Waking up every day is the first of 14 days

April 12, Tuesday, sunny

After the community remained free of positives for three days on the 7th and 9th, positives broke out one after another in the past two days. How this came about, no one knows. It is said that they are staying at home. Except for nucleic acid, there is no opportunity for crowds to gather. I heard this morning that the positives from the two buildings refused to be transferred, and some people questioned whether it was necessary to do nucleic acid repeatedly - but in the final analysis, nucleic acid still needs to be done.

Yesterday, the team leader of the building informed that antigens will be done before 7 o'clock today, and nucleic acid will be done tomorrow; but when she woke up in the morning, she found that she told in the middle of the night: "Informed by the new district, the antigen self-testing work originally scheduled to be completed at 7 o'clock tomorrow has been suspended and changed to continuous. Three days of nucleic acid detection." The antigen is not as accurate as the nucleic acid, which means that the epidemic prevention and control continue to tighten, which is probably "to suffer the people again."

This was quickly confirmed. Last night, there was an urgent notice from the neighborhood committee in Pudong: "According to the requirements of the epidemic prevention and control department, the management of the 'prevention area' will be upgraded according to the requirements of the 'control area'." The reason is: there are many closures to adjacent areas. Areas that may generate risks in the control area will be upgraded to the management and control area measures. This is equivalent to overturning the division of the "three districts", which is a real practice of a change of state and order.

Halfway through the epidemic diary, I was called downstairs at 10 o'clock. The ninth round of nucleic acid was still under the previous cherry tree. In the long-lost spring, the flat bamboo orchid and the sorrel under the camphor tree are lonely and have no owner, and my heart is full of mixed feelings.

Since April 9, the nucleic acid test has been changed to a new "nucleic acid code", but that time I couldn't get it out. I heard that the system was crashed by the public. In the end, I could only use my ID card to scan it; Yes, take a screenshot earlier, but I heard a few neighbors complaining while queuing, and the system crashed again.

It's like a metaphor for our present life: the system has taken over our lives, whether you like it or not, but when you have to rely on it for a living, it breaks down and you end up on your own.

In the afternoon, I interviewed a senior executive of a company online. This was a job that had already been arranged, but it also allowed me to temporarily get out of the state of being blocked. illusion.

When I heard him predict the future of China's digital economy and said that the next "golden decade" would be, I couldn't help but ask: To be honest, I have often heard people say this in this industry in the past ten years or so. , It seems that every year I feel standing at the entrance of the golden age, but now, what is the basis for this judgment? ——Of course, he does have a basis, but I find that my expectations are being shaken, and it is no longer taken for granted as in previous years.

Compared to most people, the impact on my livelihood is relatively small. In addition to being unable to travel for on-site conversations, working from home can still conduct online interviews, discussions, and writing to complete most of the work. This is not like retail, travel, aviation, cinema and other industries, where the hand stops and the mouth stops, I am at home, the hand does not stop, and the mouth will not stop.

However, under the overturned nest, how can there be a complete egg? In the evening, an agent came to me, and Ai Ai said a few words, in short, the advertisement that was originally scheduled to be cast on my official account next week will be cancelled. This is not the first time. This is only the third time in more than half a year, and with the recent withdrawal of another order, there will be no advertisements on my official account in mid-April.

I don't need to ask more reasons, because they seem to have agreed, and their rhetoric is almost the same: under the epidemic, business is not good, so they can only reduce the investment plan. Whether it's true or not is irrelevant. It's like the "force majeure factor" of the moment. In the end, it's nothing more than the most vulnerable party to bear. Each of us is forced to become a survivalist in order to survive in this new era.

Wednesday, April 13, cloudy, heavy rain

Yesterday it was hot, 20-33 degrees, the second child slept dishonestly and kicked the quilt in the middle of the night; it turned out to be a cold spring overnight, and today the temperature plummeted to 16-22 degrees. Colds and coughs are tricky.

Although he was sniffing, he was still alive and well. He was playing badminton racket in the interval between online classes. One of them didn't pay attention and even broke the racket. We got a little annoyed and asked him what the hell was going on and he said, I'm just so bored. Playing games and watching animations have limited time at home, and he is not interested in drawing. In the end, he said that he wants to play cards with his brother. Fortunately, there are two brothers, even if they fight, they have a company.

Rather than loosening, the restraints are tightening. At more than 9 o'clock, the "Notice on Further Strengthening the Management of Social Order During the Period of Epidemic Prevention and Control" was issued on the "Shanghai Release", proposing that ten behaviors such as "persons in the closed control area go out of their homes without authorization during the closed management period" are strictly prohibited. I don't know if power was caged or not, but we are indeed caged by power now.

