"Future Rehearsal: Activate Your Quantum Change" Meditation Record-1

For the past three years, I have been trying to meditate, but the process has always been intermittent. It may be interrupted after a few weeks, and then I do it on a whim for a few weeks and I don't want to do it. The reason why it is so unstable is that I do not I don't know what the purpose and intention of meditation is, but I just feel like I can observe my inner changes; when I do meditation, I can control my emotions better. I remember when I was arguing with my dad, I suddenly woke up to myself I was about to say hurtful words, so I changed the subject and saved the family that almost broke up, but other than that experience, I didn't seem to have any special feelings.

But this time, I did a lot of homework before I started. I knew exactly what the purpose of my meditation was. I had read the intention of each step several times. I felt very good and quickly entered the situation.

the first week

My awareness increased, and I started to catch many actions that I made unconsciously, such as: I would want to shake my feet unconsciously, or I would keep watching old videos over and over again, and I found that I caught about After 3 times of these moves and they never came back, the first week was exciting because I felt like I was starting to take control of my body.

the second week

That's the week I'm going through. The goal of this week is to clear out old emotions. At first, I thought that what I wanted to get rid of was my guilt, so for the first four days I really practiced to release my guilt until I really did. The emotions that trapped me appeared. It was a sense of powerlessness. I recalled that when my parents divorced 8 years ago, I cried all night because I couldn’t do anything. The strong emotions and feelings are still imprinted. In the bottom of my heart, I finally know why, no matter how hard I try, I will destroy everything I have worked so hard for, and unknowingly get myself into trouble, because in my subconscious, I am a powerless man, I'm a lunatic.

Fifth day of the second week

After I discovered this emotion, I observed new physical sensations and inner voices like: As soon as I tried to do a work plan, I became very sleepy; I started to think about things It's hard to act, and my body resists leaving a familiar place, just like before writing this article, if I hadn't set the alarm clock, I might have been sitting in front of the TV watching the familiar old detective Conan.

Seventh day of the second week

Although my body is starting to get uncontrollable these two days, the good news is that I noticed these reactions and next.. I don't know what's going to happen, but I'm really curious what will happen after that Experience and change, temporarily make a record!

I'm He Pu, see you next week~