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[Stupid with Stupid] - Breakup Farce

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He Haitianwen✨ After more than 6,000 words, everyone needs to communicate well. Sometimes, the more you care, the more blind spots you have. Because of too much speculation and not saying what you want to say, misunderstandings and troubles are caused. Fortunately, they still held hands well. This article is very difficult to write, but it feels very warm after writing it.

Li Hezai bit his lower lip, full of astringency in his heart, sour and bitter, the corners of his mouth trembling in discomfort, he buried his entire face in his hands, and lowered his head helplessly.

Lee Donghae was hospitalized for the second time this month. He was sitting and waiting on the bench outside the ward. His legs couldn't help shaking. The brothers were watching Donghae in the ward. hoarse voice.

How could it be okay.


Li Te was the first to come out and saw He Zai Ku sitting on the plastic chair like a dying plant, he walked over and patted him on the shoulder.

"Brother." He Zai came back to his senses, and stood up anxiously, ignoring the numbness in his legs.

"How is Donghae?" His eyes turned red, and Lee Hyuk Jae looked at his trusted brother, clutching Leeteuk's shoulders with both hands, as if he was about to drown, and Leeteuk was his driftwood. Li Te also looked at him, Li Hezai's lips were bitten by himself unconsciously, and there was a little blood, but there was no blood on his cheeks, and his eyes were dark blue, and he didn't sleep well for a long time.

These two younger brothers are still worrying even when they grow up, Leeteuk sighed.

"He's fine, but he also suffers from stomach pain. He didn't eat well, so he got cramps." Leeteuk also felt uncomfortable when he saw Hezai's uncomfortable appearance. "If you're worried, go see him."

"Brother... I don't know if he wants to see me." Hezai grabbed Li Te's hand and lost his strength, and hung down softly by his side, his head lowered. In front of his elder brother, his loss of confidence and vulnerability was clearly revealed.

Li Te stared at Hezai's unkempt hair, smiled tenderly and distressedly, and stretched out his hand to smooth Hezai's hair, like comforting a kitten, his movements were light but warm in his heart. "Hezai, go see him."


When I entered the ward, my brothers were gone.

Li Hezai did three hundred and eighty-seven mental exercises for himself before he calmed down, and dragged his steps in, but when he saw Li Donghai lying sick on the hospital bed, he couldn't help clenching his fists and felt pain all over his body. It was hot, like being thrown into an ice cellar suddenly at the summer solstice and unable to breathe.

"Oh, the ex-boyfriend is here." The first time they met alone after the breakup, Li Donghae sounded quite pleasant, the cat's lips were raised, and he greeted Li Hezai flatly.

"Does it hurt?" Standing beside Lee Donghae's bed, Lee Hyukjae was as stiff as a humanoid standing, his eyes staring straight at Donghae's lips. At most, it's here. If he sees Donghai's eyes up, he is afraid that he will cry.

"It doesn't hurt." Li Donghai's voice was still smiling. He seemed to be very calm, so calm that he pretended to be. For a long time, the East China Sea Master could not hide himself, he had to show his feelings out, even if he wanted to hide him, he couldn't hide it. When did he start to look like an adult. When did his Donghai learn to pretend in front of him?

"It's going to hurt, you..." Li Hezai found himself unable to restrain his emotions, choked up, and his tears were about to fall. Turning his back, he turned to a place that Li Donghai couldn't see, and lowered his head, as if the trembling shoulders were not obvious.

"Why did you break up?" Lee Hyuk Jae calmed down, turned around, and threw the question. He has wanted to ask for a long time, from the day Li Donghai broke up until now, he has been wanting to ask.

Li Donghai didn't answer quietly, and Li Hezai felt his eyes fall on him, motionless. I don't know how long it took, Li Hezai raised his head and looked back, and when he saw Donghae's eyes, tears fell, "Why do you say you want to separate, you say you want space, but you didn't take good care of yourself?"


The process of their being together was abrupt, and their separation was also abrupt.

Lee Donghae has always liked Lee Hyukjae, he didn't say it, he liked it secretly. But Li Donghai is not good at hiding, and the star-filled eyes when he looks at Li Hezai can't hide from anyone's eyes, and of course he can't hide it from Li Hezai.