The 6th round of antigen self-testing in the morning, for some unknown reason, another round of antigen testing was carried out in the evening, twice in one day, I don’t know why it is necessary. Although some people asked and complained in the group, there was no reply. This is also a common sight in our society: don't talk nonsense, just do it.

Seeing a "Shanghai Street Neighborhood Committee Red and Black List" circulating on the Internet, our community is on the top of the black list. The evaluation is: "The street organization is poor, the information on confirmed cases is not transparent, and the information is not proactive." Of course, I think it's a good thing to have such a loose "no one cares", and those on the "red list" are actually divided into two categories: one is grassroots competent, strong organizational and mobilization ability; the other is the horizontal connection of the community. Strong self-organization ability. It all looks the same "good", but I want the latter and worry about the former.

Today, there is a ridiculous thing circulating in the WeChat group: in the Confucian Temple Neighborhood Committee of the old city, many residents are old Shanghai people who do not obey. Go, the people who were originally positive are quarantined at home, and other people are free to hang out in the alley and curse their mothers freely. Yesterday finally all staff nucleic acid, one-time all yin, yang is also stuffy into yin, ready to take the lead in unblocking.

We have a similar example here. I heard from a friend that the old lady who lives upstairs in his house has never done nucleic acid once, and the neighborhood committee can't do anything about her. Before this house leaked, it refused to cooperate, and it was unreasonable. Who would have thought that in this absurd era, such a character who seemed arrogant on weekdays would be turned into a hero. Morality has been shaken.

Thursday, April 14, overcast and rainy

At 9:30, I went downstairs to do the 10th round of nucleic acid. Last time it was one tube per household, and this time it was back to one tube for ten people. The medical staff who test nucleic acid are different each time. I don’t know if they are a little unskilled this time. Usually, it takes 3 minutes to complete the task. Today, there was a queue for a full quarter of an hour.

There was a heavy rain last night. Although the rain stopped early in the morning, the spring breeze was strong, and there was no rain dripping from the camphor tree canopy. The petals of a cherry tree covered the body of the private car below, and many people stopped to take pictures in the gap between the lines.

For some reason, I suddenly remembered a scene in Jin Yong's novel "Liancheng Jue": in prison, "day and night, there is always a pot of flowers placed on the window sill", which is the greatest relief in Ding Dian's prison life. When he found that a pot of yellow roses had not been replaced in time until it withered, he felt restless and finally decided to escape from prison.

In the days of boredom, people seize all the clues and hope that their lives will get better soon. Perhaps the same is true of refugees during the war: carefully discern all kinds of plausible news, hoping that the war will end before it can endure.

Today, many people in the group are talking about new signs in recent days. For example, the "Shanghai release" has not mentioned "dynamic clearing" for two or three days, the Chinese Center for Disease Control and Prevention has agreed to stay at home, and there was an unconfirmed rumor the day before yesterday. : Dalian, Shanghai, Ningbo, Suzhou, Xiamen, Qingdao, Guangzhou and Chengdu, the eight cities, as pilots for the optimization of prevention and control strategies, were officially launched on April 11 for a four-week period.

Some people soon suspected that none of these were true: "dynamic clearing" is still being mentioned (although it is unknown whether the connotation has changed); "home isolation" is conditional, not the "positive voluntary home isolation" that Shanghai originally did. "The last news seems to be true, but there is no airport in Suzhou - some people tease, Suzhou secretly built one, called "Meiyou Airport". People don't know what else to believe, and the truth seems to have become a scarce supply in limited supply.

At night, the company's side dishes arrived, a big bag, 20 catties of rice, and 30 eggs in one version. After dinner, the oat milk ordered at home arrived, and the team leader asked us to pick it up at the gate of the community because it was too heavy. I went over in the light rain and saw the long-lost gate with a barbed wire fence outside. A few people gave me a strange look, but said nothing.

There was more than one person who came out like me, and the guard scolded: "Why did you come out by yourself?" I ignored him. On the way home, I came across a few red armbands talking and laughing. I walked by quickly, and one shouted behind me: "Don't come out again when you go back!"

Friday, April 15, overcast and cloudy

At 4 in the morning, I was woken up by my second child. He wets the bed. Fortunately, now that he is old, he also knows that he gets up to take a bath, but he has to change the bed, and he can't sleep after tossing it down. He is indeed a worry-free child. Fortunately, the rain stopped today, and the bedding and clothes can always be washed and dried.

