Miscellaneous Hand Accounts (36) - Just Be Comfortable

She has been a relatively gentle and delicate girl since she was a child. When I was a child, my parents also cultivated it deliberately. I bought many children's books at home and often took me to the bookstore to read. But under the quiet appearance, I have a special interest in film and television culture and pop music.

I don’t know if it’s influenced by these popular cultures. Probably since middle school, my classmates and friends around me noticed that my speech was “weird”. It wasn’t actually funny, but the logical reaction or conclusion I made would make people laugh. I just feel like what I'm saying is "nonsense". After I went to the university dormitory, this feature was carried forward even more. Because I lived with my classmates, I was found not only a little weird in logic, but also very confused in personality, which made everyone think I was cute. Moreover, although I studied in the liberal arts college, I have a group of male friends in science and engineering who like to see me in a daze.

So in college, I always thought my ideas were very creative.

However, these "advantages" that seemed easy-going and easy to make friends when they were students, faced cruel tests after they left the society. First of all, it is no longer easy to find a job in a liberal arts college, and a confused personality is a landmine. No one should want an employee who often makes mistakes. If you talk nonsense, your colleagues may also smile at first, but after a long time, some people will think that you are deliberately taking the lead and become the focus, but have a competitive hostility to you. And when you are young, you are cute and confused, and everyone can easily forgive you, but if you behave like that when you are old, you may become a blind eye.

Just because of the ups and downs at work, I became very melancholy, lost my smile for a long time, didn't speak any more, and didn't want to make any friends in the workplace. Everything was work-oriented, and I hardly knew it after get off work. Have redundant interactions with colleagues. However, I try to be "the same" as everyone else. Even if I am not an undergraduate, I hope to do the same work seriously, aiming to achieve a level similar to everyone else's qualifications, and I will not seek special and special things thing. Because I am not a manager who needs to make decisions, just a small screw.

However, for such a change, I may be a little sorry for my good friends, because I am no longer the cute girl who looked weak and friendly and would start laughing whenever I heard anything.

However, in recent years, with the growth and maturity of my age and various experiences, I have felt that the expression on my face to my colleagues and friends has eased a lot and is no longer so tense and serious.

When a person reaches middle age, he begins to have a desire to "return to his original heart", and he wonders if he can find his character before he fell ill. However, when people are middle-aged, they also have less desires and desires for many things, so I think whether it is cute, serious, special or boring, life is actually, it is good to be comfortable.