Jennifer話很多
Jennifer話很多

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"Suffix" fake breaking text Qingzhi ft. Joanna

After the editor-in-chief Xiu Cai lost the ability to complain...

Editor-in-Chief: Snacks

 ◎Editor's note: In order not to make everything look too <V Weird>, let me first say: Today's appetizer is not appetizer, it's Mosaic aka Jennifer, this person is only appetizer in the article.

Snacks: (I really don't complain, what should I do?)

Snacks: (I read @Joanna a few articles and went back to listen to an episode of Podcast . What's there to complain about?)

Snacks: (Damn, this is my first substitute class, "Suffix" will be ruined by me...)

Snacks: (Forget it, I'll ask myself what I want to ask! Who told me that I was an Aries with 33% earth signs in my horoscope, rampant and stubborn)

Snacks clear the old phlegm

Snacks: Hi, Joanna. Have you ever asked yourself in your annual questionnaire : "As I get to know myself better, can I be myself?"

He also mentioned "I feel like there is a me inside, I want to break free, I want to live out myself. She is my inner child , I will protect her, let her say what she wants to say, let her do what she wants to do, Always support her, this is the meaning of my existence." This passage is very moving.

I read in another of your articles that you traveled around the world for seven months at an invitation from a partner storyteller, his lifelong dream .

How do you think accepting the invitation to travel the world, the seven-month journey, and the company (and bickering?!) of storytellers , has changed your relationship with your inner child?

Joanna: Your question really touched my heart and moved me a bit.

 I'm just asking this question for my own lust, I always feel like readers are getting ready to start Netflix?

I recently went back and rewatched the first season after watching Sex and the City: The Second Half of And Just Like That, and I found my perspective completely changed. In the past, I identified myself with the role of Kelly, and felt that I was able to understand her desires and pains. This time, I found the unreasonableness in it. Why would a smart woman rush to ask the other party to say the sentence "You are the only one"?

 can you? I force my boyfriend to say this every day, wait, I'm not a smart woman...

Do you think it's going too far? Wait, that's about to get to the point.

My love affair with the storyteller was budding, and around the same time I began to consciously accompany my inner child (her name is Xiao Perfect , inspired by a child who gave up the pursuit of perfection described in Jimmy's "I'm Not a Perfect Child" picture book). When we set off to travel around the world, I think Perfect was about five years old.

Less than half a month after the trip, I sprained my foot in Varanasi on the banks of the Ganges. Because of the need to constantly move around with a large backpack, I was very anxious when I was injured. The storyteller made a request to go out more, and I exploded thinking, " Why don't you understand that I'm already hurt, why don't you think about me ." (Huh? Or did I actually say it?) (The consideration for two people to act together is because of safety.)

 I'm sorry, when it comes to the Ganges, I think of Jolin Tsai's "Dancer", which reveals the age

It's kind of like the second arrow that Buddha talks about. An injury is an injury, and a physical injury is the first arrow, which is beyond my control. The second arrow is "Why am I so careless, what should I do next when my foot hurts", my heart is full of anxiety and turbulence. Then, as if two were not enough, I stabbed myself with a third arrow—why my partner didn't take me seriously . (The reason why there is no question mark at the end of the sentence is that I have already made up my mind, and I don't really want to ask questions at all.)

In other words, I'm not sure whether I deserve to be valued or not. This fear is too huge. Normal people will definitely project outwards. Storytellers are the most convenient/closest projection objects. Blame the storyteller for feeling underappreciated, and he's innocent too.

I'm not saying that Kelly's partner, Mr. Big, doesn't have any issues he needs to face (huh? Will he jump too far again?), it's just that I care more about myself, oh no, Kelly.

Kelly felt that Mr. Big was too perfect, and she couldn't be herself in front of him. She had to pretend to be a very sexy and funny image, and it also brought a lot of pressure. Perhaps what she was thinking was—if I've worked so hard and he still doesn't love me, is it that I'm worthless?

In fact, Mr. Big is not perfect, it's just that Kelly projected the perfect image in her heart, and there is no way to see what he really looks like . It's very possible that she fell in love with the imaginary Big. It's been less than a year, and I haven't understood each other yet (I've been with myself for so many years, and I haven't figured out myself yet). If someone I've known for less than a year now said "you're the only one" to me, I'd probably laugh it off? (keep a little openness)

 I don't care, I just want to listen, don't stop the arrogance of Pisces Moon

Back in India with a sprained foot (jump), it makes sense for the storyteller to want to get out and about. It hurts to hear her request because I want her to take care of me, or the inner child is hurt and looking for a mother.

I was sprained and wanted to rest, so I could refuse her request, which was very reasonable. At the end of the day, everyone just needs to think for themselves, because we always think wrong when we help others (think Mom always thinks for us, then?).

During the journey, it is false to say that there is no disillusionment while walking. In the past, I could take it for granted that the other party was labeled as "doesn't love me", and then abandoned the ship to find another ship with better equipment. As we go farther and farther, it is like picking up usable materials along the way, and slowly builds our own boat, carrying our own inner child.

 I just want to highlight: my inner child is contained by myself.

postscript

Joanna's favorite suffix is "-less," she says,

Maybe it's because I like to break up and leave, and feel that sometimes less will bring more (-ful).
It is also very interesting that the meaning of the word after adding less will be reversed, such as fearless, effortless (fearless, effortless), and of course shameless, fruitless (shameless, unsuccessful). It seems that you have seen a Tai Chi diagram. The front and back are part of the circle. "-less" means the white dots in the black, or the black dots in the white .
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