The potatoes and green onions that I planted on the balcony a few days ago have grown leaves. I heard that green onions are scarce materials during the lockdown period. Although they can't quench their thirst from far away, if they rely on their own vegetables to save the famine, I am afraid they will starve to death long ago. Yes, but what else? I was used to doing these farm work in the countryside since I was a child. I didn’t expect people to pick up this long-forgotten skill again in middle age.

Judging from various signs, the supply of materials has been gradually restored. Someone ridiculed before: "Life is four miserables: people are in Shanghai, food is in JD.com, money is in the stock market, and housing is in the bank." But as JD.com mobilized 3,245 front-line security personnel across the country to reinforce, today it fulfilled the order volume reached the daily average before the epidemic It is expected to recover to 60% the day after tomorrow and further rebound to 80% next week. Although I rarely use JD.com, I did hear from many friends that they started to receive goods from JD.com. One even received salted chicken bought on JD.com before the blockade.

I'm starting to notice a recovery in capacity, starting this Tuesday. That evening, the 2 melons we ordered were delivered; at 9 o'clock in the night, the neighborhood committee sent a box of vegetables; at 10 o'clock, a package of Ele.me's vegetables (50 yuan) also arrived. It was an order placed a few days ago. It looks like a lot, and many of them were crushed. It was probably a few days late, and the leaves of the vegetables were yellow. Burger King next door also resumed delivery, promising next-day delivery. This is the first time since the closure of the city that materials have suddenly become abundant. In the past two days, the company has also found a logistics channel for side dishes, which further proves that the logistics is improving.

However, a large number of capillaries remained obstructed. I had a video call with my mother at night. She said that the village has not served vegetables recently, but I went to the town at 4:30. There are vegetable stalls in the market. The small yellow croaker is now selling for 18 yuan for 15 yuan. , but it doesn't matter anymore. I was relieved and surprised: "Why do you buy vegetables in the morning?" She said, "Because the city management will be kicked out at 5 o'clock. The common people are so miserable, they say that the prevention area has been lifted, and they have to shop and sell vegetables secretly. in the middle of the night.”

In the countryside, every village still has an opening, but access is very strict. My aunt's house has too much food to eat, but I can't give it to my mother directly. What should I do? The two sisters made an appointment to meet at the intersection. Across the two barbed wire fences, the aunt threw a cabbage from the top with all his might—of course, there was really no way for the eggs.

One of my mother's junior high school classmates has been widowed for many years, and her only son was also sealed in Shanghai. A while ago, she developed herpes and had a comminuted fracture in her left hand. Although it was fortunate that she had a plaster cast on the eve of the ban, she was still in excruciating pain at home every day. Can't go to the street to buy food. Recently, I have been talking about delays in the farming season. If I don’t plant eggplant seedlings, I won’t be able to eat any of my own vegetables this year.

The mother was also sad when she heard it. She took a detour to a neighboring village to buy 12 eggplant seedlings, and then went around a lot and sent them to her. I asked, "Then you have to help her plant it? Otherwise, if she has a broken hand, can she still plant?" My mother said, "That's not necessary. She has a 92-year-old mother at home. Although her legs and feet are inconvenient, she can plant eggplant seedlings. You can still grow it yourself.”

Of course, the mother also took away the money for eggplant seedlings. "It's not worth a lot of money," she explained, not to mention that she found the vegetable farmer, and the other party almost sold it and gave it away, "because he was worried about not being able to sell it, so I went to the door to buy it, and he was already very happy. It's hard for farmers to earn a little money, and they can't sell what they grow, and then pull out and throw them away by themselves at the end. Do you know how painful it is?"

Saturday, April 16, cloudy

I received a notice early in the morning: "I received a notice from the street that there will be a new corridor that will be sealed and controlled within 5 days. Nucleic acid will be done today, and the rest will be antigens. The corridors with positive patients will be single-person and single-tube, and the adjacent corridors will be staggered. 5 ratios. 1 mixed tube sampling, and the rest are only antigen reagents." On the screenshot, the name of the community work group is "Last nucleic acid in April", which looks incredible.

It was originally said to be three consecutive days of antigen on the 12th and 15th, but it was changed to nucleic acid early on the 12th, and two more antigens were done in one day on the 13th, and there was no movement on Thursday and Friday. Doing antigen again today, this is the 8th round.

