Si Kaoru | When the heart opens, the troubles disappear

Yesterday, I went out with my sisters. Rain or shine, the typhoon couldn't stop the desire to meet. We haven't seen each other for a long time because of the epidemic. It's a good place to enjoy sisters chatting happily and enjoying delicious food.

My sister gave birth to a daughter and took parental leave. Her daughter is 6 months old. It is unimaginable that she does not have the trouble of being a new mother who can never sleep enough. Her baby is really an angel baby. I don't need to get up to drink milk at all, and I'm still a Michelin baby, which is really incredible.

No wonder she looks so good. She took parental leave for two years. She was going to leave. We all advised her to take parental leave first. Now the company is in a turbulent stage. When I took office, the three fires burned the whole bank very hard.

We Neihu Gang have created memories of our glorious era. Not only have we created the performance standards of everyone in the branch, but we have not eaten lunch together, just to digest the number of customers waiting. We support each other, respect each other and a harmonious team, and now we are in performance. Under the oriented system, it can no longer exist, and people feel that some things have passed, and they will never go back.

I made paper stickers, wrote the numbers and colors, and asked them to choose the number they wanted the most. When I was late, I gave them a Zentangle drawing. After listening to their progress, it really matched the number they chose. The corresponding colors are very close.

The little girl's mood is as bright as the sun. This painting really seems to be her state of mind. She is very happy.

The number chosen by Assistant Manager is blue, and it feels like her whole heart is bound by a rigid system. In fact, I didn't design this Zen circle diagram, but it is very close to Assistant Manager's current state of mind. She is very tired and has a sense of powerlessness. Being a director of the company is really exhausting to your heart. She said that I can do so many things that I want to do, which means I am not tired enough. She heard that I woke up at 6 o'clock every day to write articles, and she thought it was too much. She was so tired that she couldn't get up every day. Come.

This sister is about the same age as me. She grew up in a single-parent family. She is very independent and independent. She was very happy when she stepped down as the homework supervisor, and she was expected to be the homework supervisor again. She said that she was a fool again. Want to come a second time? Salary is not increased, responsibilities increase, this kind of shortage, don't think about it and definitely will not do it, this orange is also close to her current mood.

I don't actually have a clear idea of what to do in the future, all I know is that I don't have the ability, all the opportunities have nothing to do with you, I used to feel that all the writing platforms revolved around Web3, and I used to get madly chasing after it, although I almost finished All the tasks, but I rely on my son to help me, I don't understand at all, I get the airdrop, but I can never understand the situation, I only know that I wanted to complete all the tasks, but when I did, I was at a loss , I have no idea what I got, even though they said that I got an airdrop from The Space, which was pretty good.

I decided to zero in on all this. My computer is so bad, why do I make trouble for myself, and I also rethink my writing. What am I going to do? When I looked at the [poems] I wrote before, I actually felt moved, because my mood could not be reproduced. Although my literary talent was limited, the words in the current mood could not be deliberately reflected. I recalled the original intention at that time so pure, Suddenly, I had an idea to organize these feelings into my own [ poetic and pictorial]. I wrote a poem and hoped to use calligraphy to present it. I practiced calligraphy again, and I wanted to use pictures to show my poems. [Draw as you like], I slowly wanted to draw better, so I started taking sketching and watercolor classes, and embarked on the [Learning Road ], because I wanted to make myself better, I met a Zentangle painting teacher, she told her story Share with me that you will never be in a hurry if you want to do it, but you will give up before you can do it.

The sisters all said, you have spent so much thought, don't you have to worry about your family? I told them that I have worked for 20 years, and now I just want to live a happy life for myself. Everyone has their own life to live. I am tired after carrying it for a long time. There is nothing more important than my own happiness. , and I share it with my family, what am I doing? I often tell my family that I haven’t finished reading the book, and I haven’t finished painting. In fact, I realize that I have learned to love myself and learn to be happy, so that I will not kidnap my family with grievances. ㄧ The whole family is the best.

Like I have a wide range of interests, I can stay at home, and I like to go out to play. I have no time to spare in my life. Through writing, I can truly empathize with my family members, because their characteristics are different from mine, my self When I noticed the time, I realized that my daughter said that I was a fake democracy. I couldn't understand the reason why my daughter did not refuse, because when she refused, I would try my best to persuade. I didn't really think in her position, I learned To the one-way street that should not be paranoid.

With an open heart, let myself find my youthful self. When my heart is opened, my troubles will disappear. The troubles I seek are all in my heart. Now I care about whether I have made more progress and make myself better. If flowers bloom , Butterflies come spontaneously, if people are wonderful, the heavens arrange themselves.