countercurrent

A few days ago, wrote a poem about pause. When the energy of creation is exhausted, playing with words on one's own accord can be regarded as a way to maintain the motivation for updating articles and keep life flowing.

When I was in the third grade last year, I didn't read or write for nearly three months. I let myself be immersed in the world of jigsaw puzzles, but I didn't really look horrible. When I came back to my senses, I actually put together tens of thousands of puzzle pieces. To be self-deprecating, I do have a talent for escapism.

Recently, the gastroesophageal reflux disease, even if the body has not deteriorated, still tried every means to keep the state on track, only to realize that I was in fear, life began to stagnate, and even went against the current. No matter whether it is sunny or rainy, when you get up, you go out for a morning run. Eat less fried food and sweets, chew each meal slowly, drink water well after a meal, and finish dinner before 8:30.

When my body sings against myself, I sigh that my normal body is always at my will to destroy, but now I have patience and discomfort coexisting.

Due to the severe epidemic situation, in mid-May, in line with the company's policy, I was able to work from home two days a week, giving me a little more time to rest. It was only gradually discovered that fatigue had already eroded the body and mind. So I gave up my self-sustainability and chose to seek medical treatment.

I went to the internal medicine department on the weekend. After consulting the elderly doctor, he said, "It's been a long time since half a year. I'll prescribe medicine for you to eat and see. Take the medicine once every 12 hours, twice a day, regardless of before or after meals. Take your medicine regularly.”

After receiving the medicine that day, I started to swallow a pack of 6 small pills in the evening, while thinking, when was the last time I went to the doctor because of an illness? But in my mind, I only have the impression of taking over-the-counter medicines in India, Nepal, and China.

In the past few days after taking the medicine, my body began to improve, I devoted all my energy to the output, and still achieved small results. I felt that life was beginning to return to the flow, and I felt a little at ease and stability in my heart. When creation becomes everyday, persisting regardless of meaning and success or failure is an attitude towards life.

Going against the current is just a dream given by time.

Achievements in May:

1. Read 4 books: Achievement (I want to talk to you, super mind, breath, walk)

2. Write 8 essays: Achievement (lightly stained plum wine, meeting in the place of war, canvas in hand, 4350 miles, freedom of the rain god, vehicle for the soul, why we work, poems in the middle of life, upstream and downstream) )

3. 2 playing and singing videos: Achievement (In my life, Norwegian wood)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g9ypoQaMcFw

4. Monthly Podcast: Achievement
https://open.spotify.com/episode/4IN1PUthFnwOGijPpxhxTh

5. Monthly song writing: 0%

6. Weekly Run: Achieved

7. Monthly mountain climbing: Achievement (Jiantan Mountain Trail)

8. Monthly small trip: 0%

9. At least 4 vegetarian meals per week: 50%

10. Recite English for 30 minutes a day: 80%

Overall achievement rate in May: 73%.