Li Hezai did not give a positive response, but just allowed Li Donghai's unbridled intimacy, let Li Donghai come in and out of the house at will, let Li Donghai call him in the early morning, and let Li Donghai hug him and act like a spoiled child regardless of the occasion. He has never had a cold face, just in Donghai When he approached him foolishly, he evoked a smile, and said in a low voice, "You idiot, Donghae."

This kind of relationship seems sweet to Li Donghai. Although he never knew what Li Hezai was thinking, the person he likes also seems to like him, maybe not what he wants, but Li Donghai thinks that he can get a crush on someone else. This response is already very good.

But a few months ago, Lee Hyuk Jae started not letting Lee Dong Hae stick to him. Li Donghai called him several times in the middle of the night to ask him for a late night snack, but he was rejected. The schedule also seemed to be deliberately staggered. He couldn't see him for two weeks in a row, and the messages were returned very slowly. Li Donghai wanted to ask, but he didn't know how to ask. Sounds like a normal friend, not a friend who is jealous because he secretly likes him.

It wasn't until Kim Heechul said that Lee Hyuk Jae seemed to be falling in love recently, that Lee Donghae's whole body was blown up, and he rushed out of the house regardless of anything, forgot his cell phone and wallet, and rode in the winter of November without even wearing a coat. Take his motorcycle to Lee Hyuk Jae's house.


When he arrived at the door of Li Hezai's house, Donghae realized that he did not dare to go in.

What if I see him with his girlfriend? What if he was really hiding from me and didn't want to see me? When he cares too much, his imagination becomes rich. The various possible answers to these two questions make Donghae's heart feel astringent, his chest is sore, and his breathing begins to be difficult. He feels that his head is about to burst. He can't lose Li Hezai, he really can't. Lose Lee Hyuk Jae.

But Li Hezai is free, and he has no right to keep him by his side. It is his choice who he wants to be with and whether to meet him or not. For the first time, Lee Donghae felt how humble he was in this relationship because he liked Lee Hyukjae. Almost suffocating and unable to think carefully, Li Donghai was afraid that if the unstable Libra fell, he would throw him into hell.


When Li Hezai got home, he saw Donghae sitting bare-armed at the door of his house, his head down as if he had lost his soul. He took off his coat, approached Li Donghae, and covered his coat, "Idiot, why don't you go in."

Li Donghai looked up at Li Hezai, his mood was obviously wrong, his eyes were a little swollen, and at first glance he cried. Before Li Hezai could ask a question, Li Donghai stood up, dragged Li Hezai with all his strength, and kissed him roughly.

Li Hezai was taken aback and subconsciously wanted to push him away, but Li Donghai was really too strong to break free. Li Hezai's waist was tightly bound, their bodies fit together, Li Donghai looked complicated, with determination to end his life, but his tightly closed eyes kept trembling, with tears hanging from the corners of his eyes, fragile and pitiful. Lee Hyuk Jae opened his eyes, and while letting Lee Donghae bite his lip, he reached out and gently stroked Lee Donghae's back, trying to calm him down.

After an unknown amount of time, Li Donghai let go of Li Hezai's lips, but he didn't let go of the hand holding him. He rested his head on Li Hezai's shoulder, not daring to look at his expression, "Lee Hezai, stay with me."

"Okay." Lee Hyuk Jae said.


There doesn't seem to be much difference between before and after being together, except that Li Donghae can kiss Li Hezai openly and openly, and he can also check in freely. But no one mentioned what happened that night, and Li Donghai didn't have the courage to ask Li Hezai if he was really going to fall in love with someone at that time, so he ignored him.

Because I like it so much, I become cautious. Li Donghae didn't dare to ask if Li Hezai really liked him, nor why he promised to be with him. This seems to be a stolen miracle, and he has to return it to God accidentally. Li Donghai feels that he is too happy, but at the same time, this happiness makes him walk on thin ice, and he is afraid of losing Li Hezai suddenly.


It's only been a month since they were together, and Lee Donghae's worries were put into practice.

It's more than a month worth remembering, he broke into Hezai's house to surprise him, sneaked into Hezai's closet, wanted to jump out and climb on his back when he changed clothes, kiss his ears and tell him how much he was. like him.

But surprise often turns into fright.

