About Scars - Shadows of Drowning

"Look at the three of you. It's been a year since you took swimming lessons. The other students who didn't know how to swim have learned freestyle. You are still learning to float and hit the water." The swimming teacher said to me in the fourth grade of elementary school. .

The other two, I don't know why they can't learn to swim like me, but fortunately, there are them, otherwise I will be the only one who has been learning to float.

I still remember that in the first lesson of swimming class, the swimming teacher asked us to bury our heads in the water to hold our breath and exhale through our noses.

At that time, as soon as I put my head in the water, I would think of the shadow of drowning.

How did drowning happen?

Let's take a time machine and go back to the younger me.

As for how young I am, I don't remember much, I only know that I am younger than the fourth grade of elementary school.

At that time, I went to the hot spring with my family, and it was the public pool.

There was a group of kids who should be a little older than me. I watched them jump into the hot spring pool from a high place. I watched them play the diving game. With a "pop", I jumped into the hot spring pool. Tragedy happened and I drowned.

It was very dangerous. At that time, my uncle was next to me. He saw me drowning, so he pulled me up, or I might have died.

Go back to me in the fourth grade of elementary school.

At that time, it took me a long time to learn to float without the floating board. Every time the teacher took off the floating board, I would be very scared, afraid that I would sink into the water. As long as I was afraid, my body could not relax.

I always tell myself, don't be nervous, don't be afraid, relax, and finally I learned to float on the water without holding a float.

And I also learned to float before the end of the second semester of the fourth grade.

In the summer vacation of the fourth grade, after all, I can only float and draw water, which is not really learning to swim. My mother let me continue to learn to swim, and finally learned freestyle.

Now, I can swim and float freely in the water. It can be said that I like swimming in the pool very much.

But, has the shadow of drowning really disappeared completely?

I don't think it's complete, because I can only swim freely where I can step on the floor. If it is a place where I can't step on the floor and there is no life jacket, I will still be very nervous, even a little afraid of water.

My mother once asked me, "Why do I know how to swim, but I'm afraid when I can't step on the ground."

I only call him back, probably because I was drowning when I was a kid.

Although the shadow did not disappear completely, but at least, I got over half of it.