Chapter 15 Martyrs' Shrine

[Time: March 2015, Li Zhihao Junior High School]

(Written By Su Xueqin)

At the end of March, Youth Day, Martyrs' Shrine, Spring National Memorial.

I participated in the entire National Memorial Ceremony. This time, my mother didn't come. I said to Haozi's father, "Please let me participate alone, okay?"

Five fighter jets of the Air Force Thunder Tiger Group flew over the Martyrs' Shrine in the formation of geese to pay tribute to the martyrs.

I looked up at the arrogance of Top Gun and couldn't help but shed tears.

Dad, I'm here to see you, you're in the sky, how's it going?

After the National Memorial Ceremony, I went to the spiritual seat of Major Su Jingtian alone. I have a lot to say to you.

Dad, if you are alive, I really dare not admit to you that I am gay.

However, when you are in the sky, you should be able to see me now, living a very happy and happy life.

You can even say, proud of it!

Although, at school and at home, I still carefully hide my sexuality, but in Li Zhihao's house, I can indulge my youthful body arrogantly and wildly, and enjoy the deepest desire to be a comrade.

But it made me tangled: if you were still alive, I might not be so happy!

I once thought about whether the other you in the parallel time and space would beat me with a broom and then throw me on the street viciously: "I don't admit that there is a gay son like you!"

Because, I have always had a deep-rooted concept, the military family's family education is very strict.

I don't know if I'm going to confess to you like this, will you be angry?

Please, Dad, don't be mad at me in heaven! Did you see that I am living a good life now, that is the kind of family life I have longed for since I was very young!

My mother still took care of me growing up. Then, I had a godfather who treated me as my own, Mr. Li Dingjia, and his son, Li Zhihao. We formed an alternative family of four.

I love Li Zhihao so much, I even want to spend the rest of my life with him!

I seem to be a little too precocious.

But, Father in the sky, if you have become an immortal, you should continue to bless your biological son who has never met!

So please continue to bless me, let me grow, let me thrive.

And, let me find true love.

okay?

Dad, I love you!

As I held back the tears that were about to fall, I heard a crowd of people noisily entering this quiet little hall.

"Student, why are you here alone?"

I met a famous person I had seen on TV news and he came up to me very kindly.

His entourage also reminded the accompanying reporters not to shoot!

"I'm here to see my dad, so Major Su Jingtian."

"Su Jingtian... Su Jingtian... God, I have an impression of that pilot who died in the line of duty. Are you his son?"

I suppressed the tears and snot that almost burst out, and nodded lightly.

"You should have never seen Major Su, right?"

I nodded again. "Yes, I am a posthumous child!"

"My God, you've grown so big? You're a junior high school student, haven't you?"

"First-year junior high school, Riverside Junior High School in New Taipei City."

"Your father is a good man and a hero! He must be in heaven to take care of your wonderful child!"

I couldn't take it any longer, I took the tissue he handed me and wiped the two lines of tears on my cheeks.

"I didn't expect to meet you here, Su."

Then, his valet handed him an envelope, which he handed to me.

"If you have any difficulties, call here and we will help you. Then, I will give you a little scholarship. I wish you a smooth study and a safe day!"

I held back the tears that were about to burst, and stammered out:

"Thank you, thank you President Ma!"

The group of them left the hall, and I was cleaning up and preparing to leave the Martyrs' Shrine.

But another soldier who was obviously of high rank walked in.

"Student Su, I'm Colonel Liu, do you have a little time for me to talk to you, okay?"

I don't know him, but I believe it is the duty of a soldier to protect his family and his country, and like my father, he should be a "good guy".

I followed him into an office, the standard, professional military office. There are national flags, military flags, and on the wall to the right of the entrance, there is a large three-dimensional topographic map of Taiwan, Penghu, Jinma and Horses.

"Student Su, do you know where Fanlu Township is in Chiayi County?" He pointed to the topographic map and asked me.

I shook my head. Colonel Liu led me and pointed me to a small town on the west side of Chiayi City, near the mountains, and let me know the correct location.

"On July 9, 2001, when I was on vacation at home, I was helping the family's persimmon orchard with fertilizing and weeding.

"At noon, I heard a very unusual noise in the sky, I looked in the direction of the noise, and I realized that something was wrong!

"I won't talk about the uncomfortable process, but I must let you know the information I came into contact with later..."

I listened quietly. This was the first time in my life that I could hear with my own ears the deeds of my father's death.

"I read the investigation report, and Major Su apparently gave up his last chance to survive by jumping...

"Otherwise, there will be at least a hundred persimmon gardens in Fanlu Township that will be completely destroyed, and there may be more than a dozen or twenty families, and their families will be destroyed...

"Your father, Major Su, is the greatest soldier I have ever seen. He is regarded as a hero in our village. He sacrificed his little love for his family and turned it into a great love for the nation, saving many residents in our village..."

I am very excited. Finally, for the first time since I was 13 years old, I got to know my father's heroic deeds so closely.

"I just have this opportunity right now to take the ceremonial team and guard the Martyrs' Shrine.

"Every day I go to the small hall where your father is, to offer incense and fruit to him.

"This is my greatest tribute to your father on behalf of the residents of our township."

Then, he kicked his legs loudly, stood upright and dignified, and gave me a military salute.

I know my identity, and it is not appropriate to return the salute, but with tears in my eyes, the embankment burst again, and I said to him politely:

"Colonel Liu, I am very proud to have such a father!"

Dad, you are truly amazing!

I am proud of you, proud of you!