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Occasionally listening to the love songs that young people listen to, I often laugh at myself involuntarily, thinking about how the undeveloped body can understand the hard work in those love songs? Always humming those "dreams, songs and loved ones" (Zhou Zhiping's childhood sweethearts, 1990) or listening to Jiang Yuheng's "Looking Back" on his father's tape recorder, as if he For example, his father, who was not even forty at that time, also looked back on his look back.

At that time, the idol singer Zhang Yusheng sang "Thinking of You Every Day" might not be as attractive to me as "My Future is Not a Dream", but in that album "Missing Me", there were always a few songs that were later heard on the tape because the tape might be too fast. If it's broken, the love songs "I can't love you little by little" and "Just for you" that can be hummed so naturally... Even the little tiger team, which was loved by most of the girls and a few boys in the elementary school students of our time, was also there. Each album is packed with love songs that can be used to rap and sing teenage years.

When I was a teenager, I liked to write poetry for a while, and write the kind of words that can be hummed if I composed music. I imagined that one day I could make a few cents by writing those romantic romances. (But I never made up my mind to become a poet or a lyricist.) I always thought that if I listened to love songs a lot, I would be able to understand the mood in the lyrics, as if anyone could live in the depths of their hearts and remember them. For a lifetime, only later did I realize that life is a game of loss and forgetting. Those who stopped at a certain stage of life, looking back or mentioning how much they kept it in their hearts, are all hypocritical.

Like the song Sodagreen sings: "And you, after you left me, didn't change at all; and I, after leaving you, kept moving forward." (Sodagreen "Meet Again", 2013) or as Yao Qian wrote to Tanya Tsai's "Stranger Things" sings: "I'm not sad anymore, I even sincerely hope that you can be happy, when I understand that you only live in memory... When I find out from your eyes that I am already a stranger." ( Tanya Tsai "Stranger", 2003)

It wasn't until the end of the previous relationship that I listened to the song "Stranger Things" seriously. On an ordinary day, on a road that I often pass by, when I met my ex-lover walking hand in hand with another person, I didn't stop the car to stop the other person, or even speed up to leave the scene, as if I met a friend I hadn't seen in a long time. But after getting away, I remembered that we were strangers.

After that, as long as I listen to those sad and sad loss or look back, it will not be as sad as when I was humming a love song when I was young.

But love songs are like this. Someone always writes, listens, and sings. The world is not good without "love". Those sweet and greasy "Girls" like Lin Youjia are like lollipops in childhood. In the mouth, sweet to the heart! Listening to it also feels like a wonderful love story.

Later, there will always be some love-related sentences. Even if you are not in love, because all the creations in this world have elements of love, it is still easy to write some words of love and sorrow.

Every time I pick up my mobile phone or tap on the keyboard, no matter whether I finally learn to love or not, or "It's a pity that time doesn't wait for us", they talk about love or not love at a certain moment, I always wonder if my love is too bitter, or the songs I listen to are too sad, so I always write these contents that seem to be so sad in my heart?

Or in fact, he just copied the emotions in the world's love affairs according to the script, mistakenly thinking that he will always be the protagonist, but he has never loved so passionately, and imitated those love songs to talk about one after another self-righteous and hard-working love.

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What to miss, after you have chosen what you want to say in silence

What more can I ask you

Those who are related to you will never leave the future related to you

Singing the me who learned to love later but has nothing to do with you anymore

Pack your photos and letters Put the memory drawer unlocked Let it sink down in the mind

Everything about you will never meet with me and there will be no future

Take back your care and greetings, exchange a lock of time, lock your tenderness, and move me

All the things I once said no longer remind you that you came

Later, when I wrote love poems, I often engraved those emotions with the feeling of "farewell". Don't bring the past to the future. The future should be like all love songs that get up and move forward, and don't mention the past.

But after all, love songs are easy to go straight to people's hearts, knocking open the pieces that were finally patched up, and getting into my heart makes myself extremely painful. Those who have never loved do not know, and those who have loved always have to face the future of life.

No matter what was written later, someone always said, "Why are you still standing still!" Some people may not understand, love and being loved, sometimes only depends on whether you love yourself or love others more! When you love yourself more than others, writing these hum ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah in place, also regards as falling in love in the text!

"Later" was written in 20180711, which was found in a notebook in 2019. It may have been written while drunk.

Photo: 2016 should be taken during the Chinese New Year by cycling to the old iron bridge in Dashu, Canon AE-1