"Hey! Listen to you as a writer on the ghost island" 16 Nobles II, the ultimate pessimism may be optimistic instead (2)

In fact, I'm not sure if I can finish writing some of my feelings by just dividing the top, middle and bottom, but let's divide it like this for now.​​​​​​​

Frankly speaking, not long after I met this great man, I fell into another bottleneck period—because a year before that year, something happened that seriously affected my mood, so there were many months. time is self-healing.

During that period, of course, I also wrote works, but because of my depression, the speed of writing became extremely slow. It may also be because the resentment was too deep, so I couldn't pass the draft (covering my face). A fault that has not yet been produced.

At the time, I was a little desperate, and I couldn’t help but wonder again whether I was really unsuitable for this career, but I finally had a manuscript I submitted with my last hope, but I fell into that kind of apprehension for about a month.

In this industry, you can only have a chance to stay if you work hard to produce... Yes, after all, you will never know when you will encounter a fault period, and there will be a food shortage crisis... If there is no full-time or part-time job, I think You have to move in the direction of the slash youth, otherwise you can only eat your old QQ at this time.

The topic came back. At that time, I was waiting for the review results. I was very uneasy and happened to chat with him (at that time, I often talked to him about the ecology of the publishing house, and the difference between literature and commercial novels, etc. XD)

That day, I talked to him about the current predicament and the feeling of waiting.

Dozens of books have been published, but still no status. Although there are also works that have been on the list, but because that book is only a single book, unlike the sequel that can accumulate popularity, the books published after that have not had outstanding results, and it has been the case until now.

I have always just been writing and writing with all my heart, thinking that as long as this is the case, I will eventually be able to get out of the way, but now is not the era when you can succeed by working hard --a lot of people are writing now, but more and more people are watching. Less and less, coupled with the severe shrinkage of the publishing industry and the allocation of resources, the situation of constant stalemate continues. He felt that I lacked a title now, and it would be very different to have an award, so he suggested that I try to submit the award, but because the manuscripts in hand are basically going to be submitted to the publishing house, they must be rewritten, and there are existing manuscripts. Most of the competitions have nothing to do with light novels. In terms of literature, my works don't quite fit QQ... It takes time to change into a literary runway.

However, I am still preparing. Now I have written a book and I am ready to submit it to the light novel competition, but... Taiwan doesn't seem to have a light novel-based competition this year. XDDD

All in all, it is not something that can be changed in a short period of time, although I have long been aware of the need to endure this business, I am not surprised by such a result.

After thinking about it, I was always writing novels, and this time I wanted to try something different.

That's right, the current "Hey! The memoir of Listening to You as a Writer on Ghost Island was one of the products that came to mind at that time (but the form was different). I think this should be a work that can both express oneself and bring a little value to everyone, and I also have fun writing it.

Once, when I was very helpless, I said some depressing words, and he said something that I had hoped to hear from others since the lowest ebb, but never came true- "Your efforts. will be seen, you are not alone" .

When I heard it, I burst into tears.

In addition, his voice is very gentle and nice, for a moment I thought it was an angel coming XD

For so many years, I have been working so hard for a foolishness to persist until now. It turns out that what I fear most is loneliness, although I have always been in the company of loneliness.

It's a contradiction, isn't the person who writes the person who likes to get along with himself? How can you go from enjoying loneliness to fearing loneliness again?

Is this the so-called human nature, always dissatisfied with the status quo, always wanting to break free and change something, but feel that I don’t have that power? Or do you feel that you are really going all out for your dreams? Even if you do your best, who knows if there will be a cliff waiting behind you?

Although I always look bright and optimistic, I'm actually a pessimist at heart - always do my best, plan for the worst, and if the worst is acceptable to me, then it's fine Well, right? XD