0410 Diary _ "After understanding those reasons, will things be resolved better? It will be easier to accept, but not better."

Still depressed in the morning and arguing with my sister again.

Eat hot pot with friends at night, then go to a youth hostel to drink and chat with a new friend.

The new friend is a tarot fortune teller. After knowing that his original spirit is a Phoenix, he now knows again that she is a descendant of the Nuwa type, so his family has a recessive gene for spiritual power, but it has been broken for several generations. Only in his father and his generation had spiritual power.

Asked a lot about things that I am curious about, such as gods, Buddhas and ghosts, dimensions, induction, etc.
The earth has entered its end. Mobius Belt in different dimensions.

I asked him to use the star dice to help me with the part about the concept of love,
Sure enough, a lot of things were indeed my problems that I was fully aware of, and then I talked a lot about the extra reasons of my repression and escapism. So he understood.

"Confused, hurt, frustrated. Escape, deliberate, relaxed. Service, commitment, work."
I probably knew myself a long time ago. After that period of darkness, all the values that were originally tightly saved were bullshit.
So I reconstructed the whole face of myself.

You can't push him back every time an emotion arises, and don't try to search for the origin or inform him.
Inform every emotion that arises, and you can avoid subsequent larger outbursts.
I am changing, time and time again.

And about philology, deconstruction, personality hierarchies, McDonald's.
Alien Invasion, Prediction, and Literal Minds.

The sister is elf and he's a Santa Claus kind of thing.
They are all rare, pure human spirits, and they tend to be elves.
As soon as I chatted with him for the first time, I knew they were similar souls.

"You know, I often have a terrible imagination about death. I often feel like an endless darkness, eternal silence and loneliness." I said, "So every time I think about death I get scared. Very ”
"Where the hell did this kind of idea pull you? It's not like that at all." He smiled and said something about death. The soul is the mind and the soul is different from reincarnation. When the soul is forgotten, it is basically over, it is just the scum that remains.
"Well, I don't know where the idea came from, but it was very strong and very scary."
He looked at me and said, "Because you've been trapped in your shell, hatched badly, confined inside, and died like that."

"Would things work out better after understanding those reasons?"
"It would be easier to accept, but not better to resolve."

Then talk about him.
"How should I put it, I think I'll accidentally believe it after I lied to it."

Now I am the one who separates the will of the individual from the will of the opponent.
I respect every will, and I respect myself,
So I do what I want to do, I want to influence you, and you don't want to be influenced by me.
That's separate, you understand?
So when I have reached this stage, I feel like I have no choice but to stop.
All this is unwilling to anyone.

"Actually, I don't think it's important to love or not. Sometimes it's just whether the needs of both parties correspond."
"Actually, I don't think the truth is important, because the point is what I feel and what I want."
Yes, it's just that my intellect and sensibility are also separate.
I also respect them at the same time.

To what extent can fate be reversed by manpower? I asked him.
He said, it can be completely reversed, but most people don't do it.

I also respect them. Human will and fate.
I'm not that magical and fearless species after all.
I have such a big shell, and although I can run very fast and belong to a dragon, it is still very heavy after all.

I will wait until the period I set.
At that time, if I still wanted to contact him, I would be good friends with him.
And if you don't want to, don't want to. I say.