Today I wrote "The Places Without Voice", trying to focus on the pain that people in many places outside Shanghai are suffering. To be honest, I only have very limited information about those places, but I still want to draw some attention to the situation of the people there - someone posted a picture to ridicule the other day. On social media, Shanghai is like a darling, and Jilin is next to it. She was dying, and Ruili was even more submerged in the water. I also have relatives and friends who have been banned for 40 days in Quanzhou, but there is not much activity on the Internet.

I thought it would be difficult to attract attention to these places, but what surprised me is that this article has been read as high as 310,000 within the last 5 hours of its existence.

Someone reposted this on Weibo, and in the comments below, I saw someone sarcastically saying that this was just Shanghai people "surrounding Wei and saving Zhao", highlighting the misery of "small places" to show that Shanghai is not that bad. It's a shocking narrow-mindedness. What they see is not the pain that the specific person is suffering, but the status quo.

The situation in Shanghai is connected with other places. If Shanghai is bad, it cannot make other places better. I heard from friends that even the medical staff in the Kunming hospital have been affected by this round of lockdown, because many medical consumables could not be transported, and the situation is so serious that people are dying. Severing the aorta will result in the necrosis of all vascular tissue.

Sunday, April 17, cloudy

Last night, a friend called for help. An elderly man from Fuqing was finally released from quarantine after returning to China for three weeks, but he still had a red code, so that he was living on the streets for the past two days, almost starved to death and frozen to death. Unexpectedly, this kind of scene in Kafka's novel was staged in reality. I suddenly wanted to write this story down, which is also a fragment of the memory of the lockdown.

In the ninth round of antigens in the evening, every time it was negative, he kept on proving his innocence, and he was already numb. I participated in a group of 200 people, and it blew up at dusk. I don't know who posted what, because no one saw it. Suddenly realized that the internal logic of the two is the same: through powerful technical means, identify the problem molecules in the social body, and implement fixed-point "dynamic clearing".

I remembered a sentence I saw a few days ago: "Don't worry, Shanghai will definitely win, and the society will be cleared, but it's hard to say whether you are still in the society at that time."

My mother said that now I don't dare to get sick, and some people in the village don't dare to go to the hospital when they catch a cold. If you want to see a doctor, you have to go to the village to issue a certificate. She said, fortunately, when your father was seriously ill, he forced me to learn about battery cars. Otherwise, if I was sick now, I would not have the strength to go to the village committee.

Speaking of which, she was fortunate to put her father's grave in time before the Qingming Festival, and felt at ease, this time many people in the countryside were unable to pay homage to the deceased, "I can't even buy a piece of tofu. live in such a world."

Of course, there are also people who believe that they will definitely win, and half of the mahjong tables feel okay, "Our country is very strong." At that time, my mother couldn't help but say: "You are all retired, and you were idle at home. I don't feel it if you are not sealed. Open your eyes and see how hard the young people are now? They are all old and young, what are you trapped at home? If you can't do it, what do you rely on to eat?"

When she said this, she sighed: "These old men don't know household expenses on weekdays. Maybe they don't even know that the rice tank is empty. They really don't know how expensive the rice is when they are not at home."

Monday, April 18, cloudy

At 8:00, the 10th round of nucleic acid. Our building was the first to turn, and this time it was under the camphor tree next to the building, so we didn't have to go far, and we were done in three minutes. Suda smiled and sighed: "It's not good if it's too close, I finally had the opportunity to dangle a little more below."

The weather was nice today, and besides washing and drying clothes, I also asked my two children to help with housework. I didn't pay attention to exercising them before, but now I have nothing to do at home, let alone thinking about such a city closure, I don't know if they will encounter them again in the future, not to mention "extreme survivability", at least a little bit of self-care ability. necessary.

I have also heard in the past two days that many people have been at home for a long time, and "the birds are fading out of their mouths" - they used to rely on restaurants to solve the problem. When I came out, I was almost killed by the food I made.

Two days ago, the company’s administrative announcement said that we will serve dishes for everyone. Some colleagues said that he could not cook at home and needed dry food, biscuits, and instant noodles. . Administrative Answer: "The package is unified. If there are dishes that you don't need in the gift package, you can exchange or support your neighbors. If you can't cook, do you have an electric kettle? You can cook vegetable egg soup in the electric kettle. "Although everyone is living a hard life, some people may have a harder life.

After the corridor was sealed and controlled, a duty was arranged, and today it was our turn to disinfect the corridors - in fact, the doorknobs and stairs of each house were sprayed with disinfectant. However, after so many days, the neighbors are really close to each other. My house is on the top floor, and sometimes I see the neighbors' dishes and help them to bring them up.

