more determined to return home

I've been busy with some trivial things these two days, so I really can't find time to write. From the moment the ticket was booked, that kind of happiness accompanied me all the time. When I am in a good mood, my inner inferiority complex is restrained. Because of the parking system in the community, the same car cannot be parked in the same parking space for 48 hours without moving. Therefore, it is undoubtedly a problem for our family returning to China. So I asked in the small group where I was learning English, wondering who had an open space where I could park my car. A female classmate responded enthusiastically and asked her husband if the parking space next to the warehouse could be parked, or asked her husband to move out a space for us to park. Chinese people like this one are in the minority. I'm very grateful. Later, the pig still felt that the car needed to move when it was parked, so he gritted his teeth and stomped his feet and decided to stop there.

Then because this classmate knew that I was going back to China. If there is anything, please let me bring her friend's mobile phone back to her home. Went to her house for dinner. In America, it was my first time visiting someone's house. She said that there was no hospitality, and it was barbecued in her backyard. So, we were invited to go. Her house is very big, like a palace. It was the first time I visited someone's home up close. It's a bit like a courtyard house, and it's like a Hui-style building with a middle courtyard, but it's two floors, and the middle hall is full of sunlight from top to bottom. I was surprised to say that your house is so big, she said with a smile that it's not big. There is a swimming pool in the front yard, one deep and the other shallow, and the west yard grows a lot of rare roses of different varieties and a small patch of vegetables. She grows amaranth, leeks, green onions, tomatoes and pumpkins. The North Court is a small golf course. Looking out from the living room, there are rolling hills in the distance. Their house is halfway up the mountain, so looking down, there are many lower houses, which are also palaces. There was a grand piano in the living room, and I asked who was playing, and she said the eldest son was studying. The younger son is learning the violin.

Later, her husband also went home. We have a barbecue in the yard together. During the meeting, we talked about education in the United States. I know this classmate is a stay-at-home mom. When she was in China, she also started the role of a full-time wife. She said she came to America to learn how to cook. Although, her family also has part-time workers to clean the room and repair the trees in the yard every week. But many times breakfast needs her to do. Her husband is only busy making money. But after coming to the United States, I changed from not washing dishes once to occasionally helping. There was some resentment in the words. She manages the education of both children. Her two sons came in third grade. Because of poor English, I wasted a year of time. Later, because I couldn't keep up with this year, I always fell behind others. Then I can't get enough of studying. Now, she is basically on the way to send her children to training classes every day. In order to get into a good university, she also forced her children to practice the piano every day. Knowing that we are going back, why do you want to go back to study because the education in the United States is good? I said my strength can't keep up. Many Chinese parents are fighting for money and strength, hoping that their next generation will be better than themselves. But does sacrifice really pay off? What about the happiness of parents and children? All are scattered over the years.

Her husband has a different opinion from her. He said that studying in the United States is self-consciousness. If you are not self-conscious, you will not be able to keep up with others. Chinese children are not as self-conscious as American children. smoke. So, if a Chinese child and a black child apply to this university with all A's at the same time, the school will consider the black child under the same conditions. Because the school also knows that the good grades of Chinese children are all forced by their parents. And how sad this is. In the United States, the company of parents is much more than that of domestic children. When the parents in the same neighborhood are clamoring for the school to be bad, the foreign parents accompany their children to do volunteer work, accompany their children to remedial classes, and accompany their children to take part in grading competitions. When the plane goes, what are you complaining about? Parents here are more invested. Whether it's money or time. I don't think I can do it. In China, going to a piano class to learn a violin is already very expensive. But here, your optics are useless, and you have to win the grade test, so it will be relatively easy to apply for a school when you go to college, otherwise, there is no card to play against others. Her two sons speak English at home, and they both forget to express in Chinese. Maybe someone will laugh at me, how is that possible? Parents who speak Chinese at home, how can they not speak Chinese? I can tell you that is the truth. There is such an article in which the author wrote, "I once interviewed an immigrant who came to the United States ten years ago, and went to KFC to order food the next day after getting off the plane. left. The shadow this incident left on him is still difficult to get rid of completely. And when your English is so good that there is no obstacle at all, you may fall into the pain of being far away from your native language. A novel written in English in the United States Jia Li Yiyun once wrote about this pain in the New Yorker under the title "To Speak Is to Blunder", "My decision to abandon Chinese with such a firm attitude is almost suicide. "There are too many children here who can't speak Chinese, even if their parents speak at home, but they can't express it, just like my son and niece, they can understand Shanghai dialect, but they can't speak the same. Then , the children here go to Chinese training institutions to learn Chinese, just like domestic children go to English training classes to learn English. I think of my mother-in-law's wife who passed away, leaving too much knowledge of Chinese culture. Worship and a sense of belonging as a descendant of Yan and Huang, even if he is a third-generation immigrant in the United States, I once opened a book on the Yellow River, and on the title page, he wrote in small letters, "My motherland, my root there. "This kind of patriotism of overseas Chinese really can't be compared with that kind of rotten people who hate everything in China.

Have you ever seen a 300,000 bill for a broken child? Her youngest son accidentally broke a fracture some time ago. Although the child has a white card for medical treatment, of course he doesn't have to pay too much, but he also spent more than 3,000 US dollars. The good thing here, she says, is that you can bargain. I think they all feel a lot of pressure for their strength, and for us, the pressure is even greater. Under various predicaments, I chose to give up. Because people's life is short, why lose their peaceful and warm life for an uncertain goal. Not every child is a dragon among human beings, and in her mouth, ordinary universities in the United States are not good, and children must be successful in the university in order to be promising in the future. I feel such pressure, can children be happy? She said that the cruelty now is responsible for the rest of his life. On the surface, education in the United States seems to be a happy education, and there is no pressure at all, but in essence, it fully reflects the strength of the class, the autonomy of students, and the perfection of fighting parents. If it is a married couple with two or more children, at least one of them is at home full-time. Three or four children are common in American families, and the poorer the poor, the more children are born. Because sit and enjoy the benefits of eating children. But I found that the real high-level group of people did not have many children. Two at most. I found that the teachers who gave us English classes only gave birth to one of the three teachers. I believe there is a huge amount of money spent on education for children. So, they have only one child.

The more I come into contact with the vivid people in American life, the more distant the life I aspire to. Because that's really out of reach. I am just an ordinary person, and I will no longer make the unrealistic American dream. Although I knew it for a long time, I was still beaten deeply from these lively people and things. Going to learn a musical instrument is not because you have a talent to like it, but because you have to force yourself to do something because you are going to school. That life is really sad. This is the case here, what is the difference between that and in the country. It's just another way of saying it's invoicing in places with less competition. I think I can root here, I will feel a sense of belonging, but in fact? Never expect to really melt into this complex variety of skin tones.

Looking at many celebrities, they have the money to send their children to study abroad, but who knows that their children are all developing in China. China's strength is there. It's just that some officials in China have blown it a little too far. This kind of person doesn't know what kind of heart he has. The more incompetent the person, the more powerful the flattery. Of course, not everyone can do this. All I can say is that everything is the best arrangement of God. Just wait and watch quietly, no one can control you. Because we are not Jiang Ziya.