My 2019 Questionnaire/Newcomer Report

1. There are less than ten days left in 2019. Share an event that you didn’t expect to happen this year at the beginning of the year? How has this event changed your personal life?

In March 2019, I went to the hospital for an examination due to physical discomfort, and the doctor told me that an operation would be required to solve the problem. From the inspection, diagnosis, and scheduling, it has been nearly a month, and the day of surgery is already in early April.

Because it was a minor operation, I didn't think about telling my family at first. I finally said it, but clearly rejected the family's offer to come and escort me. At the same time, it also rejected the kindness of friends who knew him. I don't want to appear so helpless in front of people.

Before the operation, the doctor asked if there was a family member to accompany me, and I said no. The doctor's expression froze, and he said in a low voice, it is better to have it, after all, it is general anesthesia.

After that, I asked my nurse sister, Duo Duo, to take care of me, and asked her to help me identify the nurse aunt in advance.

On the day of the surgery, after waking up from general anesthesia, I saw my eldest brother and my roommate sitting beside the hospital bed. The next day, my second brother came over. During this time, many people came. Among them was a girl who gently accompanied me for an afternoon and fed me, which led me to fall in love with her later.

During the few days I lay in the hospital, I realized that I was not that strong, and I became more aware of the need for intimacy in my heart. In terms of actions, they will actively express their thoughts and try to create intimacy by themselves (although unsuccessful).

Another thing is that within two weeks after the operation, I mentioned my resignation. In the industrial and commercial society, time is precious, and there is no need to spend time wronging yourself.

2. Say one thing that made you feel the most powerless in 2019. Did you try to change it? If you can't change it, how do you deal with it?

On the occasion of the 30th anniversary of June 4, the connection between the inside of the wall and the outside network was broken again. After that, it coincided with the 6.12 Hong Kong parade. So, I experienced the pain of being isolated from the outside world for more than a week. Back then, I logged into the VPN every day to see if it recovered. When I can't log in, I'm even a little depressed. I laughed out loud when I was able to connect at some point during the period.

The most powerless thing in 2019 lies within the deep walls, and can only be manipulated by others.

Change: I can drill a hole so that my body and the Internet can log in outside the wall. The wall, however, is there, and can only occasionally be spoken of about knocking it down, advising others to climb over it. But too much to say, too lazy to say.

3. In 2019, what made you feel the most powerful?

Beginning in February 2018, follow Master to learn Tai Chi, Xingyi and Bagua.

Thanks to having a certain foundation of Taijiquan, with the most basic leg staring, the upper body of the boxing is relatively fast. It's a pity that if you don't work hard, the weekly practice can only be considered a cost-effectiveness. Beginning in 2019, I forced myself to go to the martial arts gym in Dongguan to practice every week, on Saturdays and Sundays. In addition, I practiced occasionally, and I have improved my boxing skills.

The most obvious change is in Liuhe Jin (Jin Jin). At the beginning of the practice, I was told by my master, brothers and sisters that I had no strength and could not hold hands (i.e. push hands). Now, when it comes to training, I have been praised by my master for not practicing in vain. When dealing with a more rigid classmate, you can also send it out at will.

Of course, I learned a lot this year, but the most regrettable thing is that I didn't play much actual combat. In December next year, I should go to the Sanda competition with my classmates to hone myself.

4. Describe a person you met this year who makes you feel warm when you think of it?

Except for the girl mentioned above, there seems to be no more?

5. Is there a moment when you realize that time is passing, and do you panic about it?

In 2019, a good friend bought a house, bought a car, got married, and had a child one after another. In one year, he completed the major life events in the traditional concept.

In 2019, my parents began to talk and say that they should find a girlfriend as soon as possible.

2019 is coming to an end, and I'm about to finish the quarter century of my life in 2020, so I'm still quite flustered.

Although, they all say, I'm still young.

6. 2019 is also known as the "Year of Circumcision". In this year, is it easier or more difficult for you to stay close to friends, relatives, and lovers?

At the end of October, I saw an article on the public account "Plan C", " Should we break up with political disagreements? | Aspects No.24 ". It was also in this public account that I heard the word "political depression" for the first time. When I heard this concept, I was suddenly aware of the source of those emotions over the past few months.

This year, political topics are rarely discussed with friends and relatives. Once it is mentioned a little, the cognitive difference between the two parties will be obvious. When I am aware of this difference, I will divert the topic in time, or keep silent to avoid meaningless disputes.

This year, I participated in seven or eight reading clubs, which involved many political issues. Little pinks, liberals all cross together.

Except for a few friends with the same three views, I can only blow water on this occasion.

7. How has your relationship with your body changed compared to a year ago? Do you like your current body more?

In early December, I went to an open dance class. Although I was rolling around on the ground a lot of the time, I was very open and had a good laugh. After class, teachers and other resident members of the institution all said that I surprised them.

I could see that they didn't say this to get me to sign up.

After all, this year feels every moment of the year that your body expresses the desire. From time to time it dances to the music on the street.

So, I, who had never been exposed to dance, signed up for the course. However, after the official class, I still found my body stiffness and lack of imagination, but after all, it was just the beginning. I think, I still like my current body, it's not ordinary.

8. Do you like the city where you are now? How would you describe your relationship with her?

Since the Guangzhou Metro also started security checks, I like the city a little less.

The place where he lives, he is not sure that he will take root here.

9. In the past year, can you name a point of view that has been changed by others?

Listening to the topic of lawyer team building and marketing a few days ago, the speaker mentioned a point:

Most people make choices based on conformity. This is the underlying logic of marketing.

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10. Please fill in the blank: 2019, nothing really matters

11. Finally, can you share your most listened song, your favorite book, your most impressive movie or your biggest brain hole in 2019?

Song: Wu Bai/Mok Wenwei, "Reason to be Strong". Watching the movie "Last Night on Earth" caused the disaster;

A book: Qin Hui, "Common Bottom Line"