destiny

In fact, I accept my destiny of constantly performing operations, but I am helpless how many times this kind of thing will happen. I am just worried that I will lose more physical functions. Even if it is just a relatively simple brain operation, I do not want to do it.

A year ago in June, when I woke up, the shape of my head was no longer the same. The back of my skull was sunken in on the right side, and the hearing in my left ear was much worse. I felt great pain when I stood on my feet. Doctors say the artificial skull has been absorbed by the body and may require surgery. There are thousands of people who are unwilling to do this operation, because I don’t want to open my brain again, I don’t want to encounter another accident, and I am pleasantly surprised that the concave head makes my thinking ability much clearer, and I suddenly lose my eyesight and runny nose. The situation has also decreased a lot. After denying the surgery plan, it is the observation of this year. Regardless of life and work, the feeling is comfortable and improving. It is just that I need to go to bed earlier every day, and I don’t sleep for a long time every day. Waking up with a headache.

This year, my head has become even more concave. At the beginning of the year, I encountered an epidemic. The attending doctor who has been helping me with the operation was unable to come because of the operation. The doctor who served me sat two meters away and told me not to come any more, and invited him to check the brain. When I was pumping, I refused, and I smiled bitterly in my heart, but I also understood that all I could do under the epidemic was to look at the December MRI on the computer and the examination results of the A&E department in January.

The strong tinnitus in April made my hearing return to the state before the skull was concave, which made me ecstatic, and my English became clear and easy. I thought it was God's blessing, but on May 9th, I sneezed wildly. I lost my hearing after the situation. Losing my hearing in my left ear for more than three weeks made me feel confused about my coaching work. I still said to myself, "I hope tomorrow." I understand that the love of a job can make me feel no physical flaws, and it makes me love this ideal that I have persisted for five years! The urgent ENT follow-up gave me an opportunity to have an MRI, which allowed me to meet the chief surgeon of the neurosurgery. For some reason, my hearing gradually recovered.

This familiar doctor was already a consultant doctor in the department, and she felt relieved when she heard the loud voice with a little Mandarin accent. She didn't even need gloves, she put it directly on the back of my sunken head, and even said that surgery must be done. I shared my discoveries and experiences in the past year, just wondering if it is feasible without a pump? If not, is it okay to maintain the status quo? Right now, my vision is darker, I sleep less, and my body is more tired. I really don’t want to do this tenth brain surgery. I’m afraid that I can’t wake up without seeing light, I’m afraid that I can’t hear anything again, I’m afraid that I will face my fate again, and I don’t want to do any more. Feeling troubled by poor thinking ability, not wanting to not be able to do the work I love, I am really scared! The doctor still said: I will do it after the epidemic, and he did not respond to my worries at all. My father said, "Maybe it will be better after the operation? Give yourself a little confidence!" I know my father's inner worries, just He never showed it in front of me, and I understand it myself!

Because of this year's experience, I believe that hope is in tomorrow, instead of worrying about things I don't know, it is better to continue to keep hope in my heart, maybe my body can get better and better, even if I face this kind of predicament again, I am no longer the same. Because I have grown up and become active, it is normal to be worried. As long as I don’t mind talking about it, my family and friends are my best listeners. Mood, there will always be colleagues who are side by side. The life of the handicapped, let me learn, let me grow, let me become a better me! I just hope that tomorrow, after the operation, I can still face my fate with a smile.

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