those voices stuck in my head

Why do you look like a victim?

You look so innocent.

my sex doll.

So comfortable, I haven't felt so comfortable in a long time.

come here.

You are already wet.

I couldn't help it.

It turned out that it was your first time.

Can it be without a condom?

Why don't you have an orgasm?

You look so beautiful.

Will you eat afterwards?

Trust me, I am very skilled.

I thought it was the last time I could cum in it.

You are so cute, I can't hurt you.

Have you ever raped someone and you aren't even aware?

It took me a year to realize what have happened to me. Another year to accept that I was a victim. And, if luckily I don't kill myself, you can call me a survivor.

How many years does it take for you to admit that you have committed crimes and crashed someone's life?

I know it's hard.

I've got emails sent from 2 people who tried to say sorry to me, but in the context, they never mentioned what they have done.

They only wish that I can forgive them.

But how?

If everytime I think of them and what they have done to me, I still fucking want to end my life.

How?

How can I forgive them if I can't even forgive myself?