Lee Hyuk Jae was talking on the phone when he returned to the room, and Lee Donghae pricked up his ears curiously, not expecting those words to crush himself.

"...It's super clingy, it's really annoying."

"Brother, it's not me, it's him who said we want to be together!"

Li Donghai only heard these two sentences, and he couldn't hear the rest at all. Li Hezai hung up the phone, picked up his pajamas from the bed, and turned around to take a shower in the bathroom.

It's time to wake up from the dream, I was full of doubts when I had a crush on him and didn't dare to ask, and I didn't hear Li Hezai say that he liked me after we were together. Maybe it was because he was sticking to his side for so long and felt pitiful. Li Donghai cried, and he wiped away the tears fiercely, blaming himself for not being able to live up to his expectations. Having the opportunity to be with him is worthy of gratitude. People think you are annoying now. Didn't you half-force him to be with you back then? It was stolen, and now it's time to return it.

While Lee Hyuk Jae was taking a shower, he climbed out of the closet and sat in the living room waiting for him.


When Li Hezai went to the living room after taking a shower, he saw Li Donghai sitting there blankly, not knowing what he was thinking. He thought that Li Donghai had just pressed the password to come in and waited for him. When he was about to turn around and go to the study to get a gift to commemorate the month, he heard Donghae's voice: "Let's separate for a while."

Li Hezai turned his head in surprise, Donghae's expression was very serious, but the corners of his mouth were hooked in disobedience, looking very strange. Lee Hyuk Jae was about to ask why, but was interrupted by Dong Hae: "I need my own space. Let's break up."

Li Donghai tried his best to keep his composure, and he didn't even shed tears. He didn't allow himself to cry in this situation. I don't want to annoy you when we're apart. I don't want to soften your heart with the offensive of tears. I don't even want to see you without the slightest attachment, let me go immediately.

So Li Donghai took a deep breath and said, "Don't contact me for a while, I can't see you." He kept a little bit of self-respect, didn't look at Li Hezai's expression, got up, walked to the door, opened the door and left.


Seeing Lee Hyuk Jae's tears now, Lee Donghae was overwhelmed with fright. Lee Hyuk Jae, who was never very emotional, and calm Lee Hyuk Jae, why did he cry? Are you hospitalized because of yourself? Do you need to care about crying?

"Ah, why are you crying, I didn't mean to be hospitalized—" Before he could finish speaking, Li Hezai blocked his mouth with his lips. Donghai tasted a tinge of blood, and Li Hezai's tongue swept the city between his lips and teeth. , his big hands covered his chin and cheeks, wrapping himself in the palm of his hand fiercely, as if he was afraid that he would disappear.

Li Hezai had never been so active and fierce towards him before. Li Donghai was lost in it for a while and his thoughts were chaotic. He had always liked Li Hezai, and even after breaking up, he still liked him to the core. Li Hezai's lips left his, they were all breathless, and he didn't let go.

"Li Donghae, do you know that you are very good at torturing people." Li Hezai pressed his forehead, his eyes were closed, his voice was soft but it sounded very painful.

Li Donghae's unexplained expression angered Li Hezai, but he was reluctant to lose his temper at the sick Li Donghai. In fact, he was reluctant to lose his temper no matter when the person he usually held in his palm.


"You kissed me and told me to be together, but you didn't say any reason and insisted on being separated. Are you as unconscionable as you are, Lee Donghae?"

Li Hezai's low voice crashed into Li Donghae's heart, and Li Donghae shuddered, remembering the phone call he overheard, his own worries all along, and the sincerity that had never been responded to, so he was so angry that he pushed it away. Li Hezai looked into his eyes, "Who has no conscience? Don't you think I'm clingy? Don't you think I'm annoying? Didn't you mean you were forced to be with me?"

Lee Hyuk Jae looked at Lee Donghae suspiciously, "What are you talking about?"

"I heard you talking to others on the phone the day we broke up, stop pretending!" Li Donghai was so angry that the corners of his mouth trembled.

Lee Hyuk Jae recalled his conversation with Brother Heechul that day, and laughed in anger. "Lee Donghae, you really are an idiot."

