifying
I understand
master
And I just remember who I am
don't be afraid
Personality of my locomotive
no matter what it looks like
Even if they become strangers
But as soon as we meet
You must be able to recognize it, feel it
This is a "continuation" of a former "destiny".
Then the whole tea room space slowly becomes "nothing"
Caijie watched all this silently
Knowing that this is not an "end point", but a transformation into "another being."
master
I was abandoned by my family and lived in despair
but i know now
affection
there is no frame
is undefined
there are no rules
In this world, because of my natural ability and hair color
The word "alive" is too cruel to me
However you
Makes me feel "home"
master
Thank you for the time you took care of me.
Let me have a lot of "relatives".
I thought that mother and daughter have a love that I don't have
But the master, as well as the brothers and sisters, let me know
I always thought I didn't have
In fact, I have always had
And now my "relatives" are waiting for me to go back...
That's enough
thank you, master
everything you have given me.
***
"Caijie!!!"
"Junior sister! Are you awake?!"
"Are people okay?"
However, when Cai Jie woke up, the first sentence was: "You guys are really noisy, it caused my sleep quality to deteriorate and dark circles to grow. Let's see how you can accompany me." Everyone who was suddenly choked laughed, the whole There is no feeling of sadness in the treatment field for a moment.
However, Caijie lost most of her abilities, and her body became weak, requiring long-term recuperation. But Cai Jie was unexpectedly calm. This made the brothers and sisters feel very incredible. The cultivation base for many years has suddenly lost more than half, and there is no special feeling of loss?
Cai Jie lay down to recuperate, occasionally got up to sit in meditation, stretched her limbs slightly to rehabilitate, and thought about all these good things.
it's wired
lost everything
practice from scratch
But very happy
because
feel
heart beating
breathing in the chest
With the emergence of the master, I bid farewell to my previous attachments, and now I can focus on "what kind of road I want to take and what kind of person I want to be in the future." Everything that was suffocating and empty in the past has suddenly become incomparably broad and free.
For the first time living so peacefully and at ease
Get a real "freedom of mind"
Others were frightened by Cai Jie's weird attitude.
Maybe it's because Caijie doesn't have a trace of pain and sadness.
different mood
Cai Jie began to slowly open her heart to everything and everyone
This scares everyone to death
But what doesn't change is that Caijie's personality is still very much like a cultivator.
"Wait, watch me catch up with you in half a year to a year, and see how I use acceleration to kill you all." Everyone looked at Cai Jie who started talking nonsense, only to think that Cai Jie's mental power was really not ordinary ...tough.
It seems that no test can fail this person.
Silently, everyone began to really see Caijie as one of the possible backups for the "cultivator"...
Cai Jie said helplessly: "I'm a 'starting from scratch' person, are you stupid? And don't use the word 'spare tire' indiscriminately?! It's really unpleasant to hear!!!" But After a long time, Cai Jie, who has many years of practice experience, quickly recovered a few percent of his kung fu, and his body was gradually able to practice a whole set of qigong.
Then one day, Cai Jie took the information given by the senior sister of the branch and went to the foot of the mountain to "do things". Caijie thought to herself, I can't recognize the master's appearance as a young man. How can men and women change so much?
At this time, I'm going to visit another person who I heard also "has changed a lot".
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