We have lived here for 20 years, and our neighbors never inquired about each other’s private affairs, but now we actually know the occupations of each family. What if we can help each other? For Shanghai people, this was really unfamiliar at first. Words, because before the lockdown, it wasn't necessary at all.

Tuesday, April 19, overcast

Nucleic acid is suspended for one day today. Antigen was done in the evening, round 10. I heard that the current practice is: do the antigen before the nucleic acid, and do not do the nucleic acid when the antigen is abnormal. If so, then if the nucleic acid tomorrow, it can be reversed that today's antigen is normal.

Someone made a picture, and the situation of this community in recent days is clear at a glance: on the 27th day of closed management, there were still positives yesterday, which belongs to the closed control area. There has been no sunshine for 14 consecutive days, and you will have to wait until May 2 to leave the community.

But it seems far away, because after three days of no sun on April 7-9, new positives appeared every day after that, which really confirmed the joke on the Internet: "Waking up every day is the first day of 14 days. one day."

It's like a nightmare that is hard to wake up from: because of the morbid fear of an alien whose harmfulness has been greatly reduced, a lot of human and material resources have been invested in this bottomless pit, and everyone is trapped in a stubborn cycle. Every day depends on luck to survive , while doing so is said to protect you. This is overprotective and, for the individual, humiliating.

As strange as it may seem, it is sometimes completely missing as it should, like a system that traps itself to death.

I heard such a thing: a 12-year-old child walked back 54.9 kilometers from the isolation hotel in the famous ice and snow city in Lingang, with no car and no bus, because he was in close contact. Outside the home, from 8:00 in the morning to 5:00 in the afternoon to get home.

I have also walked 50 kilometers. A few years ago, I participated in the "One Egg's Runaway" charity event. I started from Disney at 9:00 in the morning and arrived at the Oriental Sports Center at 8:00 in the evening. The whole journey is 50 kilometers. Except for replenishing, resting, and eating at the check-in point in the middle, I walked for about 9 hours, but I am an adult, no weight, and the route is guided along the way. The food and drink are very sufficient. A child can walk 55 kilometers in 9 hours. , I'm afraid it's unlikely, but even if he took a subway in the middle, it was amazing enough.

Think of a child walking for 9 hours on an empty road. It's like a scene in a sci-fi movie. Because of its absurdity and horror, it has become difficult for us to applaud his personal heroism because none of us want to be ourselves. children become such heroes.

April 20, Wednesday, sunny

I woke up at 6 and saw a message from my mother at 5:30 wishing me a happy birthday. Birthdays are indeed birthdays, and it's hard to be happy. This year, no wishes are allowed, so as not to be difficult to fulfill.

At 10:00, the 11th round of nucleic acid. When queuing up, the second child said, "It used to be Dad's birthday, we could go out for a dinner, but now we don't know when we will be able to go out." The first one smiled and said, "I can't wait until my mother's birthday, right?" Suda's birthday is 5 28th.

From the perspective of the number of infected people, the situation in the past two days is improving. Even though the number is still quite large, more than 80% are within the scope of isolation and control, and there are very few social aspects. Chongming and Jinshan have taken the lead in announcing today that they have reached zero social status on the first day. These two outer suburbs are the least developed, especially Chongming, which has the weakest connection with the urban area. The vast majority of infected cases are on Changxing Island. Very few.

If it goes on like this, the city can't stand it. Four days ago, on April 16, the Shanghai Economic and Information Commission issued the "Guidelines for the Resumption of Epidemic Prevention and Control of Industrial Enterprises in Shanghai (First Edition)", which clarified that the district governments, streets, towns and parks should actively support the resumption of work and production of enterprises.

Today, Vice Premier Sun Chunlan announced that "the war in Shanghai has achieved phased results", and the Shanghai State-owned Assets Supervision and Administration Commission issued a document requesting to "make every effort to resume work and production and resume the market" - but the Education Bureau did not come out to mention "resumption of classes" and "resumption of work and production" Also in front of the "resumption of the market", this may show that the government is most concerned about resuming production, not the market and people's livelihood.

A few days ago, Reuters and Lianhe Zaobao revealed that April 20 was the turning point for Shanghai's epidemic prevention. Like any previous plan, it did not seem to have been realized by surprise. A friend jokingly said to me, "It seems that I still have to rely on your divine power!"

Of course I have no magic power. But what surprised me is that after writing " Birthday Under the Lockdown" today, many readers sent me messages with similar meanings: Thank you, for giving me strength in these gloomy days and making me feel like myself Not alone, see a ray of light.

That's actually what I wanted to say to you.