Formal Diary｜Negative

A few days ago, the reporter published a series of reports on "The 25th Anniversary of AIDS Cocktail Therapy in Taiwan". One of the reports interviewed five HIV carriers who were the first to receive HAART treatment. The five interviewers were in their fifties. In the 60s, one of the interviewees who went by the pseudonym Xiangxiang described the process of diagnosis as follows:

When I was 33 years old, I, who had always been healthy, suddenly had two illnesses. One was that I had a cold that would never get better, and the other was that my liver index suddenly increased and I was hospitalized. It didn’t take long to find out that it was because of HIV infection, which made my immune system immune. It's not good to keep the disease bad.

After reading this, I suddenly felt very nervous, because recently my body's immunity has become better and worse, and many small problems have appeared. Therefore, although I had undergone HIV anonymous screening at the beginning of this year, after reading the report, I decided to go again. Do a screening. Although the Ministry of Health and Welfare now promotes " AIDS self-screening ", so that people can easily order reagents online and screen at home, but I am still used to going to the hospital to find a familiar nurse, probably because seeing her will make me I feel more at ease.

The last time I saw the nurse was more than half a year ago. This time I saw her in a bit of a hurry, but I still chatted a little about the current situation and asked if I was still consulting; at the same time, I also mentioned to her. The plan to go abroad at the end of the year, she laughed and said that when her son grows up, she might be able to come and ask me how to apply for the relevant visa, and also said that she also wanted the child’s father to go abroad with his son to experience; I replied shyly, my father may be able to use sightseeing Let's play with the identity for a month.

After the test paper came back negative, she confirmed to me again whether she had had high-risk sexual behavior recently. "If there has been no high-risk sexual behavior recently, then this test will confirm that there is no such thing!" When saying goodbye, she said, "I am very happy. I see you getting better and better."

When I walked out of the hospital, my heart felt so relaxed. Maybe my body has been in frequent troubles for a while because I ate or didn’t eat a while ago. I really have to start taking good care of my body!

Before going to bed last night, I didn't know if it was because I was going to have an HIV screening today, so I was thinking about it for a while, and then I was inexplicably triggered by some pictures. Fortunately, I noticed the voice of self-condemnation running out again in a short time; this It's a "symptom" that you have to adapt to in the days to come.

Praying that the visa application goes smoothly! : )