When Li Donghai heard this, he was so angry that he really cried. He picked up the noodle box at hand and tried to smash it on Li Hezai, but Li Hezai grabbed his hand first, "When I say clingy, I mean that the company's younger brothers cling to you. Annoying, I hope you are the only one by my side. Being together is never forced, do you think if I don't like you, I will be with you?"

Li Donghai was overwhelmed by the questioning, and the feeling of anger has not yet subsided. He looked at Li Hezai with wide eyes with tears in his eyes, recalling that phone call, he was full of information and emotions for a while, and his brain could no longer function.


"Brother Che, did you know that Donghae went to dinner with the younger brother of the practice group again? Why do the younger brothers like him so much!"

"Aren't you talking nonsense, Donghae is so popular, didn't you fall into his hands yourself?"

"..."

"Just how sticky they are in Donghae, let our confident Lee Hyukjae become a love fool, come on, talk to your brother."

"Brother, really, they are really super clingy, they are really annoying."

"Don't you think it's too late to worry about this? Who said they wanted to be together?"

"Brother, it's not me, it's him who said we want to be together!"

"Yeah, Lee Hyuk Jae, are you telling me now that you regret it?"

"How can I regret..." Li Hezai paused and continued in a low voice, "Brother, you know, I like him very much."

If Lee Donghae listened carefully to the last sentence, he would have heard Lee Hyukjae's confession that he had never heard before.


How could Lee Hyuk Jae not like Lee Donghae. He has always cared about personal defense lines and would not easily draw people into his territory. He allowed Li Donghai to break into private space again and again, and even silently hoped that Li Donghai would get closer and stickier. It would be best for Li Donghai to have only Li Hezai in his world.

A few months ago, he avoided Li Donghai because he knew that he could no longer pretend to be an ordinary friend. He knew that Li Donghai had a crush on him, but this was enough for them to break all norms and constraints, no longer ambiguous friends, and truly become friends. lovers?

Li Hezai needed space to think about it, and in the days when he deliberately had space, he missed Li Donghai very, very much every day, and deeply realized how much he wished he was by his side all the time. To hell with all the rules, I just want Lee Donghae.

It was true that he told Brother Heechul that he wanted to fall in love, but in fact he was going to go to Lee Donghae to confess, but he didn't expect that Lee Donghae would come to him first, and he kissed him recklessly and said that he wanted to be together.

"Okay." Of course it's good, I can't ask for it.


It's just that Lee Hyuk Jae forgot that his Donghae is a person who is emotional to the core and is used to thinking a lot while the small theater keeps running. He thought that he didn't need to say more, and Li Donghai could understand his love, but it was obviously not the case. His children were so insecure, so insecure that they only gave up their feelings after hearing a word or two.

Finally figured out the crux of the problem, Lee Hyuk Jae, who was not good at expressing himself, decided to make a change and bent down and took Donghae on the hospital bed into his arms.

"I like you, I really like you, I like you very much." Li Hezai's voice fell deep in Donghae's heart, smoothing out those unease and doubts, and covering it with a bottomless warmth.

"Donghai, don't be afraid or doubt. From the past to now, I only like you. I will only talk to you when I fall in love, and I will only have you by my side in the future. I'm sorry, I didn't tell you this all the time. It's my fault."

Wrapping his arms around Lee Hyuk Jae's shoulders, Lee Donghae sobbed and burped. After so many years, it was the first time I heard Hezai's confession. It turned out that all the sincerity was treated with sincerity. It turned out that his Hezai also liked him very much.


Li Hezai gently stroked Donghae's back back and forth over and over again, and when the breathing of the person in his arms calmed down, he took out the small box in his pocket.

"One month's commemorative gift, I was going to give it to you that day." There was a little tear in the corner of Li Hezai's eye, and Li Donghae leaned up and kissed the teardrop. The people he loved became haggard this month, and they all seemed to be having a bad time. .

"What is it?" Taking the box, Li Donghai opened it and found that it was a cufflink that he saw in an antique store a few months ago, but he didn't buy because it was too expensive. It turned out that Lee Hyuk Jae remembered, even though it was just his casual remark, I really wanted it.

"It's beautiful." Lee Donghae looked at him and cried again, and Lee Hyukjae gently wiped his tears with his thumb, wrapping Donghae's face in his palm.

