Formal Diary｜Leave Oneself

I didn't expect the article the day before yesterday to pray that the visa application was approved, and the next day (8/26) I received the email of visa approval! Eight hours have passed since I received the letter, and I am still in a very excited state, unable to be myself; I also took a screenshot of the email of the approval notice and passed it to a few close friends to share the good news, but at the same time, I also began to worry about renting a house in the local area. Difficult fact, I even started to chat with my high school friend Z about the worst outcome, the big deal is to live for a while by working for a while, and if I can't make it, I will go back to Taiwan.

Even though I have a little more savings now than I did when I was 20, I have more worries. Is it because I have been in my comfort zone for too long? But Z reminded me in the message: "People really often get caught up in their own anxiety, forgetting that they made this choice for a broader perspective."

Well, in fact, I'm not quite sure what the original intention of making this decision was. I only know that the feeling of wanting to leave Taiwan began to accumulate a year ago, and it was not until the beginning of this year that I really made up my mind; the reason is not because the moon abroad really rather round, but some kind of strong push that made me have to push myself away from "myself", and all this was a decision based on a very negative emotion; When I was looking for relevant information about the country, I seemed to have found the old me who was curious about everything and not afraid of anything, and I miss myself so much.

Thank you to the universe, to my dear family and friends, and to me who has shed so many tears and is still here.

Rather than love, than money, than fame, give me truth. — HDT