"Those Dreams Taught Me" 04 - Terminal Illness

Background information

• Wake up time: 2021/08/03 07:15 AM (Sunday)
• Dream Date: 2021/08/07 (Saturday)
• Sleep time: about 6 hours
• Bedtime hints: On the eve of Father's Day, getting ready to go home (it has been half a year since the last time I went home)
• Awakened mood: moved with tears
• Dream's genre: Friendship Dreams, Family Dreams

Dreams

Act One

I dreamed that my mother had cancer and was already undergoing continuous chemotherapy. I didn’t care. I thought that now the medical level has improved, and everything will be cured if it is discovered early.

When I came out to chat with a group of friends (Shrimp and Shrimp), I learned that Elvis also had cancer. I confidently shared with Elvis that I had eaten a healthy breakfast before – two boiled eggs, maybe it will help! He also told him: "Just put it in the electric pot and heat it for 11 minutes, it will taste even better!" (Note)

Elvis also echoed the signature way: "Idiot, of course I know that!"

Elvis especially told me not to tell my colleague WW about cancer (he liked her in a dream), I want to say: Don't everyone know about it? He said that only WW knew about the whole company, because he was afraid that if she knew, she would not like him. I nodded silently, feeling a little cute and complicated.

A few months later I asked Elvis if switching to a healthy breakfast would help? How is the chemotherapy checkup? He frowned, shook his head and said, "This kind of thing will only continue to deteriorate, and it has moved from Level 2 to Level 3..." This time, he said in a tone that was not optimistic about his trademark.

I hugged Elvis tightly and asked him to take care, and I started to worry about Mom's condition.

Act Two

The scene switches to calling my friends and my uncle and my father to Kaohsiung again. My father is driving my friends. I sit in the middle of the back seat and see that there is no one in the passenger seat. I think: I should be the co-pilot. The seat is just right, a little self-blame, you must remember on the return journey.

When I got off the bus at the scenic spot and left, I forgot to take something from the back compartment. My dad was very angry and said, "The most important thing for this project is to change it to customer_based. How could you forget that as a PM?" (Note)

I know he's right, I really shouldn't have forgotten, I'm a little pissed at myself.

On the way back, I got into the co-pilot, and my dad scolded me once again in front of my friends for the importance of customer_based. This time, I dropped my phone angrily and didn't say anything in particular.

After returning to my grandmother's house in Kaohsiung, my mother took the video and photos of me dropping my phone and said, "How can you drop your phone? My uncle has seen it, how can you control your emotions so poorly?"

I don't want to explain more, just say: Some people have a worse temper (referring to my dad)

Mom sighed and said, "I don't know what will happen to Chen Ju (Note 3) in the future...

I said, "What do you mean...?" "Has the condition worsened again?"

Mom nodded,

I broke down and cried and couldn't accept that cancer was eating my family and friends again,

With tears in my eyes, I hugged Mom tightly and explained, "I just love face, I don't like Dad scolding me in front of my friends!"

I woke up with tears all over my face. Are there tears in and out of the dream?

Note 1: Heat 50cc of water in the outer pot for 11 minutes to make a simple soft-hearted egg.

Note 2: In real work, I was in charge of a project recently, and some important elements of the project were often told by the leader: "You are a PM, you should know this."

Note 3: It was my aunt in the dream. In fact, I don’t have an aunt, and Chen Ju has nothing to do with my family. In short, it is an elderly family member with a flowery haircut who needs to be taken care of.

Interpretation of Dreams

1. The switching of dreams is always so abrupt and natural, but sometimes I can find the shadow that runs through it - cancer. Since both my grandparents died of cancer, I am particularly afraid of this terminal illness.

2. Someone once said that after graduating from high school, we spent 93% of our time with our parents. Since then, every time we spend with our parents, we have only 7% of the remaining amount. If we don’t realize that At this point, we often neglect the time spent with our family.

3. When I finally realized that I was about to separate from my close relatives, the extreme sadness of the moment was enough to change a person's thinking. In my dream, I realized that it is better to spend more time with my parents than to go out and pursue things hard.

Fortunately, only the tears in the dream are real, the rest are fictional.

I also realized that there is a kind of tears, because of being moved to tears because of redemption

I don't work, I want to go home.

Idea Implantation-Inception

The cancer I fear most is colorectal cancer, which is the revenge of the hedonic diet. Since I was 50 years old, my parents have been paying attention to eating large oatmeal for breakfast, but I am not worried. On the contrary, I, who love to eat fried food, are more dangerous. When I was under 30 years old when I had a health check at the beginning of the year, I also had an additional cancer check.

1. Two hard-boiled eggs + a cup of hot American style used to be the breakfast for a year in the research institute. I have been eating like this for half a year, which is very economical, healthy and satisfying. After work, it’s annoying to break eggshells on the table, so I didn’t eat it like this. It’s time to pick up this good habit.

2. Family dreams and friendship dreams can always remind me to cherish the time I spend with the people around me. During the epidemic, some gentlemen’s friendships that were as watery as water have become a little estranged, and I have become a little closed. As Taiwan gradually began to de-escalate and unblock, recently I also began to invite friends to have dinner and get together.

3. I originally planned to go home for 2 days on the weekend for Father's Day, but now I decided to extend it indefinitely (just work allows WFH), and even bought an Apple TV directly to honor my parents.

It's just a dream, why does it affect me so much?

A: Fortunately, this is just a dream.

No matter how sad the dream is, how lucky you are when you wake up. When everything is a dream, everything can be saved in time.