根叔|gunshock
根叔|gunshock

⎡邊緣回望後,滑進一界混沌,從不掙扎。跟自己的過去過不去,執著地浮沉著。⎦ Still hope/to hand stitch my book/of ups & downs on a tightrope./No plan to elope/coz it just chokes.

|Take care of yourself|Take trivial details and abuse yourself, I am very good at it

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2022/119

Since yesterday, I haven't been able to concentrate, and I haven't completed anything. It's been another Thursday.

I don't watch talk shows very often, the stock of ideas is enough to meet the needs of socializing and breaking the ice and breaking the hell, and I am tired of being an entertainer to entertain guests, can't I always be on guard? I don't take the initiative to see people who are more funny than me, and I don't want to go to a competition, and they are all choreographed and rehearsed early in the morning. I have always cared about the content the most, not written in advance, but bursting on the spot. So I can accept myself without a haircut for half a year.

Today, Doudou let me see his fierceness. Not the super funny kind that turns heads. The neat and crisp movements and voice lines, and the right rhythm are very natural and smooth. Just watch the full half-hour compilation.

Depressed, of course, will not be swept away. But as I watched, I was thinking, should I continue to be self-abusing with myself for the sake of boring trivial matters? Maybe everything I care about doesn't matter at all. People don't pay attention to it, no matter how annoying it is, it's just me. What I didn't care about was finding the right person or not.

Okay, I'll take one more step back and think I've misplaced the point. Please, since you are always by my side, can you tell me what I have overlooked? I don't want a relationship that's worked so hard for each other to have my weird, shriveled, dry-looking seam open.

Damn, I was knocked out by a twenty-five-year-old for my stubbornness.


postscript

I thought of this when I was half awake in bed, and wrote it on my phone right away. The incoherence and incoherence should perfectly match the chaos inside at that moment. At least I can be sure of the last sentence.

【Pick up your eyes】
▋One watch, go to Mingxuan; roll a cigarette, write down an article. In the three hundred and sixty days of 2022 , I will try my best to continue to be sloppy, in order to maintain the messy hair and life. Only when I am not awake is willing to look at the six ways to make up for omissions. ▋

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