"We Donghae, why do we always cry so much." He kissed him gently, gentle and without lust, how much Li Hezai cherished and cared for Li Donghae, how full of love this kiss was, Li Donghae finally knew how much Li Hezai liked him , maybe even as much as he likes him.


"Stop saying goodbye." Leaving Donghae's lips, Li Hezai hugged Donghae tightly in his arms, Li Donghae lost a lot of weight, and Li Hezai felt distressed and felt that tears were about to fall. He never felt that he was a vulnerable person, but Li Donghai was his weakness. Li Donghai was not having a good life, and it seemed that he was in pain. People who didn't cry much would keep crying because of Li Donghai.

It is a nemesis, and it is also destiny.

"Well, no." Shrinking in Hezai's arms, Li Donghai has never felt so happy. The unease and doubts from before have all vanished. He hesitated because he was afraid of hearing the answer, but he forgot that the person in front of him might just not know how to express himself. If he had the guts to ask, if he had trusted Lee Hyuk Jae more, these things would not have happened. .

Lee Hyuk Jae is also thinking, if he gives more positive replies to Dong Hae, sorts out his lover's mind carefully, tells him how much he likes him, and makes him feel safe enough, maybe then Lee Dong Hae won't say that he wants to break up .

Now that he knows what the problem is, he won't let Donghai leave again.


"In the future, don't hold back what you want to know. If you want to ask, ask, and say when you are angry. You never need to pretend in front of me. When I say I like you, I like all of you. I can always do anything to you, understand? "

Looking at Donghae face to face, Lee Hyuk Jae said seriously, he didn't want his lover to suffer because of his delicate mind, he didn't want his lover to feel wronged secretly because he didn't dare to rely on his boyfriend, and he didn't want his lover to be uneasy because of unease. Believe in his sincerity.

Donghae nodded after hearing this, pulled Li Hezai back into his arms, and took a deep breath. His lost and found boyfriend has a delicate fragrance, like rosemary and tea tree, which is very calming. His boyfriend, his lover, his Hejae.

"I love you so much." Without thinking about it, Li Donghai leaned sleepily on Hezai's shoulder and spat out this sentence in a daze.

Before falling asleep, he heard Lee Hyuk Jae reply "I love you very much too" with a smile and a clear answer.


It was already dark when Donghae woke up. He moved his stiff hands and found that Li Hezai pulled a chair and fell asleep on the hospital bed. The hands they held each other did not let go. Li Hezai's sleeping face is very good-looking, his lips will be puffed up when he sleeps, and his eyebrows will be peaceful, and he looks as cute as a child. But he looks so tired now.

Li Donghai quietly pulled out his hand and touched his lover's eyes. The dark circles under his eyes were so deep that he could even see the blue blood vessels underneath.

His hands were cold, and he woke up when he touched Li Hezai.

"You woke up... Is your stomach still hurting?" Li Hezai straightened up and stretched, taking Donghae's hand back to his warm palm.

Donghae shook his head and touched Hezai's eyes with his free left hand, "How long has it been since you slept well?"

"It's been a while." From the day you said you broke up. Lee Hyuk Jae also grabbed Dong Hae's left hand and wrapped it in his own to warm it, "But with you around, I will sleep well."

Li Donghai moved his body and vacated more than half of the hospital bed, "Come up."

Li Hezai got up on the bed rudely, and took Donghae into his arms. They pressed their legs against each other, leaning on each other, resting their heads on Li Hezai's chest, and Donghae sighed contentedly. "Hezai, Christmas is almost here."

"Hmm. What gift do you want?" Lee Hyuk Jae kissed the top of Dong Hae's head, hugging his lover tightly.

"You." Donghae giggled, and after the haze dissipated, his lively and happy appearance returned.

"Fool, I already belonged to you." Lee Hyuk Jae also smiled and lowered his head to kiss Dong Hae's forehead.

Donghae shyly pressed back to Lee Hyukjae's chest. This guy is now serving straight balls, which is far from the way he didn't take the initiative before.

Taking a bite of the flesh on Hezai's chest, Li Donghai whispered, "Li Hezai is an idiot, and he's only now enlightened."

Hezai hissed, raised his naughty boyfriend's chin, and kissed it gently, "It's just right for a fool to match a fool."

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